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Ashke

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Gahanna, Ohio USA
Tonight the snow will still be falling.
Tonight is a Thursday in January, a boring day of the week in a grey month of the year.
Tonight the drive home from work will scare the hell out of me.
Tonight my dinner will be some of the chili our neighbor Karen brought over for my mom when she had pnumonia, and as I eat it I'll think of how mom wept once she was alone again, touched and guilt-laden because Karen had terminal cancer and her pnumonia was almost better.
Tonight I'll be annoyed that there are no saltines left for my chili.
Tonight I will look up wish I could reach up and part the grey curtain of sky that's hiding a lunar eclipse.
Tonight I will laugh helplessly.
Tonight I will not do ecstacy for the 20th day in a row.
Tonight I will daydream about Radiate and couches and Sam coming to visit this February.
Tonight I will put off finishing rainbow-feathered angel wings and candy chokers and raver coloring books and about a hundred other projects left unfinished.
Tonight, somewhere far away, a boy who once held my heart will empty a syringe into his arm.
Tonight I will post on Bluelight way too much.
Tonight the 'Ashke is a no-good whore' thread will still be on the front page, grumblesigh.
Tonight in Ohio the combined temperature and windchill will make it -25 degrees.
Tonight I will still go out, and trudging through the snow I'll get my wide-bottom jeans soaked to the knee.
Tonight, upon arriving at my boyfriend's place, I will have an excellent excuse to remove my jeans.
Tonight I will love my boy, my best friend, my family, this frozen midwest city, and probably you.
Tonight I will stay up too late.
Tonight at some point I will be thinking, 'how strange', and 'how beautiful', and 'how unfair'.
Tonight it will almost be tomorrow.
And the snow will still be falling.
~*~ Ashke ~*~
 
That was beautiful Ashke. Did you ever consider entering those poetry contest thingies? The winnings are usually a lot of money, you have an incredible amount of talent and could probably win. I'm very interested in poetry, I love reading it and writing it, when I have the time I will post some of mine. I've read several of your poems in the Words forum, I especially like Sometimes I Am and another one you posted awhile back, Candy girl? or something like that. Keep up the grat work.
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wow . . . . *speechless*
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'nuthin but PLURness'. . . . . . <<muah>>!
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Ashke...You ROCK! That was soooo beautiful..and who cares if your post too much...we need more posts like that!!
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~Light.. up your face with gladness, Hide..every bit of sadness..Although a tear, may be ever so near.. That's the time you must keep on trying..smile, what's the use of crying..You'll see the sun come shinning through..if you..just..smlie :)
 
WOW Ashke.....you are truely gifted!!! Umm..I think tonight I will sit and think..."Why can't I think of cool shit to post like Ashke does?"
 
Hey you, I LOVED this one so much...you make me feel like I am in Ohio with you when really I am in Newport Beach, Ca! You are such a writer, don't EVER let anyone tell you that you aren't because let me tell you in all of my 30 years of living, I have never seen anyone that expresses themselves as well as you and in college I even minored in English and majored in Criminal Justice! I will check out the eclipse for you and tell you about it tomorrow, ok? I am sorry that you will not be able to part the grey and see it but I will be your eyes for you tonight, talk to you soon, Renee
 
Oops, I forgot to tell you how impressed I was that you are still going strong with your decision to not do any e until that party in Feb. that you are looking forward to! That is so good and I am very proud of you. Keep it up...
 
another touching post, girlie
*BIG HUGS*
kinda makes me think of what i'm going to do tonight... *sigh*
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soulfly
"I am more than a mathematical equation...i am more than a chemical combination... my existence cannot be reduced to a scientific theory!"
 
Ashke, it is 5pm pst and now I am not sure if I am even going to be able to see the eclipse! There are tons of rain clouds outside and I am getting so worried but as soon as I get home from work I will be outside on my balcony, wrapped in a warm blanket, possibly drinking some hot chocolate and looking up at the moon or at least trying to see the moon so I can update you tomorrow in case you did not see it...
 
Ashke, if u ever make it out here to visit sam, we will party, and i will give so SO MANY bracelets and necklaces. just because.
You Rawk.
love ya babe.
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Life just keeps gettin harder
And it keeps getting harder to hide.
-Spencer
 
But tonite, know I will be thinking of you,
and tonite, so will so many more.
Tonite, you have touched so many hearts, as you have done so often in the past...
Tonite, you won't be lonely
Nor, tonite, will you be alone.
Tonite, our love is with you.
Tonite, and for so many to follow.
Tonite, you're as thoughtful and kind as "Karen"
Tonite, your heart grows stronger.
and so do ours, with you.
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"Hold me,
Feel me, NEVER LET ME GO!
Show me,
Need me,
cuz I want you to stay,
at least until,
THE BREAK OF DAWN!"
 
hey
would i be an asshole if i added my own "tonights"
ashke's inspired a lot of thoughts in me...
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soulfly
"I am more than a mathematical equation...i am more than a chemical combination... my existence cannot be reduced to a scientific theory!"
 
HEY ASHKE 2NITE IS NOW 2MARO (FRIDAY) BUT THAT POEM STILL KICKED ASS. PUT A LITTLE SMILE ON MY FACE SINCE I AM SITTING AT BORING OL WORK. THANX
TO U:
ABSOLUTELY, POSITIVELY, THE MOST GIANT, HUGE AND ENGOLFING, HUG U HAVE EVER RECEIVED.... 4 REEEEEL
OMNE
 
Ashke, I tried to watch the eclipe for you to be your eyes last night and it was kinda of cloudly but I did look up and see a beautiful redish moon around 9pm PST through the clouds, I am sorry that I did not get to see more, once again, thank you for what you wrote, as always, you touch so many of our hearts in so many ways, thanks
 
amazing...wounderful...awesome...talented...
gifted...sweet...loving...thoughtful...
touching...comforting .....i just cant describe you gurl............................
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youre what this scene is all about...........
~*Cuey
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*PeAcElOvEuNiTyReSpEcT*
 
*blush* Thank you all.. Paradox for your poem, and EENER for wanting to be my eyes for the eclipse... what a sweet thing to offer.
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And Spencer for wanting to give my bracelets, and just everybody for being so sweet to me in this thread and tons of others besides...
Gosh, was that a luvved up gush session or what? Sound like I'm rolling. *giggle* Bluelight, the natural roll.
Sequel time...
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:+: Last Night :+:
Last night the snow kept falling.
Last night was the very first January 20th of the century, a night of marvellous lunar events for my planet, and a record snowfall for the year 2000 in my hometown.
Last night I skidded, and slipped, and held the wheel with white-knucked fists until I was safely home.
Last night's chili was delicious.
Last night my mother magically produced a package of saltines from thin air, or maybe it was that shelf I forgot to check, but either way I was pretty impressed.
Last night the clouds were thick and heavy as they rolled over my little town.
Last night's stoned game of truth or dare made me laugh so hard I couldn't stand up.
Last night my friend Kristen casually recalled in graphic and descriptive detail her recent evening with three friends and two eight-balls, and as I steeled myself against the lure of her words, I finally realized that 20 days without ecstacy is nothing. A breeze through my hair.
Last night I had a vision of joyous chaos. I saw hundreds of children revelling all around me; I saw spiraling arcade lights and tribal rhythms; and at the fringes of this I found myself caught in a tangle of loved ones, leaning back against the chest of one, massaging the shoulders of another.
Last night I surprised myself and secured the base netting across the wire frame of still-naked angel wings.
Last night, more than once, my thoughts turned to Morgan. I caught myself wondering if he still bleaches his gear religiously, remembering the feel of my fingers through his black hair, and hoping he was warm.
Last night I didn't post on Bluelight nearly enough!
Last night the 'Ashke is a no-good whore' thread was -- just barely -- off the front page! Huzzah!
Last night was every bit as cold as the weathermen predicted.
Last night the cold didn't stop me from going out and having a great time!
Last night my jeans did spend some time tumbling around in the dryer.
Last night I got home and read the replies to this thread, and for a few minutes could be nothing but still and silent and full of glow.
Last night I slept soundly. For two whole hours.
Last night the red moon made the color of the sky so strange.
Last night my boy was sick with the flu, and I irrationally guilty for being so obviously healthy, since we share both cups and kisses.
Last night we played a joke on Kristen, using a cell phone to call from her own front porch to say we're sorry we couldn't make it because of the snow. But her voice sounded so let down and lonely, we immediately pounded her door, and she opened it, blinked, and just lit up with a sparkly smile that was just beautiful.
Last night was grey and cold, and so much fun that the minutes flew by.
The radio news and my heart predict that tomorrow I'll see sun, the slow drip of thaw, and a new day.
~*~ Ashke ~*~
 
Bravo, bravo, bravo!!!!! So, good! You make me smile each day! Not just you, but everyone on this board! I love it, I am having a really rough day today thanks to a very bad fight at lunch time with my fiance, Tony, he said mean words to me and made me cry at work! Now, I feel warmth inside dispite my sadness and that is a really hard thing to feel, warm and sad at the same time but I am feeling it thanks to reading what you wrote, thank you Ashke
 
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