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What does my dream mean? I feel sick

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I had a dream last night. It has been bothering me all day for two reasons. One, because it was so real. I can remember every detail and I remember how I felt in it. Two, because how I felt in the dream is not how I feel awake. The dream emotions make me feel is sick and twisted. There is a story I have to tell for some background understanding.

When I was 19 I got pregnant. I couldn't raise him, I knew I couldn't but I also couldn't get an abortion. So I had the baby and I gave him up for adoption. To my older sister and her husband. Now. I love him like crazy. I hate that I gave him up because I miss him every day, and I am so grateful I did because he has two parents and they love him and he lives in a mc mansion and has everything I would have never been able to give him. I see him once or twice a year. It is hard but it was the right decision. I love him more than anything in the world. I think about him all the time, but I am just an aunt.

The dream starts out and Im taking a shower. I have the tub full for some reason with bubbles mounded on the water. Im standing in the bath and the shower is pouring over me, I am clearly naked and I remember feeling relaxed under the warm water. The shower stops and sink into the tub, which is now big enough to swim in, and I feel fingers. Good fingers softly tickling my clit and rolling my nipples under the water. I feel a giant cock start to swell against my back. The fingers in my clit start to go faster and I lift up and let the penis in me. At this point I still haven't seen who this person is, but in the dream I am so turned on. His hands are everywhere and I am impatient, I turn around and straddle a gorgeous blue eyed man. We continue but as we keep going he gets younger, like he started out about 25 but now he looks maybe twenty. He puts his dick in my mouth and then he is 18 he is licking my pussy as a fifteen ish boy and when we fuck he looks younger, like he is about 13. We are in bed and he says to me, is what we are doing wrong? And I said no, nothing that feels this good could be wrong. The 13 year old boy puts his mouth around my nipple and starts sucking, and then we start fucking again only now he looks around ten. The sucking my nipple and fucking me the little boy looks at me and says, I love you mom.

I woke up and ran to bathroom where I vomited. I had been so turned on the whole time, so into it, my panties were soaked. WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN. I am not into incest or fucking little boys. Thats not a turn on to me. So what the fuck. Any Answers would help.
 
Maybe it means you are missing your son? Do you have any contact with him at all, or your sister? If not, why not visit him and your sister?
 
It probably doesn't mean anything incestual although that's the way it was put together. Dreams are the brains way of processing and cataloging important information of the previous day. Usually put together in an abstract and absurd manner. Could be just sexual lust, lonliness and thoughts of missing your son intertwined in a weird ass dream.
 
Ligaturd said:
It probably doesn't mean anything incestual although that's the way it was put together. Dreams are the brains way of processing and cataloging important information of the previous day. Usually put together in an abstract and absurd manner. Could be just sexual lust, lonliness and thoughts of missing your son intertwined in a weird ass dream.
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So true. I understand being scared and disgusted or whatever by a dream. It doesn't mean anything bad on you though. I've had some seriously messed up dreams and I'm like WTF was wrong with me. It's just a very bizarre way of putting together various things that are important to you at the time as well as random things that have happened throughout the day.
 
Dreams are more about how u feel not what you see..id say your subconscious just scrambled together u being horny with the yearning to be with your son

i had a weird dream once where my sister kept trying to suck my dick and I kept pushing her off and screaming NO!!..I couldnt sleep and felt sick the rest of that night ..the subconscious mind is not meant to be taken literally
 
Dreams mean nothing. Shake it off. I've had some where I wake up and feel different from just how lucid and real they are, but you learn eventually that they are nothing. You'll be fine the next day.
 
It's the Oedipus complex that Freud talks about, the desire for the son to sexually go after the mother (and be in competition with the father). It's always an unconscious fear of the mother. There was a movie done on Oedipus, a seer told two parents (King & Queen) that their son would kill the husband and marry the mother. So they left their baby in the woods, leaving him to die. Little do they know, a farmer in the area finds the baby and takes him in. The father ends up getting killed by the son whose all grown up and find the widow (the mother) and purposes to her. At the end of the movie, they all find out that he's the son and she's the mother. The mother kills herself and the son gauges his eyes out at the site.

Just curious, what does water mean to you? Without thinking too much, just type literally whatever comes to mind. What do you think of when you think of water?

Dreams are usually a way that the unconscious tries to works out problems or "unfinished business" from the past. So perhaps, your son is unfinished business and you're not really at peace with everything?
 
Pretty_Diamonds said:
It's the Oedipus complex that Freud talks about, the desire for the son to sexually go after the mother (and be in competition with the father). It's always an unconscious fear of the mother. There was a movie done on Oedipus, a seer told two parents (King & Queen) that their son would kill the husband and marry the mother. So they left their baby in the woods, leaving him to die. Little do they know, a farmer in the area finds the baby and takes him in. The father ends up getting killed by the son whose all grown up and find the widow (the mother) and purposes to her. At the end of the movie, they all find out that he's the son and she's the mother. The mother kills herself and the son gauges his eyes out at the site.

Just curious, what does water mean to you? Without thinking too much, just type literally whatever comes to mind. What do you think of when you think of water?

Dreams are usually a way that the unconscious tries to works out problems or "unfinished business" from the past. So perhaps, your son is unfinished business and you're not really at peace with everything?
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Water-thirst clean
I thought of them both immediately. Well, the "father"/sperm donor drowned in an inch of water, hammered drunk when I was in my first trimester, so I don't really know how Oedipus came in. My nephew isn't old enough for that anyway. Of course I am not at peace with everything. I can never have another child, and I gave the only one I could away. Because I couldn't care for him. Did I do the right thing? yes. Am I at peace, No. I never will be. I am at peace with the fact that I will never get over it, and I must never discuss it. That I can never behave as if I am a mother, that I never can admit to having a child. To pretend forever that I don't want children when the truth is that I can never have any more, and even If I could, I would NEVER have them. I would never want him to think I loved another child enough to keep, but not him.
 
Water- thirst? Needing something & knowing what will fulfill you come to mind.
Clean? Washing away dirt or negatives.

The father drowning in water is an interesting connection, kind of ties in the water. He isn't old enough, but in your dream, he was wasn't he? It's not suppose to make perfect sense, its just interesting to kind of step back and really analyze your dream. Only you have the answers. So you did the "right" thing, but it doesn't make you feel good. I think what's also hurting you is the fact that your real son can never know that you are actually his mother. You hardly see him... I mean, that's tough. I can feel your pain and I'm sorry that you have to go through that. If also sounds like you are going through another struggle, the decision you have already made of never having kids and never being a mother. I mean, there's a lot going on right now. I feel like you feel like you are making all the "right" decisions, but yet aren't sure if they are "right for you" or if you can handle the consequences of these decisions.
 
Water- thirst? Needing something & knowing what will fulfill you come to mind.
Clean? Washing away dirt or negatives.

The father drowning in water is an interesting connection, kind of ties in the water. He isn't old enough, but in your dream, he was wasn't he? It's not suppose to make perfect sense, its just interesting to kind of step back and really analyze your dream. Only you have the answers. So you did the "right" thing, but it doesn't make you feel good. I think what's also hurting you is the fact that your real son can never know that you are actually his mother. You hardly see him... I mean, that's tough. I can feel your pain and I'm sorry that you have to go through that. If also sounds like you are going through another struggle, the decision you have already made of never having kids and never being a mother. I mean, there's a lot going on right now. I feel like you feel like you are making all the "right" decisions, but yet aren't sure if they are "right for you" or if you can handle the consequences of these decisions.
 
yeah everyone has had that creepy fuck dream.

its no biggie

you do prob though miss your son and im a way its symbolises you missing out on him as he grows up.
 
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