ItsclearlyFake
Bluelighter
I don't write this in a victim mentality, I am well aware I could lose my v-card if I just simply hire prostitute.
But I am not that curious about the act itself, but rather the feeling of validation I imagine I will achieve when I am able to be attractive to a girl I find attractive in a such a way that she will want to have sex with me. I envision myself finishing the sex act and this dark cloud of feeling different and not enough just finally disappearing. That is the craving having sex at least one gives me.
My problem is that I have 0 motivation now to "force" myself to meet girls. I just go out sometimes (on my own mostly, but sometimes I hang out with friends maybe 1 a month, although this is very irregular) and if a conversation with a girl pops up, well then great, but if not I don't seek it.
In the same way, I don't think of "closing" by asking her number at the end of the conversation. I got sick of all those years watching and reading pick up material, I felt so brutally used and abused by this ideology and culture of seduction coaches, that I absolutely hate them now, their literature and culture makes you feel like you are broken or bad inside, and you need to do all kind of stuff to "becoming an attractive man". Fuck you im already attractive. Go sell your low-self esteem inducing material somewhere else.
At this point I am done with any kind of "game" or pick up act. Enough of the acts.
They say if you don't got game or you are natural and are introverted or have little social skills then you need to do pick up in order to have sex or else you are fucked. I tick much of those things, so since im not going to do pick up ever again, there is a possibility I will never have sex!
At first it would give me a lot of fears but lately I have started to surrender to it, and I think I can to a point where I can fully accept and love and respect myself without ever having sex not even once.
Think about it, if I don't want to have kids, why would I have to be the "weird" guy because of not having had sex? Sex is primarily to reproduce, if I dont want to reproduce, it's not that crazy to just to happen to not have sex. No reason to believe you are bad for it.
But I am not that curious about the act itself, but rather the feeling of validation I imagine I will achieve when I am able to be attractive to a girl I find attractive in a such a way that she will want to have sex with me. I envision myself finishing the sex act and this dark cloud of feeling different and not enough just finally disappearing. That is the craving having sex at least one gives me.
My problem is that I have 0 motivation now to "force" myself to meet girls. I just go out sometimes (on my own mostly, but sometimes I hang out with friends maybe 1 a month, although this is very irregular) and if a conversation with a girl pops up, well then great, but if not I don't seek it.
In the same way, I don't think of "closing" by asking her number at the end of the conversation. I got sick of all those years watching and reading pick up material, I felt so brutally used and abused by this ideology and culture of seduction coaches, that I absolutely hate them now, their literature and culture makes you feel like you are broken or bad inside, and you need to do all kind of stuff to "becoming an attractive man". Fuck you im already attractive. Go sell your low-self esteem inducing material somewhere else.
At this point I am done with any kind of "game" or pick up act. Enough of the acts.
They say if you don't got game or you are natural and are introverted or have little social skills then you need to do pick up in order to have sex or else you are fucked. I tick much of those things, so since im not going to do pick up ever again, there is a possibility I will never have sex!
At first it would give me a lot of fears but lately I have started to surrender to it, and I think I can to a point where I can fully accept and love and respect myself without ever having sex not even once.
Think about it, if I don't want to have kids, why would I have to be the "weird" guy because of not having had sex? Sex is primarily to reproduce, if I dont want to reproduce, it's not that crazy to just to happen to not have sex. No reason to believe you are bad for it.
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