To all those who want to die...

[duneplanet]

I just suddenly felt the urge to write this. Im withdrawing from benzos right now and go to dark places but I'd like to share why I would never kill myself. I have had many near death experiences, and I have come to the conclusion that consciousness is seperate from the brain, as in when you die it isn't oblivion. It isn't the end. I have no way of pro=ving this to anyone, but I have witnessed things that I cannot explain, I've been fucked with by spirits, I've floated outside my body, I've seen so many things. there is a world we cannot see. Psychedelics have helped me see this. I am not religious per say, but I do know that every religion frowns upon suicide, including Buddhism. It isn't worth it, because I feel as though I have been to hell and no pain here on earth can match it. My mind is a mess right now cause im withdrawing from benzos so Im sure im going to be made fun of and I know this isn't powerful, I just hope this helps someone. You can change your life at any moment; it is a choice. It is the easiest and hardest thing to do. There is so much to life, but out realities tunnels have blocked so much out that we see it all as bleak and meaningless. om mani pema hung.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wCny06tFfs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CvFN1p6dzNk

Bless you all.

 

[Legerity]

Great that you are deciding to get rid of the benzos. Are you being supervised at all during this process?

As you said, we have the power to change. We have the choice to live our life in a way that nourishes us. And that's what you're doing right now, don't look back

 

[paranoid android]

I don't believe in heaven or hell or any sort of god for that matter but i agree with you on suicide not being worth it. In fact i think it's my disbelief in the afterlife that has kept me from offing myself because all we have is here and now and we have to make the best of it.

Well that and a few friends (you know who you are) have helped me.

Good luck on the benzo taper. Please becareful tapering though and do it under a doctors supervision. If you think your dropping off too fast do a slower taper.

 

[burn out]

thanks for witing that. i am also going through benzo withdrawal and i also believe that death isn't the end because of psychedelic experiences.