Brutal BMW Driver
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Hi,
About 8 years ago I became very depressed and have always been extremely anxious. That's when I went to a doctor for treatment. For about 3 years I was on lexapro, up to 40mg at one point. It worked great at the start, but after about 6 months the side effects became extreme. I was still very depressed for those 3 years, and eventually I decided on my own to get clean of this drug, started exercising and was generally feeling good. About a year later i went into another severe depression, and went back on lexapro, was on that, and was not getting any better, my doctor kept increasing the dosage till I was on 40mg. At this point, since there was no improvement he suggested I try Effexor. I started on that and felt great for about a month, but then the honeymoon period wore off and I started to get depressed again. He kept increasing the dosage until I was on 375mg of Effexor. At this point the side effects were so unbearable, headaches, inability to sleep, total agitation at work, thinking of killing myself every day etc. He suggested i switch to zoloft but instead I decided to ditch my psychiatrist and get off this absolutely horrible drug (I found it to be brutal compared to lexapro). Getting clean from Effexor was probably the most agonising experience of my life. Unbelievable that they prescribe this stuff considering the withdrawal symptoms.
Since quitting Effexor, I started self medicating with valium, taking 10-15mg after work (as this is when i get extremely depressed). I have been off effexor and on this dose of valium for about 3 months now, and I feel normal again, I no longer have that anti-depressant feeling like your just drifting through life in a bad dream, just waiting to die. Now i feel like im actually living. In terms of my depression and anxiety, valium has been by far the most effective medication. I experience no side effects at all. I could not function at work on anti-depressants either, as they made me into a wimp, and I have a job where I have to tell lots of people what to do.
Now I know valium is a highly addictive and frowned upon drug, and is basically not really used anymore for treatment of depression because the medical professionals think that there are newer better medications available. I know there is probably some brutal aspect of valium that I have overlooked, isnt there always?
Anyway my question is, can valium be used long term for treatment of depression and anxiety in patients that do not respond to anti-depressants? I have had such bad experiences with anti-depressants, and this valium just seems like a wonder drug for me in terms of treating my depression/anxiety.
Any help would be greatly appreciated. I am going to see my psychiatrist again shortly but would just like some advice from people who have experienced the various medications to help with depression rather than the medical professionals who have just read about them in a glossy promotional booklet from a pharmaceutical company and been explained their benefits by a hot 20 y/o drug rep in a mini skirt.
About 8 years ago I became very depressed and have always been extremely anxious. That's when I went to a doctor for treatment. For about 3 years I was on lexapro, up to 40mg at one point. It worked great at the start, but after about 6 months the side effects became extreme. I was still very depressed for those 3 years, and eventually I decided on my own to get clean of this drug, started exercising and was generally feeling good. About a year later i went into another severe depression, and went back on lexapro, was on that, and was not getting any better, my doctor kept increasing the dosage till I was on 40mg. At this point, since there was no improvement he suggested I try Effexor. I started on that and felt great for about a month, but then the honeymoon period wore off and I started to get depressed again. He kept increasing the dosage until I was on 375mg of Effexor. At this point the side effects were so unbearable, headaches, inability to sleep, total agitation at work, thinking of killing myself every day etc. He suggested i switch to zoloft but instead I decided to ditch my psychiatrist and get off this absolutely horrible drug (I found it to be brutal compared to lexapro). Getting clean from Effexor was probably the most agonising experience of my life. Unbelievable that they prescribe this stuff considering the withdrawal symptoms.
Since quitting Effexor, I started self medicating with valium, taking 10-15mg after work (as this is when i get extremely depressed). I have been off effexor and on this dose of valium for about 3 months now, and I feel normal again, I no longer have that anti-depressant feeling like your just drifting through life in a bad dream, just waiting to die. Now i feel like im actually living. In terms of my depression and anxiety, valium has been by far the most effective medication. I experience no side effects at all. I could not function at work on anti-depressants either, as they made me into a wimp, and I have a job where I have to tell lots of people what to do.
Now I know valium is a highly addictive and frowned upon drug, and is basically not really used anymore for treatment of depression because the medical professionals think that there are newer better medications available. I know there is probably some brutal aspect of valium that I have overlooked, isnt there always?
Anyway my question is, can valium be used long term for treatment of depression and anxiety in patients that do not respond to anti-depressants? I have had such bad experiences with anti-depressants, and this valium just seems like a wonder drug for me in terms of treating my depression/anxiety.
Any help would be greatly appreciated. I am going to see my psychiatrist again shortly but would just like some advice from people who have experienced the various medications to help with depression rather than the medical professionals who have just read about them in a glossy promotional booklet from a pharmaceutical company and been explained their benefits by a hot 20 y/o drug rep in a mini skirt.