Lemme apologize in advance if this topic has discussed before. I couldn't find any alternative resources for more information on this matter, and I'm very desperate. Any advice will be greatly appreciated.
Background info:
For the past two years, I've been taking amphetamines to help me concentrate with school work. The first year was recreational, with no noticeable signs of mental/psychological deterioration. During this time, I was enrolled in college but with no real direction or major. Following the first couple uses, the amps seemed to "stimulate" me in the right direction. I finally chose a major, and got A's and B's in courses that I flunked before. Following this, I decided to visit a psych doc for the possibility of obtaining my own prescription. I didn't intend on conning the doc or over-exaggerate my symptoms. I simply gave him a brief overview of my academic history, which actually do resemble behaviors associated with legitimate Adult ADD. The possibility of obtaining a prescription stimulant was a hit/miss thing for me, but within six months I finally received a script for adderall.
From this point on, the only positive impact was on academics, which is why its so difficult to stop. It seems as though when I crossed the line from recreational user to frequent user, I stopped feeling like myself even after short-term abstinence's. I never had severe issues with anxiety or OCD, but they now seem to be out of control and worse than ever. The most I would take is 60mg Vyvanse, sometimes 90mg, but not everyday. Also, this doesn't just occur during the come-down, these symptoms persist for days.
Is there way to counteract this? The only benzo I have is temazepam, would that eliminate the side effects while maintaining the positive effects, even though its a hypnotic?
Another route I was considering is a long-term abstinence. If anyone has experience on kickin the habit, is full recovery possible? How long will it take to feel normal again?
Background info:
For the past two years, I've been taking amphetamines to help me concentrate with school work. The first year was recreational, with no noticeable signs of mental/psychological deterioration. During this time, I was enrolled in college but with no real direction or major. Following the first couple uses, the amps seemed to "stimulate" me in the right direction. I finally chose a major, and got A's and B's in courses that I flunked before. Following this, I decided to visit a psych doc for the possibility of obtaining my own prescription. I didn't intend on conning the doc or over-exaggerate my symptoms. I simply gave him a brief overview of my academic history, which actually do resemble behaviors associated with legitimate Adult ADD. The possibility of obtaining a prescription stimulant was a hit/miss thing for me, but within six months I finally received a script for adderall.
From this point on, the only positive impact was on academics, which is why its so difficult to stop. It seems as though when I crossed the line from recreational user to frequent user, I stopped feeling like myself even after short-term abstinence's. I never had severe issues with anxiety or OCD, but they now seem to be out of control and worse than ever. The most I would take is 60mg Vyvanse, sometimes 90mg, but not everyday. Also, this doesn't just occur during the come-down, these symptoms persist for days.
Is there way to counteract this? The only benzo I have is temazepam, would that eliminate the side effects while maintaining the positive effects, even though its a hypnotic?
Another route I was considering is a long-term abstinence. If anyone has experience on kickin the habit, is full recovery possible? How long will it take to feel normal again?
