BourbonMac
Bluelighter
So in the past month I've developed chronic tinnitus, at first it was just in my right ear as it primarily has been since May of last year, but I get it in both now.
This was cured just about 100% after sinus surgery in late May. Getting high always made my tinnitus slightly worse. It's not a matter of noticing, I could straight up tell. But it was only a tiny bit worse. I shyed away from THC for about 6 months while my sinuses were messed up because I was convinced smoking caused the problems.
Actually, it's much more likely to be alcohol use in the past which was very heavy. I got hit by a car in late 2016, while drunk (though this really had nothing to do with being drunk, I wasn't that drunk. It's a long story for another time). The hospital that did my surgery had scans from that point which showed already needed surgery. Yet, these scans were not given to the ENT despite development of a deviated septum on top of it.
I would always wake up with chronic sinus headaches, congestion and mucus after a night of drinking. Cigarettes couldn't have helped either, and obviously weed smoke isn't great either. Even vape/edibles would worsen some of my pain though it may have been placebo since I expected it. I just know in December when all the pain came on, smoking would make it significantly worse.
So even when I'd still have ear ringing some nights in June/July (very mild), it would not get worse after vaping (haven't been smoking and don't plan to ever aside from rare occasions). Actually it would get better if I did have any. I get a hearing test next week, surgical follow-up on the 21st, 2nd opinion appointment on the 20th because my surgeon is kind of ignorant and an asshat.
So now when I get high, at least at some point after the first week of August, the ringing gets much, much worse, and may even be making the condition a lot worse. I can't really tell. All I can really do is shy away from it for a day or two. But it's a horrible catch-22. THC could be making this worse but it's keeping me alive, in a way, because I've been very suicidal over this. It's extraordinary bad hissing, electrical whine, and really loud right ear whine like a vacuum is running over it.
Already struggling with C-PTSD, OCD, anxiety and depression (depression likely just a side effect of the conditions I already have). THC has a way of helping me cope with difficulties through life better than absolutely anything that's ever been prescribed to me. So even when the ringing is worse, I'm too high to care at all. This is because it's the best medicine for me.
It just really sucks. I ended up hooked on Valium just because THC would give me sinus headaches before my surgery, at least for a time. I think I tried some hits in February and nothing got worse, but I wasn't willing to experiment much, I was too paranoid. It was by May that I gave it a try again, still with mild tinnitus but it was never made worse even then. But how fucking stupid to end up on a benzo because your nature medicine makes some part of your condition worse.
Last night it seemed to get slightly quieter, but still lots of electrical whine. I hit my pen once for 5 seconds and it seemed to remain the same, but often it comes on awhile after I get high. It's hard to say. I did edibles the other night and it may have been a bit less but I'm not positive. I can't tell if lowering my tolerance and not having to rip it as much would make it better or not. If I'm baked, I'm baked and it would probably get worse.
It seems as if this isn't temporary or just while high, either. If it's bad and I go to bed, it will be bad when I wake up, at least in the right ear initially. So all I can do is like, not have any tonight which will be somewhat difficult obviously because it's been an essential thing keeping me sane, I primarily consume at night which is my favorite time to get high, and let the stressors of my day just melt away.
Just really sucks :/ I don't want to have pills thrown at me. I just want my THC. My favorite and most valuable substance of everything I've ever tried, and I've tried a lot of drugs. My quality of life when I wasn't consuming it was at an all time low, it really was. Valium was nice and calmed me down but it's so boring otherwise. You feel nice, a bit numb, tired, but you don't get to have this introspective, insightful look into yourself and stressful events that have happened in the past or that day.
I've been suicidal for 6 years, really, it's just this whole year has been a nightmare and the past month especially, having my tinnitus come back when it was gone. I always had at least mild tinnitus but I would've never thought it related to my sinuses or anything. So it was a first to hear TOTAL silence. I always had ringing in a quiet room and thought everyone else did too, but no. It had been at least a decade or more since I'd heard silence.
I've always maintained that as long as THC is in my life, I will stay alive, and I know that's true. It really helps with my mental illness so much. So fucking much. And it kills me to think that it could have either caused the fluid build-up in my ears or if it's just making it worse temporarily. I mean I've smoked for 11.5 years and never had an issue like fluid in the ears or anything. That's what my GP thought it was anyway since when he pushed air into my ear, the eardrum didn't really move.
I did go swimming quite a bit in July but I've never had fluid get stuck in my ears. Maybe getting it up my nose got into my eustachian tubes somehow, Idk. I was always blocked up there. Just desperate to find some other reason the tinnitus has come back. I mean I was vaping heavy June/July and it never brought out any tinnitus whatsoever.
So yeah, the Universe hates me... how this supposed fluid build-up occurred I'll never know. I really doubt it's THC, that dries you out, and again in 11.5 years of smoking, vaping, edibles etc, I've never had something like this happen. It's true that THC can make existing tinnitus worse, but given I still had it slightly in my right ear at times and it never made it worse (and actually made it better, usually), I don't understand how this came to be. I've literally never even heard of someone developing fluid in their ears from THC. My only thoughts are blowing my nose too hard after using neilmed sinus rinses and the swimming. I was never warned or anything about covering my ears and nose, I usually did for at least my ears. I did notice the left ear started to ring the night of August 12th, a day where I'd gone swimming. That ear hadn't produced any noise since March.
I just have to wait and see my ENTs and that will feel like an eternity. My GP just said to take claratin and sudafed morning, benedryl night, Mucinex twice a day. The sudafed is supposed to be the thing that really helps but it's extremely hit or miss. Some days I'd notice it help, other days it would do nothing. Sunday I took a delayed release one and it clearly helped. The next day, it did not. Sudafed in general is tricky for me. The 12 hour version does last about 12 hours, maybe a bit closer to 14. But for some really fucking weird reason, the instant release 4-6 hour red tablets can also last me 12 hours. I had an issue with this the other day. I took 2 in the morning, 1 in the afternoon, and I was wired until 2am. My body seems to metabolize amphetamine slowly. I recall instant release Adderall was the same thing, it lasted 12 hours when it was supposed to be 4-6.
I had to drop the Mucinex because it murdered my stomach and caused serious constipation, an issue I dealt with chronically for months earlier this year until I discovered black seed oil and completely cured it. The awful pains in my gut were so bad, meanwhile I was getting awful head/face aches at the same time, and acid reflux that would make it feel like my throat was closing up, after several unsuccessful tries with antibiotics fucking my whole G.I up. I shudder thinking about earlier this year.
Just really sucks... it makes it worse 100% of the time now. Much, much worse, and then I wake up and it's still very bad. I'd always have it come back in the right ear after lying down before but as soon as I'd get up and move around it'd go away. The left ear never produced as much noise as it does now, even when I was smoking heavy amounts of flower topped with kief, I'd only get like, the tiniest static in my left ear and the right ear would only get about 10% worse than it already was.
Of course randomly out of nowhere the right ear is quieter. From a 10 to a 3, but it often fluctuates randomly. My left ear is still producing awful static which could be from the hole in the eardrum but likely isn't, I've probably had this for awhile. I don't have a hole in the right drum and that one rings 90% worse, and it hisses more than the left as well.
This was cured just about 100% after sinus surgery in late May. Getting high always made my tinnitus slightly worse. It's not a matter of noticing, I could straight up tell. But it was only a tiny bit worse. I shyed away from THC for about 6 months while my sinuses were messed up because I was convinced smoking caused the problems.
Actually, it's much more likely to be alcohol use in the past which was very heavy. I got hit by a car in late 2016, while drunk (though this really had nothing to do with being drunk, I wasn't that drunk. It's a long story for another time). The hospital that did my surgery had scans from that point which showed already needed surgery. Yet, these scans were not given to the ENT despite development of a deviated septum on top of it.
I would always wake up with chronic sinus headaches, congestion and mucus after a night of drinking. Cigarettes couldn't have helped either, and obviously weed smoke isn't great either. Even vape/edibles would worsen some of my pain though it may have been placebo since I expected it. I just know in December when all the pain came on, smoking would make it significantly worse.
So even when I'd still have ear ringing some nights in June/July (very mild), it would not get worse after vaping (haven't been smoking and don't plan to ever aside from rare occasions). Actually it would get better if I did have any. I get a hearing test next week, surgical follow-up on the 21st, 2nd opinion appointment on the 20th because my surgeon is kind of ignorant and an asshat.
So now when I get high, at least at some point after the first week of August, the ringing gets much, much worse, and may even be making the condition a lot worse. I can't really tell. All I can really do is shy away from it for a day or two. But it's a horrible catch-22. THC could be making this worse but it's keeping me alive, in a way, because I've been very suicidal over this. It's extraordinary bad hissing, electrical whine, and really loud right ear whine like a vacuum is running over it.
Already struggling with C-PTSD, OCD, anxiety and depression (depression likely just a side effect of the conditions I already have). THC has a way of helping me cope with difficulties through life better than absolutely anything that's ever been prescribed to me. So even when the ringing is worse, I'm too high to care at all. This is because it's the best medicine for me.
It just really sucks. I ended up hooked on Valium just because THC would give me sinus headaches before my surgery, at least for a time. I think I tried some hits in February and nothing got worse, but I wasn't willing to experiment much, I was too paranoid. It was by May that I gave it a try again, still with mild tinnitus but it was never made worse even then. But how fucking stupid to end up on a benzo because your nature medicine makes some part of your condition worse.
Last night it seemed to get slightly quieter, but still lots of electrical whine. I hit my pen once for 5 seconds and it seemed to remain the same, but often it comes on awhile after I get high. It's hard to say. I did edibles the other night and it may have been a bit less but I'm not positive. I can't tell if lowering my tolerance and not having to rip it as much would make it better or not. If I'm baked, I'm baked and it would probably get worse.
It seems as if this isn't temporary or just while high, either. If it's bad and I go to bed, it will be bad when I wake up, at least in the right ear initially. So all I can do is like, not have any tonight which will be somewhat difficult obviously because it's been an essential thing keeping me sane, I primarily consume at night which is my favorite time to get high, and let the stressors of my day just melt away.
Just really sucks :/ I don't want to have pills thrown at me. I just want my THC. My favorite and most valuable substance of everything I've ever tried, and I've tried a lot of drugs. My quality of life when I wasn't consuming it was at an all time low, it really was. Valium was nice and calmed me down but it's so boring otherwise. You feel nice, a bit numb, tired, but you don't get to have this introspective, insightful look into yourself and stressful events that have happened in the past or that day.
I've been suicidal for 6 years, really, it's just this whole year has been a nightmare and the past month especially, having my tinnitus come back when it was gone. I always had at least mild tinnitus but I would've never thought it related to my sinuses or anything. So it was a first to hear TOTAL silence. I always had ringing in a quiet room and thought everyone else did too, but no. It had been at least a decade or more since I'd heard silence.
I've always maintained that as long as THC is in my life, I will stay alive, and I know that's true. It really helps with my mental illness so much. So fucking much. And it kills me to think that it could have either caused the fluid build-up in my ears or if it's just making it worse temporarily. I mean I've smoked for 11.5 years and never had an issue like fluid in the ears or anything. That's what my GP thought it was anyway since when he pushed air into my ear, the eardrum didn't really move.
I did go swimming quite a bit in July but I've never had fluid get stuck in my ears. Maybe getting it up my nose got into my eustachian tubes somehow, Idk. I was always blocked up there. Just desperate to find some other reason the tinnitus has come back. I mean I was vaping heavy June/July and it never brought out any tinnitus whatsoever.
So yeah, the Universe hates me... how this supposed fluid build-up occurred I'll never know. I really doubt it's THC, that dries you out, and again in 11.5 years of smoking, vaping, edibles etc, I've never had something like this happen. It's true that THC can make existing tinnitus worse, but given I still had it slightly in my right ear at times and it never made it worse (and actually made it better, usually), I don't understand how this came to be. I've literally never even heard of someone developing fluid in their ears from THC. My only thoughts are blowing my nose too hard after using neilmed sinus rinses and the swimming. I was never warned or anything about covering my ears and nose, I usually did for at least my ears. I did notice the left ear started to ring the night of August 12th, a day where I'd gone swimming. That ear hadn't produced any noise since March.
I just have to wait and see my ENTs and that will feel like an eternity. My GP just said to take claratin and sudafed morning, benedryl night, Mucinex twice a day. The sudafed is supposed to be the thing that really helps but it's extremely hit or miss. Some days I'd notice it help, other days it would do nothing. Sunday I took a delayed release one and it clearly helped. The next day, it did not. Sudafed in general is tricky for me. The 12 hour version does last about 12 hours, maybe a bit closer to 14. But for some really fucking weird reason, the instant release 4-6 hour red tablets can also last me 12 hours. I had an issue with this the other day. I took 2 in the morning, 1 in the afternoon, and I was wired until 2am. My body seems to metabolize amphetamine slowly. I recall instant release Adderall was the same thing, it lasted 12 hours when it was supposed to be 4-6.
I had to drop the Mucinex because it murdered my stomach and caused serious constipation, an issue I dealt with chronically for months earlier this year until I discovered black seed oil and completely cured it. The awful pains in my gut were so bad, meanwhile I was getting awful head/face aches at the same time, and acid reflux that would make it feel like my throat was closing up, after several unsuccessful tries with antibiotics fucking my whole G.I up. I shudder thinking about earlier this year.
Just really sucks... it makes it worse 100% of the time now. Much, much worse, and then I wake up and it's still very bad. I'd always have it come back in the right ear after lying down before but as soon as I'd get up and move around it'd go away. The left ear never produced as much noise as it does now, even when I was smoking heavy amounts of flower topped with kief, I'd only get like, the tiniest static in my left ear and the right ear would only get about 10% worse than it already was.
Of course randomly out of nowhere the right ear is quieter. From a 10 to a 3, but it often fluctuates randomly. My left ear is still producing awful static which could be from the hole in the eardrum but likely isn't, I've probably had this for awhile. I don't have a hole in the right drum and that one rings 90% worse, and it hisses more than the left as well.
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all of today was bad, I've had quieter periods lately, so pretty much only while high it would be very bad. They haven't even half kicked in yet and it's severe. The only real anxiety medicine that works for me, fuck me. I'm sure there is fluid in my ears but I have to wait 10-11 days for my 2nd opinion and then surgeon follow-up. I see an audiologist on Tuesday morning and then I might see someone after that. I just want an answer.
gummies don't seem to be something that you'd digest well, ate 7 so 35mg