Phoenix_rising
Bluelighter
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- Sep 22, 2010
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I`ve been using large doses of Kratom for just over two months,at the moment i take about 25 to 30g of plain leaf a day,i have around 900g left from a large order i made.
The thing is my tolerance has shot through the roof and i don`t really get a lot from it any more,but i`m unable to stop because A, I hate the withdrawal symptoms and B,because i still have a shit load left and am unable to find the strength to stop taking it whilst i have it around.
So i have two Buprenorphine patches of 52micrograms each and five 30mg codiene tabs,so i`m thinking that after Christmas i could try and stop the Kratom by using the meds i just mentioned...Or am i just making it worse?
I`ve also got a load of Etizolam and zopiclone that i thought i would need to get through,maybe i`ve made a mountain out of a mole hill,maybe taking the Kratom has brought out the addictive personality in me and i`m just using the Kratom habit to get further mashed,probably because i have been through a very emotional crisis of late and am not very good with dealing with emotions and am self medicating.
At least i didn`t get back on the smack,at least i haven`t become an alcaholic again,but it`s not really an excuse is it?...Perhaps it`s all sent to try me and improve me,to help me grow into a better person.
The thing is my tolerance has shot through the roof and i don`t really get a lot from it any more,but i`m unable to stop because A, I hate the withdrawal symptoms and B,because i still have a shit load left and am unable to find the strength to stop taking it whilst i have it around.
So i have two Buprenorphine patches of 52micrograms each and five 30mg codiene tabs,so i`m thinking that after Christmas i could try and stop the Kratom by using the meds i just mentioned...Or am i just making it worse?
I`ve also got a load of Etizolam and zopiclone that i thought i would need to get through,maybe i`ve made a mountain out of a mole hill,maybe taking the Kratom has brought out the addictive personality in me and i`m just using the Kratom habit to get further mashed,probably because i have been through a very emotional crisis of late and am not very good with dealing with emotions and am self medicating.
At least i didn`t get back on the smack,at least i haven`t become an alcaholic again,but it`s not really an excuse is it?...Perhaps it`s all sent to try me and improve me,to help me grow into a better person.