I'm 36, gay, single for almost 5 years now (and pretty much all my life), apparently suffering from chronic depression since puberty. I've always had some unhealthy habits (tendency to isolation, suicidal ideations, lack of vitality, very hard time dealing with rejection, chronic boredom, self-doubt, indesiviness, life of the party one day but completely suicidal next day, etc.) that I used to think were part of my personality but now, apparently, it is the disease. I've also, since the age of 31, became compulsive about sex along with dabblings with crystal meth (only on weekends though but it made everything worse, obviously). Anyway, I think I found a great doctor...not only is he a psychiatrist but he's also a renowned neurologist, so he understands everything about brain chemicals, brain receptors and unhealthy thoughts and habits. For the first 10 days he prescribed me the following medication:
*Xanax - 2mg with dinner
*Prozac- 30mg with dinner
*Zyprexa - 2.5mg with dinner
Good results: Sexual compulsion gone, unless provoked. Which means, someone attractive has to actually cross my path. I'm not looking for hookups on apps every weekend as I've been doing for the past couple of years relentlessly. Haven't masturbated or had sex in almost a month and it is SUCH a relief - loads of energy - rummaging through bad memories gone as well - feeling content, social and optimistic - started to communicate with friends and family properly again after almost an entire year in hellish isolation - suicide thoughts also gone - don't feel like a complete loser anymore
Bad results: TOO much energy, bordering on bipolar manic (which I'm not) sometimes - talking so fast sometimes I was fubbling the words - impatient and easily annoyed with people at times - hypersensitive
Because of this overflow of energy he told me to stop the Prozac (the one he prescribed me was called Velija though) after the first 10 days and I decided, by my own volition, to take 4mg of Xanax (2mg morning / 2mg evening) instead of 2mg. Why? Because I don't feel the Xanax at all and I thought it would calm me down more. I told him about it though and he allowed it. So for the past 15 days I've been on this regimen: 4mg of Xanax and 2.5mg of Zyprexa.
And I guess he was right because i'm still getting all the same good results but with less energy...I'd say I'm more "normal" now. I'm eating well, seeing friends and going to the gym almost every day.
My next appointment with him is this Wednesday, which will be 1 month since I started the medication so he might change things a bit (or not). But I've bee wondering: what is exactly making me become so damn content and functional? Is it the Xanax or the Zyprexa? I've never heard of Xanax being used for depression, I thought it was meant to be used as a painkiller. And I had never heard of Zyprexa before.
*Xanax - 2mg with dinner
*Prozac- 30mg with dinner
*Zyprexa - 2.5mg with dinner
Good results: Sexual compulsion gone, unless provoked. Which means, someone attractive has to actually cross my path. I'm not looking for hookups on apps every weekend as I've been doing for the past couple of years relentlessly. Haven't masturbated or had sex in almost a month and it is SUCH a relief - loads of energy - rummaging through bad memories gone as well - feeling content, social and optimistic - started to communicate with friends and family properly again after almost an entire year in hellish isolation - suicide thoughts also gone - don't feel like a complete loser anymore
Bad results: TOO much energy, bordering on bipolar manic (which I'm not) sometimes - talking so fast sometimes I was fubbling the words - impatient and easily annoyed with people at times - hypersensitive
Because of this overflow of energy he told me to stop the Prozac (the one he prescribed me was called Velija though) after the first 10 days and I decided, by my own volition, to take 4mg of Xanax (2mg morning / 2mg evening) instead of 2mg. Why? Because I don't feel the Xanax at all and I thought it would calm me down more. I told him about it though and he allowed it. So for the past 15 days I've been on this regimen: 4mg of Xanax and 2.5mg of Zyprexa.
And I guess he was right because i'm still getting all the same good results but with less energy...I'd say I'm more "normal" now. I'm eating well, seeing friends and going to the gym almost every day.
My next appointment with him is this Wednesday, which will be 1 month since I started the medication so he might change things a bit (or not). But I've bee wondering: what is exactly making me become so damn content and functional? Is it the Xanax or the Zyprexa? I've never heard of Xanax being used for depression, I thought it was meant to be used as a painkiller. And I had never heard of Zyprexa before.
