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Weird feeling I had when I was a kid

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BK Bonkey Kong

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When I was younger up to maybe my mid to late teens, I used to get this sensation that I still to this day haven't been able to fully describe. It was something somewhat vaguely sexual but also drug-like in effect, but definitely not drug-induced as I was not yet using drugs. The common theme between all of the experiences is that I felt really vulnerable at the time of the effect and entered a state of intense and pleasurable shyness. I seem to remember it being mostly in social situations. Can anyone relate to this? I can't help but feeling that I want to try to get into this bashful state when I'm in the bedroom but I'm not even sure how to get there.
 
^Like a heightened awareness of exposure and of your own nakedness looses icy frissons from the root of your being to wend their way up your spine, as if, in the dark of a cold night, you've emerged shivering from a natural spring enshrouded by silken flora you'd thought had concealed you, steam rising from your subtly reddened skin, the fine hairs of your shoulders standing on end, to peer out into the blackness and find your garments in the inextricable clutches of a cadre of onlookers whose lusty eyes pierce every supple inch of your body, yet they will not approach you?

There's a side of me that gets this. I think maybe you're an exhibitionist. Try shaving all your body hair, *snip* inviting over a bunch of swingers you've found on Craig's List but who you have never seen, and then walk straight out from a shower to meet them wearing nothing but a heavy pair of fluffy fringed snow boots. That'll do ya right.

P.S.: Lots of mirrors.

*snip*
 
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To Pagey: Oh, that's why. It's just that you deleted the whole thing and now you've snipped parts (I'm fine with the snips). The reason I mentioned those strong drugs is because I've read they often produce pleasurable skin chills, and chills can heighten the sense of exposure and vulnerability the OP is interested in. I figured if I recommended drug use in a clearly humorous way it'd be fine, but if the rules are that any recommendation doesn't fly in any context then I understand you were just doing your job. I suppose you get enough weird troll posts you need to delete that in coming across an ... unconventional post like my last one you may have just binned it by reflex.

I can see why the suggestion to shave off all of one's body hair and walk around nude in front of strangers wearing nothing but heavy snow boots with fluffy fringe might be interpreted as the wacky nonsense of a some random bizarre internet fetishist but believe it or not I've got what I think is a cogent and plausible rationale for it (at least for those who are especially self conscious and react strongly to their senses). Psychologically, we associate winter clothing with feelings of insulation and protection, feelings in stark contrast with those associated with exposure and vulnerability. Shaving body hair heightens the sensitivity of the skin while revealing more of the body. The hot water from a shower both heats the skin and dilates blood vessels near its surface, and so on emergence from a shower the cooler drier air both raises goose flesh and constricts those vessels, and the sensation of both of these physiological reactions occurring naturally draws one's awareness to the skin, to one's nakedness, and thus to their vulnerability. So having the boots protecting just the feet as these things occur serves to amplify sensitivity everywhere else through the effects of both tactile and associative contrast (I remember discovering this for myself as a kid; I'd always put my underwear on first after a shower, and then one time just to see what it'd be like to do things in the "wrong" order I put my socks on first and suddenly I felt a vaguely sexual sensation of my privacy being violated, a pleasurable bashfulness not unlike what the OP describes.) Why the fluffy fringe on the boots? Because it tickles, duh.

I doubt I have to explain the contribution of anonymous swinger strangers from Craig's List to the proposed setup. The mirrors are just to multiply the image of the scene, another means of amplifying self-awareness and shyness. The entire shower, stranger, scenario is just a semi-possible way to mimic some aspects of the conditions of the iconic hot spring (or similarly skinny dipping) scene described before it, which contains so many erotic themes that overlap with the circumstances the OP describes as giving them pleasure that I assume the description plucked at least a few chords of that particular sensitivity. Well, I'm done sitting in for someone at work and getting paid to post online now, so hopefully this explanation has said enough to accomplish something.
 
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meth is bad news- rots your brain, your teeth and your life. responsible use is any oxymoron

anyway op that sounds unusual i cant say i've experienced it.
 
Okay, I think I can relate to this. When it happened I remember feeling extremely vulnerable and exposed... for lack of a better term. It was a really vague sensation and almost uncomfortable. The first time was when I was four years old and I remember feeling that way when I was laying in bed with my parents one morning. It happened a few times, then stopped until I was 21. Then it would always happen in a tai chi class I was taking. I haven't really experienced it since. It can't be triggered. It's really weird and difficult to describe. Just a really vague, vulnerable, visceral sensation/feeling.
 
^ Yeah, that seems like it. It is definitely a vague thing. Since you said it always happened in tai chi class, maybe it can be triggered?

Surely some others have experienced this?
 
^You don't need to walk around on egg shells and point to your interests in vagaries. This is the internet, where you can openly share your experiences because everybody has experienced similar things even if such things don't leap out to everyone as obvious. We all share the same basic wet-ware (brains) and if we're intelligently conscious and open enough we'll recognize similarities in each other's experiences by exercising empathy.
 
^You don't need to walk around on egg shells and point to your interests in vagaries. This is the internet, where you can openly share your experiences because everybody has experienced similar things even if such things don't leap out to everyone as obvious. We all share the same basic wet-ware (brains) and if we're intelligently conscious and open enough we'll recognize similarities in each other's experiences by exercising empathy.

You're really not being helpful in this thread at all...
 
You're really not being helpful in this thread at all...
Heh, I'm trying to be as helpful as possible. You think I'm playing some sort of game, am I right? You have an understanding of an experience that you clearly believe is subtle and hard to communicate -- I agree it is -- and when a person responds to you in a way that attempts to articulate that experience you express disbelief in the motivations behind their efforts? How do you expect to communicate about something you can't put into words yourself if you will not try to understand the attempts of others to speak for you?
 
Bonkey Kong I'm not sure you're going to get any answers more productive than you already have and I don't want this to turn into an argument so I'm going to close the thread. PM me if you have any questions :)
 
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