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Who had that "at risk" childhood that they all say leads to drugs? like shit in your formateve years that was like the risk-factor checklists they give out: the kids who were outcasts in school, dpressed, alcoholic parent(s)/person they lived with, broken home, low income, etc.

from grade school, middle schol, up to jr. high. Not after ill say 8th grade - remember childhood cause if this included adulthood it wouldnt really tell anything. Gettin depressed and trying drugs in collge is a little different than being one of the "troublemaker" or "fall through the cracks" kids in elementary school and then tryng drugs at a young age. There aint really a reassearch point to this im just curious about yall's backgrounds and wondering if whats true in statitics that you always see is tru for all of yall here.

Also do any of u think the area you come/came from and the way of life made u more likely to do drugs? (ie kids in the "nice' places dont usually start drugs tilo there older, but kids in the hood start doin shit at all these crazy young ages.)

|Disclaimer, Ate percocet-dont ccare about speliing right now sorry.
 
I suppose to a degree the reason I got into drugs was for a new experience something to do while bored, learn more about myself.

I never enjoyed any sports and always enjoyed RPGs (final fantasy, chrono trigger) and films which had an otherworldly feel (princess mononoke, spirited away, etc etc). So I believe the thought of living in a fantasy-like world where my fantasies can become something I can actually experience through hallucinogens I jumped on the chance immediately. I started in the middle of my sophomore year by smoking weed but I never really wanted to try weed I've always wanted to try MDMA, ever since I was about 11. I had enjoyed electronica music during my youth aswell and I saw the association with the two and how so many people used with such little bad effects. I never really did much myself that was the typical "happiness" I just sort of sat around and tried to entertain myself. The area where I come from is not anything like a drug using world, its a very suburbia like area where the kids are preppy rich and generally just drink.

But do drugs always have to be bad? ;) Nah moderation is the key.
 
^What you just said sums up my beliefs exactly. I use psychoactives to build the world I see in my dreams and imagination. And moderation is the key! I'll post my childhood drug story in a minute, as I have to go blaze and what not.
 
i mean, i was an honor student all through school (i'm a senior in HS now), and there was always pressure on me to be perfect. my parents are manipulative and in the past had really nasty tempers. i was an outcast and i was always melancholy... i think it probably all helped as far as me getting into everything ive gotten into... as far as drugs go, i mean. i smoke pot daily, drink most weekend, use stimulants to get me through school (was addicted to coke for a period of time), and will do anything else that i can afford when its available. so yeah, i thknk it contributed.
 
i was always interested in concsiousnesss and the idea of experiencing an altered state of conciousness fascinated from a young age. i was always a social outcast too and as a kid i would pretend to do drugs by myself. i somehow sensed that once i tried drugs nothing would be the same and so i waited til i was 16 when i could no longer contain my curiosity. as i suspected, drugs really changed me and my outlook on life.
 
Not gonna blame it on anything that happened to me in my childhood, nor on anyone. It was out of sheer curiosity & experimentation :) .
 
well i always liked experimenting with things like water and air going through pathways (that i made in sand or with blocks, powered by hose or fan) when i was really little...sort of like mechanical computers

one of the cool things to do was make a robot (ie air powered brain:))... alter it.. wonder what would happen when the brain changes.. ive always had a fascination with the mind

hence now im into psychedelics

not hte traditional "hes going to use drugs" case

ps i never really realized drugs could provide for this particular curiosity till reading Robert Anton Wilson and other psychedelic philosophers... i remember discussing acid with my friend in sixth grade, never was judgemental about it and was curious about why someone would want to see his ceiling fan turn into a rotating octopus

well i do remember watching a documentary on marijuana, then being anti marijuana, and thinking marijuana users had to be stupid or ignorant, in eighth grade

looking back... i'm in such a different reality now that i've opened to drugs
 
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Mom was a cokehead ill spare ya the "i was poor" details, moved from passaic county outside paterson up to north north jersey cause it was getin shittier and shittier down there,

School - Hated everything and everybody not alot of friends and way too angry. got depressed more as I would get older. always wanted to try heroin secretly in my head but never thought of really doin it til i was like 12.

Did dumb shit in scool to get in trouble cause there was nothin else fun to do there, and got suspended and detention alot....7th & 8th

started doin drinkin and thinkin about gettin some other shit @the end of 7th grade/actual did shit like smokin weed and takin opiates through 8th and all the other shit came afer that . dropped out from high school got my GED right away and started workin. 18 is a few days away from today.

talking waaaaaaaaaayy too much, damn percoset
 
Ninjetic said:
Ever since I was a child, drugs were prevalent in my life. The first thing that ever really had an impact on me was Mario bros. I loved watching my big brother play that game (I was around 2-3 at the time) I had no idea the mushrooms in mario were drug related back then. Subconsciously that game got me eating mushrooms, and I never knew why I liked mushrooms on every food (I get em on pizza all the time) To this day I eat mushrooms. When I first tried magic mushrooms I felt like mario, then everything went all topsy turvy (which was just what I wanted) The world around me could be shaped by my mind, I felt as though I controlled reality.
Another point in my childhood that was prevalent with drugs was when I was around 7-9. My neighbor steve was a hippie, he built go carts and grew plants in his backyard (which I thought were giant dandelions at the time) Every afternoon he would walk into his backyard and smoke would billow out the back door of the house as he stood there with a lawn chair in his hands. He would just chill in his backyard looking at the sky. He was a total pothead, and I didn't know what he was growing in his bakyard until a few years ago. All kinds of crazy shit happend in my old neighborhood in oklahoma (my hometown is now a meth lab ring) We had one drive by when I was growing up there, and I slept through it. The icecream man dealt drugs from his truck, along with icecream. I never understood why an adult would cut in front of a kid and start chatting with the icecream man about ice cream. Usually the icecream man would hand the buyer a white paper sack with an ice cream flavor written on the front, then a large sum of money was exchanged. Cops were non existant in my neighborhood, and drugs just went unnoticed by the youth. When I moved to texas, things changed drastically. I was introduced to weed in 9th grade, and I loved it. To this day it gives me the relaxation I need in order to deal with the stress of Texas. In 10th grade I tried shrooms (which I mentioned above) I stuck with weed as my drug of choice to this day, but I've been offered everything except heroin. Everytime someone was willing to sell or give me a new drug to try, I always said yes. Why? Because I was insane to begin with, and nothing can harm me if I try it only once. I have adhd, and it keeps me from gaining a tolerance to any drug (as I am hyperactive) Which explains why I can get high off the smallest ammount of weed. I also have a short attention span, which keeps me from wanting to do a drug over and over again. Addiction will never be a problem for me. which is funny because I come from a family with a long history of alcoholism. I've done acid, ecstacy, meth, coke, weed, crack, shrooms, salvia and all kinds of painkillers. Why? Because I can. This world called reality lost its appeal long ago, I wish to create my own planet to rule as I see fit; where nothing would be as it seems and pleasure would reign everlasting. I go sober just for the hell of it sometimes, cuz I'm insane. It gives me an idea of what its like after being away for so long. My grades were never that bad (I managed) And I'm going to college to get a degree in radiology. I've got a semi succesful band and a good paying job, all because pot saved my life when I went through depression. I attempted suicide dozens of times, but each time as I stared at my reflection in the blade, I realized how stupid I looked. Then I would pull out the bong and let the world go. It cured me. It seriously did. Whenever I feel sad or like a depression is gonna happen to me, I remind myself of what I have and what I went through to get where I am. Then I pull out the almighty bong and blaze til breakfast. Don't let em drag you down, drugs will get you everywhere if your like me (and you'll live to the ripe old age of 120) I wanna die in a fight with a rhino when I'm too old to walk on my own two feet. I'm never gonna od or get addicted thanks to my insanity, adhd and backwards mentality. Peace and one love
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man, i admire you
 
^Drugs are my passion in life for some reason. I study them, and everything related to them, so its no wonder that tons of younger users come to me for advice. I was put on this earth to do something, making music and waxing poetic about drugs (either that or I'll take over a country and start the first mech war)
 
^i love drugs too
unfortunately i have no one to share the interest with, as all my friends here are straight
 
I guess its because of where I'm located. Houston is steadily turning into the new detroit (or wherever drugs and whatnot are prevalent) I wouldn't be the person I am today if I didn't do drugs. I'd most likely be some worthless schlub working for a faceless corporation from a damned cubicle. Thank god that never happened!
 
qwe said:
^i love drugs too
unfortunately i have no one to share the interest with, as all my friends here are straight
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Yeah that must suck, but just wait a couple of years till you move out to college and you'll find lots of like-minded people.

You're a chronically bored depressed angst-ridden teenager, right?
Well, it can only get better from here on. Trust me.

Get yourself some kind of hobby (besides taking drugs) to pass the time until you're older and you can go to a bigger city and meet fellow psychonauts.

Don't worry about it, being a teenager sucks.
 
I never really had much in my childhood that indicated I'd be taking so many drugs now.

Was always creative and quite into my art though, so that maybe kicked off the psychedelic side of things.

Otherwise I guess it's just my weird sense of adventure and not liking things to be normal.

I never got interested in drugs though (apart from alcohol) til I was in my last year of GCSEs with good mates, it all went from there.
 
A lot of people have in their mind that because someone comes from a troubled past when they were young, they will easily become drug addicts. I think that does happen, but I know a lot of people who have a bad meth and heroin habit, and they didn't have a troubled past. I know more people like that than people who do have a troubled past.

I can tell you one thing that I honestly believed contributed to my drug use and all my friend's drug use. I live in a very boring area. It's a small city that is starting to grow, but it's in hick-ville where cow fields are everywhere. There is nothing to do here. I think my friends and me just got bored and needed something to do and we started smoking weed and just enjoyed it.
 
1.) Sleeping disorder: I have always slept like shit! Today I would still cut my dick (and balls!) off and ban drugs from the place we call earth if I could just sleep well. So that's always been a good reason for me to start amoking pot on a daily basis which helped a lot in the first years. Also I have had tons of bad dreams and have experienced a lot of sleep paralysis. Weed cures it completely for me!!! All dream disorders!! It's great! I get a nasty rebound though when I quit, REM rebound or how it's called. All sleeping disorders go right back to 1000%.

2) Mood disorder/ADHD: Always been really hyperactive and can't concentrate for shit! Can't even read at a normal rate. Never had any of this diagnosed, but shit, I get most doctors to diagnose me with anything I want in notime. I'm not into getting addicted to uppers or downers so I never went to the doc with that shit. I still do uppers and downers. :(

3) Roleplaying/Dreams: I've always been into fantasy worlds, roleplaying, tabletops and would think about my dreams for days. That's definitely why I always wanted to try acid (and later: All other psychedelics). I dreamt about lots of drug experiences before ever trying the drugs.
I also experienced some weird mind states that would have made me afraid sometimes, can't explain it at all. An extremely warped out feeling with some acoustic distortions. Warped! I just couldn't grasp what it is... It's gone now! It always made me very interested in what's going on "up there"...

4.) Erowid vaults/Internet. Do I need to explain?

5.) Besides that, I don't know. I've never considered myself a happy child... No love etc. the usual crap, won't go into details. After all, we've all had problems.

6.) Oh and I'll always remember how my big brother told me about drugs for the first time. That might have been a mistake. It got stuck really deep.

crOOk
 
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Maybe 7 years old: Walking around a museum by myself in the middle of the night (girl scout sleepover, and they kept some of the lights on.) Discovered a display on drugs and I must have read every word on that thing twice. My interest was sparked. I swear to god I can't explain it, but I felt this feeling deep within that told me that this was something I needed to know more about, that this was the beginning of something.

My first glimpse at "the other side" was Kurt Cobain's suicide when I was 8. I believe this was the first time my thanatos really kicked in. I was fascinated by his heroin addiction, realizing for the first time that it was actually something some what common. This side of life, depression, chemical alteration, hit home somehow.

Growing up I loved reading graffitti, picking out what I thought were drug terms and asking my mom what 'LSD' and 'grass' was. I was dying to be let in on this secret culture.

Of course drugs were not a centralized thought of my youngest years, but there was definitely a continuing curiosity. Thinking about it gave me waves of feelings that just rocked my overall rose tinted childhood, I liked it.

I do remember the times in which I did not use drugs (<14 yrs ), but I guess the point of my post is that I do not remember a time in which drugs were not somewhere in my mind, like I somehow knew all along that drugs would eventually be a part of my life.
 
gugglebum said:
Yeah that must suck, but just wait a couple of years till you move out to college and you'll find lots of like-minded people.

You're a chronically bored depressed angst-ridden teenager, right?
Well, it can only get better from here on. Trust me.

Get yourself some kind of hobby (besides taking drugs) to pass the time until you're older and you can go to a bigger city and meet fellow psychonauts.

Don't worry about it, being a teenager sucks.
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like what? every hobby I have tried is boring/costs too much/unavailable to me at this time.
 
gugglebum said:
Yeah that must suck, but just wait a couple of years till you move out to college and you'll find lots of like-minded people.

You're a chronically bored depressed angst-ridden teenager, right?
Well, it can only get better from here on. Trust me.

Get yourself some kind of hobby (besides taking drugs) to pass the time until you're older and you can go to a bigger city and meet fellow psychonauts.

Don't worry about it, being a teenager sucks.
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im never bored or depressed or angst ridden
and i love some hobbies like programming and basicly any philosophy or psychology (no like minded people here into these either though)
 
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