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Misc This doesnt go here, but help me plz

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Schrei

Schrei

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Im 20 years old. and for 6 or so years Ive been fighting bad depression, and the urge of suicide, How can I tell my mom?
Im scared. I dont want to be looked at like Im crazy, or sent off. I dont know what to do any more. Drugs help numb the pain, they really do, because my head is to fucked up to think or feel.
I began cutting myself again, should I tell my mom this? She never knew I did before anyway, she suspected but I told her what she hears from people are lies to not believe everything she hears.
Im on the edge.:(
 
yes, tell your mom. tell everyone you love and they will help you. do it before you hurt yourself anymore or kill yourself. you just need someone to talk to bro. people know the pain you feel, lot's of people. they will tell you how to help yourself! good luck mate, things will get better if you want them to, and it sounds like you do! promise.
 
My mom made me call the help line. I have to wait for them to call me back again after getting some info from me. How stupid, I could be dead by then. The only reason Im safe is because I didnt trust myself enough alone, that my mom came to where I was.
I swear if they make me go anywhere Im getting high, I cant do this sober. Idk how to handle this and now Im scared.
 
I had to help my sister when she was through her cutting stage and she went through counseling which did help a lot.... She just came to me for help and I was there for her each step of the way and I know your loved ones will be there for you as well. Yes, they may be confused/upset/worried but its all normal.... Yet, they will be there for you no matter what. We rather help you than see our loved one kill themselves or go through pain. Trust me two summers ago I saw my sister throwing up the lining of her stomach after overdosing on pills. The worst thing I ever saw.... I had to stay home with my brothers baby and that made things worse. Luckily she was okay and my brothers girlfriend is an emt.... She wanted to be admitted too. It was hard but was a great wake up call. Yes, nobody wants to be admitted but sometimes its what you need to remain safe/alive. Things will get better though. Trust me, they do. Good luck and hope you stay strong, I know you will <3

I'm happy you called the helpline... They should give you info to places that can and will help you. Even if you don't go its always good to talk.
 
Thanks for the support guys when I needed it. I did go to kind of local Crisis Unit place, and just got out today. Though Im glad I got really messed up before going, because now I cant, which maybe a good thing. Im not sure itll last, but its worth the try. They have me on depression meds, I have to start NA meetings tomorrow, and Im also going to counseling. They of course let me go through withdraws, but at least now thats out of the way and I was somewhere safe. Maybe now once the meds start working I can have a halfway normal life, whatever that is.
 
Schrei said:
Thanks for the support guys when I needed it. I did go to kind of local Crisis Unit place, and just got out today. Though Im glad I got really messed up before going, because now I cant, which maybe a good thing. Im not sure itll last, but its worth the try. They have me on depression meds, I have to start NA meetings tomorrow, and Im also going to counseling. They of course let me go through withdraws, but at least now thats out of the way and I was somewhere safe. Maybe now once the meds start working I can have a halfway normal life, whatever that is.
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Its never too late to have a life. I skipped the word normal, because thats a stupid word american's use that really doesn't help anything. What is normal anyway? Its different for everyone. Just work toward having a happy fulfilling time each day. And that is definitely possible sober. As hard as it is, sometimes it takes being surrounded by the right positive people. GL
 
dude most of us have been there and stuff so this is the right place. maybe not all of us have cut and such but dealing with depression and turning to drugs is a way of life for most of us here or at least i can say for myself if i ever did feel down and such. you shouldn't put yourself down by saying you're not normal, its gonna space you further away from society and then you really will feel abnormal. we all have our problems but it seems like youre doing better now. right now you really need the support from close friends and loved ones who you can openly talk to without being afraid that they will look down at you or criticize. you don't need that. make sure you have that close support system and it'll help! and of course we can help too :P
 
Glad things are looking a little better for you OP.

While this isn't exactly the right place for this thread, over in The Dark Side there is a lot of support and ears willing to listen. Stop by there sometime if you ever need to vent, get advice, etc.

I'm going to close this for now, but if you would like me to re-open it and move it over to The Dark Side I'd be willing to do so. Of course you are free to simply start a new thread over there if you would like.
 
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