Hey guys, my llama has mild visual snow which results in mild anxiety 3 weeks after 1 dose of LSD plus a bit of MDMA. Is this permanent? Will this go away in time? He really misses drinking Yerba Mate and he can't because it makes him anxious about what he's done to my brain. My llama is freakin out about HPPD and all that shit. Anyone ever had this stuff disappear?
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Ya but its actually my llama dude... He likes groovin to the Disco Biscuits. haha but in all seriousness, I've given myself like 5 or 6 pretty heavy doses of MDMA, and the folks at a Visual Snow forum say that its permanent (although there are those who have seen improvements...). I don't have any other "HPPD" symptoms. Just the anxiety and VS. So I will take your advice -- hopefully after many months of abstinence it will return to normal. My daily life is completely disrupted as I have no motivation to do anything because I feel like i've permanantly fucked up!! I have such a hope to study abroad this summer in Brazil and just be the happy-golucky person I used to be... But its hard to learn Portuguese when everytime I look at the now fuzzy paper my thoughts turn to profound regret over MDMA abuse... ![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
These drugs have humbled me. They are not toys! Time heals everything... I hope.
These drugs have humbled me. They are not toys! Time heals everything... I hope.
vortex30
Bluelighter
I had HPPD symptoms far worse than visual snow, even going into depersonalization at it's peak (6-8 months after LSD). Now, 2.75 years after LSD, all my symptoms are gone. It is not permanent, you just need to avoid psychedelics and MDMA (all drugs if possible, but I got over mine even with Cannabis, Ketamine, Mephedrone, and other drug abuse, hell even MDMA use, and I've used Mushrooms more recently, LSD is the drug I must avoid, personally, I am far too sensitive to it). Basically just live healthily, it should be all gone in a few months.
I love you guys. This is what I needed to hear! I'm laying off pot for a while... at least until the anxiety part of this thing dies down. I don't feel the need to touch LSD or MDMA ever again. Perhaps for some spiritual insight some years down the road, but I'm done "partying" with MDMA. Does anyone here listen to the Disco Biscuits?? just a random question.
lasthurrah19
Bluelighter
Hey there,
I have HPPD. I tend to attribute it to salvia and the fact that I already had PTSD from childhood abuse. Also did MDMA about 10 times and LSD 30-40 times... I'm sure they all contributed. Laying off of pot will do wonders, in fact if I smoke pot my symptoms get 10x worse and it doesn't abate until sometime way after I smoked.
My main problems are visual snow, patterns everywhere and problems with light reflecting when it's raining and such. It has gotten better - but I've laid off the hallucinogens for almost five years.
Although I don't know if my symptoms will go away (though they probably will), I have somewhat assimilated into this lifestyle. It's there, but it doesn't bother me much unless I have to drive in the rain.
Your symptoms will improve for sure if you lay off of the psychs and pot.
I have HPPD. I tend to attribute it to salvia and the fact that I already had PTSD from childhood abuse. Also did MDMA about 10 times and LSD 30-40 times... I'm sure they all contributed. Laying off of pot will do wonders, in fact if I smoke pot my symptoms get 10x worse and it doesn't abate until sometime way after I smoked.
My main problems are visual snow, patterns everywhere and problems with light reflecting when it's raining and such. It has gotten better - but I've laid off the hallucinogens for almost five years.
Although I don't know if my symptoms will go away (though they probably will), I have somewhat assimilated into this lifestyle. It's there, but it doesn't bother me much unless I have to drive in the rain.
Your symptoms will improve for sure if you lay off of the psychs and pot.
Ya my worst most annoying symptom is the visual snow, which I attribute to 10 times of MDMA abuse. It didn't actually surface until the candyflip a few weeks ago. While the anxiety may go away, it looks like this symptom is here to stay from what I hear... fuck fuck fuck! FUCK! floaters and snow.... ugh It actually gives me really bad anxiety. Has anyone with "the snow" ever had it go away? or even get better? I've been having some pretty weird suicidal ideation. I had so much to look forward to in life before I knocked myself back a peg with this stupid fucking drug abuse. I just wish I could go back to the way things were. My only hope is that things will get better in time, but after reading about VS, I don't have much hope at all.
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vortex30
Bluelighter
Man, I had TERRIBLE visual snow. I hardly do anymore. I notice it zero. My worst on-going symptom is after-images, that comes down to my days of Ketamine abuse I feel, and I doubt will ever go away fully. But visual snow, you will get used to and it will fade to the background. It takes a long ass time, but will get better. Now, what you need to do:
1) Ignore HPPD symptoms. I know it is hard, you feel like you've ruined your brain forever and so obsess over your visuals. This will only make things worse.
2) Get adequate sleep. Sleep was my best ally, and times of sleep deprivation made things so much worse.
3) Avoid stress. This can't be stressed enough, lol. High stress days would lead to at least doubly worse symptoms in the evening.
4) Avoid computer monitors. They strain your eyes and cause visual disturbances in people who have never touched drugs before.
5) Eat well. Fruits, vegetables, meat, etc. Natural, high nutrient foods. Avoid junk food and fast food. Take a multi vitamin on top of this.
6) Exercise. Helps take your mind off symptoms, bring anxiety down, and heals your brain.
Basically live healthy! If your only symptom that really worries you is visual snow, I can't see you still suffering one year down the line. So chin up, and chill!
1) Ignore HPPD symptoms. I know it is hard, you feel like you've ruined your brain forever and so obsess over your visuals. This will only make things worse.
2) Get adequate sleep. Sleep was my best ally, and times of sleep deprivation made things so much worse.
3) Avoid stress. This can't be stressed enough, lol. High stress days would lead to at least doubly worse symptoms in the evening.
4) Avoid computer monitors. They strain your eyes and cause visual disturbances in people who have never touched drugs before.
5) Eat well. Fruits, vegetables, meat, etc. Natural, high nutrient foods. Avoid junk food and fast food. Take a multi vitamin on top of this.
6) Exercise. Helps take your mind off symptoms, bring anxiety down, and heals your brain.
Basically live healthy! If your only symptom that really worries you is visual snow, I can't see you still suffering one year down the line. So chin up, and chill!
First of all, DO NOT COMMIT SUICIDE.
That is a stupid idea, give yourself a few years at least before you decide that life isnt worth it just because of some dumb visual disturbances.
I remember when I first got visual snow. I noticed it was kind of weird, but then I just thought, no, thats how stuff always looked im just thinking about it too hard.
If you really think about it, its stupid to worry about. Its not like it really interferes with your vision that much. You can still function completely normal. The anxiety is from you thinking about it too hard, and wanting to have control. But you DO have control. You have
the power to not let it bother you. And if you do that, you win. It may or may not go away, theres nothing you can really do about it, and worrying about it only makes it worse(physically and mentally).
That is a stupid idea, give yourself a few years at least before you decide that life isnt worth it just because of some dumb visual disturbances.
I remember when I first got visual snow. I noticed it was kind of weird, but then I just thought, no, thats how stuff always looked im just thinking about it too hard.
If you really think about it, its stupid to worry about. Its not like it really interferes with your vision that much. You can still function completely normal. The anxiety is from you thinking about it too hard, and wanting to have control. But you DO have control. You have
the power to not let it bother you. And if you do that, you win. It may or may not go away, theres nothing you can really do about it, and worrying about it only makes it worse(physically and mentally).
Good advice. Thanks so much guys. I realize I was being a bit dramatic, but it's all my world, emotions, and thoughts have been for the past couple weeks. I thought I could respect the droogs!! Guess I learned the hard way. Fun concert though... The sleep and eating well and exercising I can manage for sure. Stress is a little hard to deal with in college though. I also have to go outside and surround myself with good people. I have spent the majority of the past couple weeks holed up in my room being a complete sad-sack, searching internet forums, not going to class, letting my studies slide, giving me more anxiety. I have neglected doing the things I love... I need to go skiing!!! Also, I would never kill myself in a million years, but in a deep depression it seems such an enticing, easy solution. Luckily I have people who love me who I really don't want to hurt.