Lost Ego
Bluelighter
So last night my ex (who broke up with me last week) texted me wanting to hang out. Let me add that we haven't seen each other in almost 2 weeks. I oblidged hesitantly, thinking she had something to say or wanted to get back together. Anyways we hung out for a few hours, both of us avoiding the topic of the breakup, and before I know it we're having sex. Let me just say she's not that type of girl to give it up so easily. I'm not sure what to think of the whole thing... Was it kinda like make-up sex to her or more leaning towards a fuck-buddy sort of relationship? When we kissed I felt her holding back, which could mean anything. After we had sex I asked if she was trying to be my fuck buddy or something along those lines and she just said let's not complicate things by putting labels on them (or something like that). I can see where she's coming from saying that but I mean that could mean either, or. I did initiate it but on the other hand she sure was pretty gung ho about it and didn't seem to want to kiss me much. Which could be interpreted as her just wanting a physical relationship orr it could be that she wanted to hang out because she wanted to get back together/wanted my attention and wanted to please me and thought sex was what I wanted. Or maybe she's just messing with my head like women do (just wanting attention or w.e.) - I did post on tumblr that I was over and and she did somehow find the post and mention something to me about it 2 nights ago. Idk what to make of all this but I do know i'd like to see her again.
