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what do you want in your life to change to stop using

SoonAJunkie

SoonAJunkie

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Everyone's missing something on life...thats why most people are using drugs.Or plain stupidity but let's not talk about it.What would you like to be different in your life to stop using drugs?like,you wouldn't even smoke weed again.What has life done to you to be using drugs?I know this is personal
If you don't want to talk about it I'm ok...i just want people who are willing to share with us all the situation that made them use drugs.
 
Good post and indeed, its really personal.

Hard to say. It's like asking why I have anxiety or why i can get depressed. I know the answers, but not fully.

I had a crush on a girl once, i personally stopped all hard drugs for 12 months just to add to my self-improvement to get her.
She has a boyfriend.

I now do drugs again, for fun, and so far , so good. the 12-month break had me stitches.


So i suppose, if i had more ppl in my life i loved or loved me, i would be more happy, and use less drugs.. Maybe.
maybe not.
people and chemicals can just be bad news sometimes.

[edit] i think i take drugs because i am (self-diagnosed) - depressed and anxiety caused by the depression. but i don't know, life is good, sometimes. I can live with it but i think drugs mask this problem.
 
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I want life off drugs to feel like the best parts of life on drugs.

I tend to doubt that'll happen though.

It's a lot of things that lead me to using drugs, the problem is, even if all of them stopped, then I'd need all the memories of it to stop too.
 
I started with weed because it was fun and then lead to bars which relaxed me, and then to opiates to feel even better. Anyway I think I do it because it makes me feel good, I'm self medicating and it usually puts me in a good mood. High school was a little rough going to an all girl school and my dad was an ass so I think in a way using was my escape from reality. My issue is I forgot how much fun I use to have before ever using drugs and that's the hardest part for me to quit.
 
Low self esteem and the confidence boost that comes with the opiate high is what started me using daily. Now after two years of of bull shit and riding the junkie coster my confidence is actually higher then ever. I just need to find a way to quit with out being out of commission. Got to keep up appearances right? Fuck man I wish I had 5 or 6 free days to withdrawal!
 
You do realize your pain is psychosomatic, right? If you truly want to get rid of the pain, it's going to have to start with honesty.
 
Honestly, I do not know. I could say I would want to get rid of my pain, but I used drugs long before I was in pain so that would be bullshit. I could also blame using drugs on being depressed at the moment but I used drugs before I became really depressed, so again it would be bullshit.

I want my pains to be gone so I can stop taking drugs everyday that I do not enjoy (pregabalin / gabapentin). Other than that, I do not really have any desire to be completely clean. I just don't want to feel obligated to use drugs everyday just to not feel like shit.
 
i am not sure...i have always been interested in drugs i swear i was the youngest lurker on hte website ha seriously). So i had no hesitations abut trying opiates and then later i got a consistent connect to H and i was done. I prolly use daily to ease the stress of daily work and school. Also, if my wonderful family wasn't around id have to quit fer sure.
 
I used because I was lonely, unsatisfied with my life, and stressed out about my living situation

I'm seeing someone now, it's a complicated thing, but I love spending time with him. Drug use isn't conducive to seeing him (he's a square, I can't tell him I use) and tbh I don't like going to see him high, or on any substance. He's part of the reason I quit dope.

As for the last two reasons, I'm working on getting a new job so I can save up enough money to move out. Using dope took a lot of my disposable income, which was stupid, because I was using dope to escape my situation instead of, y'know, working to actually CHANGE my situation and escape physically instead of with substances.

11 days clean from dope today. on a low methadone dose and hope to be off it within a month or so.
 
not sure i will ever want to quit booze/weed

as far as opiates i have been able to use them sustainably (definition open to interpretation), so seeing a situation where i would never want to do them again is tough

i used to use hedonistically to escape malaise but that is less and less frequent now

ideally i would quit occasional opiate use for a "true love." key word being ideally. i enjoy doing whatever the fuck i want and compromising that at this point in my life (26) remains unattractive. i do recognize that should this "love" thing come into play, my desire for extraordinary sensory/neurochemical experiences may decrease on its own.
 
Good question. Addiction is a disease, not a cop out. Those who don't believe it need to pick up some literature. I have depression, which is medicated, a great life and no complaints. Nothing can be blamed for my use other than my addiction. I have tried treatment many times and it's crap (no offense to any it's helped). If I can't get drugs I order bath salts, which rock in my opinion
 
I like this thread, as a teen, 14-15, I started fucking around with Rx opiates/opioids like hydrocodone along with huffing, using DXM and smoking pot. This is around the time shit got bad between my parents, my dad's an alcoholic and at this time they finally got divorced. I remember when he did live at home and it was like walking on eggshells around his ass, one slip up and it could of turned into a physical fight between us. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety at 16 and started taking SSRI's and benzos to try to cope but shit just kept getting worse, I found out my dad was remarried through a friend and it just happened to be while I was getting arrested. Shit started to get really bad, I was smoking a ton of pot everyday and all the sudden, after a huge fight on thanksgiving, we just completely stopped talking for months. The last time I talked to my dad was almost 6 years ago, I was addicted to heroin then and I was so desperate, I figured I'd get a ride from my girlfriend at the time to go get some cash from him so I could get some dope. Since then, I've tried and tried to see him until I just gave up, its obvious he doesn't want to see me, he'd at least call me once every 5 years if he did.
I wish we were close again, I've always disliked my dad because of how he acted while drinking but now that we're just strangers... idk, I feel kind of unwanted and it hurts. Its not just me though, he does this shit to my older brother too so IMHO, he's just a drunken asshole who doesn't want kids to have to deal with..
Another thing that really stresses me out is my lack of a relationship, I've been single for like a year and a half and I just feel ugly, my teeth are fucked from smoking shit and lack of dental care while on dope and I just feel uncomfortable even trying anymore... I've honestly just considered killing myself for the last few months. I feel really alone and unwanted, if I found a girl who loved me and if I could also find a father-figure then my urge to use would be way less then what it is now but I am an addict and will admit that a dad and a gf wouldn't solve everything and I probably would still have cravings but honestly, if I had the unconditional love from either my missing parent or a girl, I really think that I could make an attempt to at least get off bupe, quit smoking bud, quit drinking alcohol and rarely use benzos except when I really need them but right now I just have a hard time finding a reason to stop, honestly without the drugs, I can guess I'd of killed myself by now so now I'm just using until I have a reason I care about enough to quit.
 
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Nothing. It happened a while ago, and I'm a shitload happier for it.

I'd been having problems with anxiety and panic disorder for a while and also concurrently doing a lot of drugs. I've been smoking weed since I was a kid and had already tried a fair few when I was 20, so I'd never been averse to drugs in general, but now I started doing a lot more hard drugs than before. I dropped out of college for almost a year, owed about a year's tuition, was hooked on benzos.

Basically, it took a couple of clichéd wake-up calls in the form of an OD for me and a couple of weeks later my best buddy, realizing that for the past half a year up until that point my trajectory had been very predictable. I got lucky - I came clean to my folks, borrowed some money from them, paid my tuition, got my shit back together, and... Now I'm about to graduate. The only drug I consume on a regular basis is the same i started with - weed - and sometimes amphetamines (low dose) for studying purposes. Psychedelics now and then whenever I feel like it, the odd benzo or bag of dope (like 0.2g less than 10x a year).

I'd been having psychological problems and started doing too many hard drugs, and as I became aware of how bad it was, I didn't see a way out... So I just spiralled into more and more shit. Eventually I got sick of it as I realized I would probably die within one year, and it wasn't as if I could tell anyone I'd really enjoyed it, got my money's worth, or anything.

I have been becoming a bit passive in the last six months, though - and for me, that means a vegetable - I need a girlfriend, then I wouldn't have to smoke so much weed. It's actually kind of a problem because though it's cheap by drug standards, 2-4g a day isn't ALL that cheap, and it seriously exacerbates my tendency to procrastinate.

About a year and a half ago, I desperately wanted something to change... It happened pretty fast. And I'm not going back.
 
I always wondered if most people hit the lottery for like $100 million, would they stop using & just live life to the fullest w/o drugs.........I need pain meds for my back pain bit I know when I'm feeling great about life & everything is going great, I have less pain.

When I'm stressed out & anxiety is hitting, it feels like pain is several times stronger.

I guess everyone has different fantasies coming true, etc.....but I'm pretty sure $100 million would change people for the better & some for the worse, that's life & if it changes you for the worse, its a shame.
 
^^ if I got 100 million I would probably never quit drugs. Honestly.
If I knew what I needed to quit using everything I would get it and keep using. I like drugs. But, opiates... I wish I knew. It's so hard... It seems like when I was happiest in life I would start using again though so I'm not sure if depression or anxiety really matter in my case.
 
I would gladly give up all drugs if I was just healthy. I would miss certain drinks, but it would be completely worth it if I somehow managed to get that tradeoff. I'm not much of a rec user though.
 
t-girl72 said:
Good question. Addiction is a disease, not a cop out. Those who don't believe it need to pick up some literature.
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What literature are you reading? NA? That shit's bullshit.

Addiction is a choice. It's a choice which is exacerbated by anxieties, insecurities, depressions, and by the fact that the more you do something fun, the more you desire it.
 
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