OpiateKiller
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So a little background... marijuana was my heart and soul for a long time. I smoked it daily for years through high school, and I loved it. everything about it literally was the miracle drug. Eventually I graduated to harder drugs (unfortunately) and was forced to quit, and when I smoked again after a long period of abstinence was overwhelmed with paranoia, anxiety and great social fear. Now in the event I smoke I make sure I only take 1 hit and usually am not too high to get extreme anxiety...
This is a pretty broad question, but do you guys think marijuana amplifies your current emotional state? Like a lot of drugs if you take them in good spirits you'll have fun, but if you take them in a depressed state it could make things worse...
Like last week I smoked weed one night and had a great time (I have basically no tolerance). Before I smoked I was in good spirits and a good mood. Then the next night I thought I was in a pretty good mood and smoked the same weed and the same amount and found myself consumed with negative thoughts and anxiety? It's so strange and hard to differentiate why sometimes its positive and sometimes its negative.
On a side note, I somewhat believe being addicted to opiates changed my brain chemistry, because before I abused opiates I never had the same problems with anxiety and weed but afterwards it was fairly common, that or some other drug such as K2 or benzos, but never really abused them that hard.
I know this is kind of a ramble, but does anyone have any insight on all of this? I know if I smoked more I could likely overcome the anxiety and paranoia as a became more accustomed, but I don't really want to smoke weed all day everyday like I used to because it's not conductive to my life? Has anyone else faced anxiety from smoking? I love marijuana I just hate how I can't predict if I'm gonna be overwhelmed with anxiety and fear.. which is why I used to smoke in the first place all those years ago to help overcome.
This is a pretty broad question, but do you guys think marijuana amplifies your current emotional state? Like a lot of drugs if you take them in good spirits you'll have fun, but if you take them in a depressed state it could make things worse...
Like last week I smoked weed one night and had a great time (I have basically no tolerance). Before I smoked I was in good spirits and a good mood. Then the next night I thought I was in a pretty good mood and smoked the same weed and the same amount and found myself consumed with negative thoughts and anxiety? It's so strange and hard to differentiate why sometimes its positive and sometimes its negative.
On a side note, I somewhat believe being addicted to opiates changed my brain chemistry, because before I abused opiates I never had the same problems with anxiety and weed but afterwards it was fairly common, that or some other drug such as K2 or benzos, but never really abused them that hard.
I know this is kind of a ramble, but does anyone have any insight on all of this? I know if I smoked more I could likely overcome the anxiety and paranoia as a became more accustomed, but I don't really want to smoke weed all day everyday like I used to because it's not conductive to my life? Has anyone else faced anxiety from smoking? I love marijuana I just hate how I can't predict if I'm gonna be overwhelmed with anxiety and fear.. which is why I used to smoke in the first place all those years ago to help overcome.