I'll preface this report by saying this was during a particularily turbulent time in my life where I was doing a very very large amount of RCs of every kind, and constantly using opioids (mostly hydromorphone and Fentanyl) in my first semester of university. I was constantly in a very reckless mindset that led me to taking anything I could, whenever I could, often as much or high doses as I could. The night before this trip took place I had done Tiletamine and since I had a class early the next day and Tiletamine produces such a pronounced brain fog the next day, I took a few Noopept pills as I found they got rid of the post-dissociative brain fog and also diminished the effects of most dissociatives. I took 10mg in the morning when I woke up with my daily 30mg Methylphenidate, then 20mg more around 13:30.
Around 15 or 16 a package landed in my mailbox. It was a bag of 4-HO-MET for my friend, and a bag of MXiPr for us to share. We made the MXiPr into a nasal spray and I traded some Methylphenidate for a 14mg dose of 4-HO-MET for the night. I'll try to use the timestamps correctly, I have this all written down in a very strange way in massive document of every trip I've had
00:00 At this point it was maybe 17 ish, two of my friends came to my dorm after their evening classes. Keep in mind the previous Noopept dose, which also boosts psychedelics quite a bit (I had NOT taken that into account when dosing the 4-HO-MET, or the fact it lessens the effect of Dissociatives for me. Bad idea)
I took 25mg of Tiletamine (insufflated) and 30mg of MXiPr, in the form of the nose spray. We smoked some weed as well.
00:30 at this point in time I wasn't feeling anything other than that and the weed, so I redosed another 25mg of Tiletamine in the same ROA and also another 30mg of MXiPr. I don't know WHY I redosed such large amounts, but I was very reckless at this point in my life.
01:00 we smoked more weed as I have written down and also wrote "slight dissociative effects but not much". I redosed again but forgot to write the doses down. The 4-HO-MET was ingested here.
01:30 At this point the 4-HO-MET started to kick in, and me and my friends wanted to smoke and get some snacks. We smoked quickly and then went down to the door and stepped outside. It was cold, windy and rainy. Very miserable. It was also dark at this point and I did not wear my glasses.
Now it is pretty hard for me to stick to the time-stamp method. But pretty much as soon as we set out I realized every drug was hitting me at once. I found it very difficult to walk, and my friends told me afterwards that I had leaned my entire torso back, walking very robotically, and went nonverbal and was just clenching my jaw. I was walking on like a 20 or 30 degree angle at the waist, i dont know the specifics but if you stand up and lean back as far as you can at the waist while keeping your feet stationary it was like that. Somehow the dissos gave me super balance. At this point the Noopept had wore off and it was clear to me that the dissos were all coming in pretty fast. The walk to the gas station was about 20 minutes, but it felt like forever. Near the end of the walk I started talking again, but it was completely incomprehensible in structure. I wasn't speaking gibberish but I wasn't speaking sentences. I would say shit like "this gas light red its wet very red light stop? man rain" (recounted by my friend).
From what I remember and not my friends recollections, I was stiff, cold and felt like I was a robot. I also felt like I was in a pilotredsun video. Like that pilotredsun was drawing my atmosphere and putting the words into my brain. Everything I could see was like his animations, as well as very dark and constantly moving. I couldn't focus my eyes on anything. All I could do was walk forward and talk. Every raindrop that hit my skin made me feel even more cold and rigid, it was uncomfortable as fuck.
Eventually we get to the gas station. I have no idea how the clerk or anyone else inside didn't try to intervene in my situation but they may have been put off by my walking stance and extremely dilated pupils. I remember walking to the back, struggling to open the fridge door and grabbing a coke. I walked up to the cashier and according to my friend said "beautiful bird days out there". I don't remember the walk back.
I do remember coming back to my dorm and immediately feeling like I was suffocating. I felt like I had a fever and was going to die. I looked at my arms and they were beet red (which was not real apparently, I was flushed in the face but my arms were fine) and I immediately knew I had to shower. I told my friends "Im about to die i have to shower now" and told them to just sit in my room and wait, to which they obliged.
As soon as I got into the bathroom I frantically stripped all my clothes off, feeling worse by the second. I could barely see straight and everything felt like I was in zero gravity, and in the mirror I looked completely red and all I could see was how big my pupils were. I turned the water on, then set it to hot instinctively, then mumbled to myself and set it to cold. I put my hand in the water to feel it and then I somehow, for some reason, snapped out of it completely. Like I said to myself out loud "what the fuck am I doing right now? I'll be fine" and put my clothes back on, hit my vape, went back into the room and sat down in my bed.
At this point i had given up on writing in my journal but i did write i "felt ok now" at about 2 hours after dosing, maybe slightly more.
We put on trailer park boys and the experience turned into something sort of unremarkable, normal disso headspace with interesting visuals and a floaty but also sinking into bed body high and cool tracers and it felt great to vape. After a few hours we smoked weed and my friends told me their experience and how I acted and then they went home, at which point I was only feeling the tiletamine. Gamed for a bit then took 15mg Temazepam to sleep.
It was an experience I'll always remember. I'm not sure if it was a near psychotic break or whatever but I was completely out of touch with reality and genuinely thought I was going to die. I had an insane rush in my head that made it feel like my brain was flipping in circles and each time was telling me some sort of delusion. Looking back.....I was very reckless.
I ended up doing more MXiPr a few days after that with no noopept in my system and it was okay...nothing spectacular but if anyone wants to hear about that or tiletamine I will happily reply but I felt this report was sort of fun so wanted to post it. Also watch some pilotredsun videos to understand what I felt I was in during the walk to the gas station, he is magnificent
Around 15 or 16 a package landed in my mailbox. It was a bag of 4-HO-MET for my friend, and a bag of MXiPr for us to share. We made the MXiPr into a nasal spray and I traded some Methylphenidate for a 14mg dose of 4-HO-MET for the night. I'll try to use the timestamps correctly, I have this all written down in a very strange way in massive document of every trip I've had
00:00 At this point it was maybe 17 ish, two of my friends came to my dorm after their evening classes. Keep in mind the previous Noopept dose, which also boosts psychedelics quite a bit (I had NOT taken that into account when dosing the 4-HO-MET, or the fact it lessens the effect of Dissociatives for me. Bad idea)
I took 25mg of Tiletamine (insufflated) and 30mg of MXiPr, in the form of the nose spray. We smoked some weed as well.
00:30 at this point in time I wasn't feeling anything other than that and the weed, so I redosed another 25mg of Tiletamine in the same ROA and also another 30mg of MXiPr. I don't know WHY I redosed such large amounts, but I was very reckless at this point in my life.
01:00 we smoked more weed as I have written down and also wrote "slight dissociative effects but not much". I redosed again but forgot to write the doses down. The 4-HO-MET was ingested here.
01:30 At this point the 4-HO-MET started to kick in, and me and my friends wanted to smoke and get some snacks. We smoked quickly and then went down to the door and stepped outside. It was cold, windy and rainy. Very miserable. It was also dark at this point and I did not wear my glasses.
Now it is pretty hard for me to stick to the time-stamp method. But pretty much as soon as we set out I realized every drug was hitting me at once. I found it very difficult to walk, and my friends told me afterwards that I had leaned my entire torso back, walking very robotically, and went nonverbal and was just clenching my jaw. I was walking on like a 20 or 30 degree angle at the waist, i dont know the specifics but if you stand up and lean back as far as you can at the waist while keeping your feet stationary it was like that. Somehow the dissos gave me super balance. At this point the Noopept had wore off and it was clear to me that the dissos were all coming in pretty fast. The walk to the gas station was about 20 minutes, but it felt like forever. Near the end of the walk I started talking again, but it was completely incomprehensible in structure. I wasn't speaking gibberish but I wasn't speaking sentences. I would say shit like "this gas light red its wet very red light stop? man rain" (recounted by my friend).
From what I remember and not my friends recollections, I was stiff, cold and felt like I was a robot. I also felt like I was in a pilotredsun video. Like that pilotredsun was drawing my atmosphere and putting the words into my brain. Everything I could see was like his animations, as well as very dark and constantly moving. I couldn't focus my eyes on anything. All I could do was walk forward and talk. Every raindrop that hit my skin made me feel even more cold and rigid, it was uncomfortable as fuck.
Eventually we get to the gas station. I have no idea how the clerk or anyone else inside didn't try to intervene in my situation but they may have been put off by my walking stance and extremely dilated pupils. I remember walking to the back, struggling to open the fridge door and grabbing a coke. I walked up to the cashier and according to my friend said "beautiful bird days out there". I don't remember the walk back.
I do remember coming back to my dorm and immediately feeling like I was suffocating. I felt like I had a fever and was going to die. I looked at my arms and they were beet red (which was not real apparently, I was flushed in the face but my arms were fine) and I immediately knew I had to shower. I told my friends "Im about to die i have to shower now" and told them to just sit in my room and wait, to which they obliged.
As soon as I got into the bathroom I frantically stripped all my clothes off, feeling worse by the second. I could barely see straight and everything felt like I was in zero gravity, and in the mirror I looked completely red and all I could see was how big my pupils were. I turned the water on, then set it to hot instinctively, then mumbled to myself and set it to cold. I put my hand in the water to feel it and then I somehow, for some reason, snapped out of it completely. Like I said to myself out loud "what the fuck am I doing right now? I'll be fine" and put my clothes back on, hit my vape, went back into the room and sat down in my bed.
At this point i had given up on writing in my journal but i did write i "felt ok now" at about 2 hours after dosing, maybe slightly more.
We put on trailer park boys and the experience turned into something sort of unremarkable, normal disso headspace with interesting visuals and a floaty but also sinking into bed body high and cool tracers and it felt great to vape. After a few hours we smoked weed and my friends told me their experience and how I acted and then they went home, at which point I was only feeling the tiletamine. Gamed for a bit then took 15mg Temazepam to sleep.
It was an experience I'll always remember. I'm not sure if it was a near psychotic break or whatever but I was completely out of touch with reality and genuinely thought I was going to die. I had an insane rush in my head that made it feel like my brain was flipping in circles and each time was telling me some sort of delusion. Looking back.....I was very reckless.
I ended up doing more MXiPr a few days after that with no noopept in my system and it was okay...nothing spectacular but if anyone wants to hear about that or tiletamine I will happily reply but I felt this report was sort of fun so wanted to post it. Also watch some pilotredsun videos to understand what I felt I was in during the walk to the gas station, he is magnificent
