the up hill battle..suuuuucks.

[DexysMidnightRuner]

So I got myself clean from IV coke about 6 months ago, but have just recently started smokin bud again. and occasionally indulging in psychedelics.

I was using all drugs pretty bad back then. and I know I wanted to be clean, because clearly things had gotten wayyyy outta control. :/ Now I'm enjoying the "clean" life, chillin, smokin, watchin tv, lookin for a job. but i miss the old days so much sometimes. I just wish sometimes I hadnt moved. I miss A LOT of things. Im not super worried Ill relapse but Im a little worried.

does it get easier? or will this nagging feeling be with me forever?

 

[Legerity]

Getting off the coke...that's great. Sure things can get easier, it is normal to miss certain things or have some worries.

Change can be accelerated if you consciously examine the reasons why you were abusing drugs in the first place and make an effort to satisfy those needs in other ways. Whatever the reasons were....loneliness, mental health, boredom, etc., there are always other ways of satisfying those needs that are less harmful. You have a great opportunity to create a life that is satisfying for you now.

 

[izzy66]

congrats on 6 months clean from coke.
you've gotten through the worst part already.
i had to move hundreds of miles a few times to cut off easy access to both H and coke. yeah you can still find whatever if determined but moving derailed me long enough to break the cycle.

best of luck to you.
-uzzy