Hello bluelighters I`d like to have some opinions about my problem, I am reaching you from some third world country where doctors know nothing about this kind of issues,
So 3 months ago I tried one time only what I think was a low dose of MDMA (could be cut with who knows what else) there was 1g on the table was mixed with water and I think I took no more tan 200mg (ingested) over a period of 5 hours re-dosing just a little every 30 min - 1 hour it felt great, the other two guys I was with finished the rest and they are fine so I think it was not such a bad quality MDMA I think the problem is that my CNS could not take it, plus I have no tolerance with this drug, I have only smoked weed and drink beer which by the way I was also doing during the MDMA intake but not in excess (I stopped weed and beer until I feel fully recovered)
The comedown was hell had fever, could not sleep for 3 days stuck with fear all the time. When I was able to sleep a Little I woke up without knowing who I was I had panic and anxiety attacks for like a month (even on benzos)
On day 3 of suffering I ended up on ER (not the ER 1st world countries are used to) I was prescribed Alprazolam 2mg a day (had no idea benzos could become a problem on their own) but then after a few weeks another doc decided to prescribe clonazepam 2mg daily I took that for like a month and a half then looking on the internet I realized that such drugs (benzodiazepines) should not be taken for more than 4 - 6 weeks so I cut clonazepam by half 1mg daily then I switched to diazepam 30mg which I felt "ok" with.
So I do not know if I just fried my brain with the MDMA and I am still suffering because of that or if I became addicted to benzos on these 3 months and I am suffering from withdrawal..
Symptoms after taking MDMA besides what I mentioned above were the feeling of losing control, derealization (feeling that reality was far away from me) severe anxiety like up Exacerbation of negative feelings and the fear that I was never going to be normal) had to take the Xanax thing to calm me down and I even felt "normal" on it but the effects only lasted a few hours that is why I was switched to clonazepam that is longer acting it worked ok and I even thought I was cured then when I halved the dose I felt really bad again but this time was different, like my brain was an engine and was running without oil, something like a cushion was removed from my brain horrible feeling.
I researched on the internet and found everything, but nothing all inconclusive information, people having issues with MDMA induced damage have depression which I don’t I only have this feeling in my head like a tension headache that last sometimes hours sometimes minutes, insomnia and I still have anxiety mostly when I wake up in the morning (different kind of anxiety by the way like when you are going to give an speech in public)
I found on the internet something called the Ashton manual to withdraw from benzos but this is for like long term use of them I mean several years of use.
I am lowering the diazepam dose 1.25mg per week , I am also taking 300mg pregabalin at night so I can sleep more deeply which is working I am afraid pregabalin will cause withdrawal later but I am more concerned about getting off the Valium
I read some ncbi article about benzos causing problems lowering slow wave sleep state, the one that helps with neurons-brain self-repair, and that pregabalin helps to restore this Deep sleep state. (at this point I am auto medicating myself)
So can medium term use (3 months) of benzodiazepines cause serotonin downregulation or something like that, what could be causing this tension headaches and anxiety? or am still having issues with the MDMA I stupidly took.
thank you in advance for your responses is the first time I write a post on the internet and sorry about my English!!
So 3 months ago I tried one time only what I think was a low dose of MDMA (could be cut with who knows what else) there was 1g on the table was mixed with water and I think I took no more tan 200mg (ingested) over a period of 5 hours re-dosing just a little every 30 min - 1 hour it felt great, the other two guys I was with finished the rest and they are fine so I think it was not such a bad quality MDMA I think the problem is that my CNS could not take it, plus I have no tolerance with this drug, I have only smoked weed and drink beer which by the way I was also doing during the MDMA intake but not in excess (I stopped weed and beer until I feel fully recovered)
The comedown was hell had fever, could not sleep for 3 days stuck with fear all the time. When I was able to sleep a Little I woke up without knowing who I was I had panic and anxiety attacks for like a month (even on benzos)
On day 3 of suffering I ended up on ER (not the ER 1st world countries are used to) I was prescribed Alprazolam 2mg a day (had no idea benzos could become a problem on their own) but then after a few weeks another doc decided to prescribe clonazepam 2mg daily I took that for like a month and a half then looking on the internet I realized that such drugs (benzodiazepines) should not be taken for more than 4 - 6 weeks so I cut clonazepam by half 1mg daily then I switched to diazepam 30mg which I felt "ok" with.
So I do not know if I just fried my brain with the MDMA and I am still suffering because of that or if I became addicted to benzos on these 3 months and I am suffering from withdrawal..
Symptoms after taking MDMA besides what I mentioned above were the feeling of losing control, derealization (feeling that reality was far away from me) severe anxiety like up Exacerbation of negative feelings and the fear that I was never going to be normal) had to take the Xanax thing to calm me down and I even felt "normal" on it but the effects only lasted a few hours that is why I was switched to clonazepam that is longer acting it worked ok and I even thought I was cured then when I halved the dose I felt really bad again but this time was different, like my brain was an engine and was running without oil, something like a cushion was removed from my brain horrible feeling.
I researched on the internet and found everything, but nothing all inconclusive information, people having issues with MDMA induced damage have depression which I don’t I only have this feeling in my head like a tension headache that last sometimes hours sometimes minutes, insomnia and I still have anxiety mostly when I wake up in the morning (different kind of anxiety by the way like when you are going to give an speech in public)
I found on the internet something called the Ashton manual to withdraw from benzos but this is for like long term use of them I mean several years of use.
I am lowering the diazepam dose 1.25mg per week , I am also taking 300mg pregabalin at night so I can sleep more deeply which is working I am afraid pregabalin will cause withdrawal later but I am more concerned about getting off the Valium
I read some ncbi article about benzos causing problems lowering slow wave sleep state, the one that helps with neurons-brain self-repair, and that pregabalin helps to restore this Deep sleep state. (at this point I am auto medicating myself)
So can medium term use (3 months) of benzodiazepines cause serotonin downregulation or something like that, what could be causing this tension headaches and anxiety? or am still having issues with the MDMA I stupidly took.
thank you in advance for your responses is the first time I write a post on the internet and sorry about my English!!
