Hey 
To start with, I am now over this episode. It happened about 9 months ago when I had already been depressed for about 3 months, this trip turned my next, another 3 months into a pure psychosis.
Substances abused: Methoxetamine and 4-HO-MET
Sex: Male
Age: 19
Weight: 85kg / 187lbs
Height: 178cm 5' 10"
About 9 months ago I was with my friend, we both did a bomb. I tell you my part.
T - Swallowed a bomb which contained approximately 150mg of MXE and 50mg of 4-HO-MET. Initially wanted to have a mild trip, well, you can imagine that mild trip, especially that I did not have any real tolerance by then.
T+1:00 - Weird, nothing has yet happened. Neither has nothing happened to my friend. Oh, what the fuck was this, another dimension? Well, happens often to me under MXE, but at a much smaller scale. Asked my friend whether he is tripping, he said that no, so I told him, that he is, but he just can't understand it. Because I couldn't understand until I flipped into another dimension.
T+1:30 - So I'm no telling some shit to my friend, laughing, laughing again about my stupidity, flipping between dimensions. When suddenly - boom - 4-HO-MET kicks in. Friend still had nothing. Actually, for him, the trip began 2 hours later than mine (T+3:00) and lasted for about 6 hours, while mine lasted only for 2 hours. Probably I digested it much quicker and got therefore a much more intense trip.
So, how did it feel to be under 150mg of MXE and 50mg of 4-HO-MET at the same time? I was basically in my own world. Colors changed totally. Outside looked like a magical world - like I would be actually in a dreamland, or somekind of a computer game, which has very beautiful and fantastic nature. So I enjoyed the ride for a while.
Oh, the bus stops. So, we are here now. Oh, what? It didn't stop? Okay, let's move on, I wouldn't want to go out of the bus right now anyways. Hey! We already were here? What the fuck is going on? Okay, maybe just a similiar place. Very beautiful nature, colors... I just cannot believe my eyes! Oh... again that place, whaat? What is going on? Again that place? We are driving past that place so many times? Am I in the loop? Am I still alive? Oh, my friend looks like a junkie to me, it looks so bad, I want to forget that trip forever! Bad it is still in my head. I mean, he looks like a junkie to me, not that he would actually be one, my eyes are hallucinating. Again that place? I must be in coma or DEAD!!! WHAT IS GOING ON???? Oh... I bet I am in the hospital and my parents are next to me right now and crying, hope I wake up and can tell them how sorry I am... But seems like this moment will never come, I am probably dead already. Just hope I won't have to stay in this loop forever, it gets annoying. Maybe I should stand up and enjoy the ride instead? Go play with people.. uhh, better not... it could be that I'm actually alive or ... what the heck, I just look out of the window and try to stay calm, perhaps I am not dead. Again this place? I am now sure, that I am dead. The scariest moment of my life, wish I could take it back. I look to the left of my shoulder - there is a boy sitting. Oh now, he is now quadruple!!?? And every mirror of him is sitting in the different direction, two of them are sitting IN the chair, and all of them are doing different things. These hallucinations are soo realistic, but I am afraid.
"Are you okay?" one boy asked me. Oh, maybe I'm not dead at all? The bus stops. Everybody start standing up. I ask my friend whether I am still alive, he says me, that of course I am still alive. I go outside, it is raining heavily, I don't even close my jacket nor put my hat on. But I need to drink some water now!! So I asked some people, told them I was tripping so hard and that I though I was dead. Well, because I was still under the drugs, but soon it all went away. I was just left a totally different look at colors, a thought, that I am a lucky, "reborn" person and that my memory couldn't catch a thing. Was hoping my memory will recover. I decided to call one of my relatives, who has tried LSD in his past (he is much older than me), luckily I did not do it and decided to not tell the truth to everybody.. I mean, MXE is dissociative and you do not do what you want to. But water and cold made me more sober. Then my friends trip started and he was laughing and enjoying the ride throughout the day.
T+3:00
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So it seems like a very intense trip? Well, yea, definitely. Very dissociative, hallucinations were strong and everything was different till the other day. Exactly, I was hallucinating until I went to bed, only that when I had burned out in the bus (what it felt like, like a rush of hallucinogen), my brain went totally different and I didn't have anymore realistic hallucinations but rather colors were all different. But the next 3 months were the most horrible months for me so far. I was very depressed, I was paranoid, I was dreaming about going to the mental hospital. My only dream was to sleep forever in the mental hospital and never have to do a thing, just lay on my bed and do nothing. Maybe MXE, to drown in my sorrow, but that would only make matters worse. I quit MXE, three months is the period it took me to recover. Actually, I probably would be in a mental hospital already if I would not have turned to my old good friend - aMT. One trip with a friend and after that I was happy again for 2 weeks. Then we had another trip and now I feel like the happiest person on the Earth. And I have no effects from that trip eversince, nor any effects from MXE or 4-HO-MET at all. I, though, now have ADHD, do not know exactly from what, but it does not disturb my life very much. I just have to find things I am really interested in.
Was it worth it? Hella yea - I never regret everything. I learn from everything and this is so unique experience, that I think very few people on the Earth have experienced (I mean, very few people have tried MXE and hallucinogen combo, now make those doses really big). And it also chased away my affection to dissociatives and pure hallucinogens (with no other effects), meaning I am much more viable person than I ever was before.
I did not go into every little detail of the trip right now, as it would have been too long and anybody who has ever tried MXE knows, that there is really no point in trying to describe it - you have to experience it to understand it.
To start with, I am now over this episode. It happened about 9 months ago when I had already been depressed for about 3 months, this trip turned my next, another 3 months into a pure psychosis.
Substances abused: Methoxetamine and 4-HO-MET
Sex: Male
Age: 19
Weight: 85kg / 187lbs
Height: 178cm 5' 10"
About 9 months ago I was with my friend, we both did a bomb. I tell you my part.
T - Swallowed a bomb which contained approximately 150mg of MXE and 50mg of 4-HO-MET. Initially wanted to have a mild trip, well, you can imagine that mild trip, especially that I did not have any real tolerance by then.
T+1:00 - Weird, nothing has yet happened. Neither has nothing happened to my friend. Oh, what the fuck was this, another dimension? Well, happens often to me under MXE, but at a much smaller scale. Asked my friend whether he is tripping, he said that no, so I told him, that he is, but he just can't understand it. Because I couldn't understand until I flipped into another dimension.
T+1:30 - So I'm no telling some shit to my friend, laughing, laughing again about my stupidity, flipping between dimensions. When suddenly - boom - 4-HO-MET kicks in. Friend still had nothing. Actually, for him, the trip began 2 hours later than mine (T+3:00) and lasted for about 6 hours, while mine lasted only for 2 hours. Probably I digested it much quicker and got therefore a much more intense trip.
So, how did it feel to be under 150mg of MXE and 50mg of 4-HO-MET at the same time? I was basically in my own world. Colors changed totally. Outside looked like a magical world - like I would be actually in a dreamland, or somekind of a computer game, which has very beautiful and fantastic nature. So I enjoyed the ride for a while.
Oh, the bus stops. So, we are here now. Oh, what? It didn't stop? Okay, let's move on, I wouldn't want to go out of the bus right now anyways. Hey! We already were here? What the fuck is going on? Okay, maybe just a similiar place. Very beautiful nature, colors... I just cannot believe my eyes! Oh... again that place, whaat? What is going on? Again that place? We are driving past that place so many times? Am I in the loop? Am I still alive? Oh, my friend looks like a junkie to me, it looks so bad, I want to forget that trip forever! Bad it is still in my head. I mean, he looks like a junkie to me, not that he would actually be one, my eyes are hallucinating. Again that place? I must be in coma or DEAD!!! WHAT IS GOING ON???? Oh... I bet I am in the hospital and my parents are next to me right now and crying, hope I wake up and can tell them how sorry I am... But seems like this moment will never come, I am probably dead already. Just hope I won't have to stay in this loop forever, it gets annoying. Maybe I should stand up and enjoy the ride instead? Go play with people.. uhh, better not... it could be that I'm actually alive or ... what the heck, I just look out of the window and try to stay calm, perhaps I am not dead. Again this place? I am now sure, that I am dead. The scariest moment of my life, wish I could take it back. I look to the left of my shoulder - there is a boy sitting. Oh now, he is now quadruple!!?? And every mirror of him is sitting in the different direction, two of them are sitting IN the chair, and all of them are doing different things. These hallucinations are soo realistic, but I am afraid.
"Are you okay?" one boy asked me. Oh, maybe I'm not dead at all? The bus stops. Everybody start standing up. I ask my friend whether I am still alive, he says me, that of course I am still alive. I go outside, it is raining heavily, I don't even close my jacket nor put my hat on. But I need to drink some water now!! So I asked some people, told them I was tripping so hard and that I though I was dead. Well, because I was still under the drugs, but soon it all went away. I was just left a totally different look at colors, a thought, that I am a lucky, "reborn" person and that my memory couldn't catch a thing. Was hoping my memory will recover. I decided to call one of my relatives, who has tried LSD in his past (he is much older than me), luckily I did not do it and decided to not tell the truth to everybody.. I mean, MXE is dissociative and you do not do what you want to. But water and cold made me more sober. Then my friends trip started and he was laughing and enjoying the ride throughout the day.
T+3:00
-----------------------------------------
So it seems like a very intense trip? Well, yea, definitely. Very dissociative, hallucinations were strong and everything was different till the other day. Exactly, I was hallucinating until I went to bed, only that when I had burned out in the bus (what it felt like, like a rush of hallucinogen), my brain went totally different and I didn't have anymore realistic hallucinations but rather colors were all different. But the next 3 months were the most horrible months for me so far. I was very depressed, I was paranoid, I was dreaming about going to the mental hospital. My only dream was to sleep forever in the mental hospital and never have to do a thing, just lay on my bed and do nothing. Maybe MXE, to drown in my sorrow, but that would only make matters worse. I quit MXE, three months is the period it took me to recover. Actually, I probably would be in a mental hospital already if I would not have turned to my old good friend - aMT. One trip with a friend and after that I was happy again for 2 weeks. Then we had another trip and now I feel like the happiest person on the Earth. And I have no effects from that trip eversince, nor any effects from MXE or 4-HO-MET at all. I, though, now have ADHD, do not know exactly from what, but it does not disturb my life very much. I just have to find things I am really interested in.
Was it worth it? Hella yea - I never regret everything. I learn from everything and this is so unique experience, that I think very few people on the Earth have experienced (I mean, very few people have tried MXE and hallucinogen combo, now make those doses really big). And it also chased away my affection to dissociatives and pure hallucinogens (with no other effects), meaning I am much more viable person than I ever was before.
I did not go into every little detail of the trip right now, as it would have been too long and anybody who has ever tried MXE knows, that there is really no point in trying to describe it - you have to experience it to understand it.
