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ShelleBear

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The Real World
Its amazing how people come to realize the truth about life. About how all the ideals and images about life were fed into you as a child and as you grow up life smacks you in the face. The workd is not as it is perceived by a child. In the real world not everybody lives a brady bunch life. In the real world there are people who steal, rape, and murder. In the real world people you love and trust hurt you. In the real world you find out that everyones first priority is themselves. What do you do when your naivity is stripped away and your heart slowly bleeds as you realize the truths about those you love. When you realize the truths about those taht claim to love you. The heart bleeds ever so quietly in the real world, for in the real world no one gives a damn about what your heart feels. We are sorrounded by corporations that care only about the next dollar. And sometimes we are even sorrounded by loved ones who put themselves before your feelings.
When the dreams all fade, and the heart is bleeding like a sword was stabbed in and slowly drawn out, you are as alone as a single grain of sand. Existing....for its survival. Hoping the tide doesnt pull it way out in the the deep unending ocean. The childhood innocence slowly fades away...there are no knights in shining armor, and no, Im sorry, your are not free to express yourself. No wonder in the real world people are popping prozac or contaminating theri bodies to find the numbness needed to ease the bleeding heart. There is only so much blood in a heart to bleed. In the real world you come to realize that you are alone. You realize what truly being alone means. That there is no body there to kiss your boo-boo's all better. How can one keep caring even after they have experienced the real world? How long do you let your heart blled before the Berlin wall is recreated around your heart just so you can survive? In the real world not everyone finds their shelter from the truths of life. In the real world, my tears flow unnoticed. In the real world, my heart continues to bleed. In the real world I realize I am slowly dying. In the real world, I am alone.
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*Live your life knowing that the only person you will always have to go to bed EVERY night with is yourself.*
 
Awww, sweetie. I totally understand and feel what you said. I think the same thing to myself damn near everyday.
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What keeps me going is knowing I have a few TRUE friends that never make me feel alone.
And smile for me
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you never know whose day you'll brighten.
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"Look down on me, you will see a fool. Look up at me, you will see your lord. Look straight at me, you will see yourself." ~Charles Manson~
 
You learn to deal with it shelle, you build a wall around your heart. In my world I love my children and try to do the best I can even when I get shit on. I know how you feel it just hurts so much that you want to hide out and live in your own lil world cuz the real world is filled with cold heartless mosnters who will spit on you rather then trying to see you for who you are. I have never ever stop expressing myself or telling the truth as i see it. I dunno if this good or bad I just know that being an adult sucks at times, that the things we love the most offten leave us and nothing is perfect its like looking through rose tinted glasses and believeing you can change things. When inside you know you have to make things better for your self, disheartening I know but sometimes the only thing that keeps me going is the fact that I am strong and I won't give them the satifaction of breaking me. I have endured things in the name of love, I have given myself inlove to find the other person didn't feel the same. I have had my heart cut out and throw on the floor. It's damn hard to be human sometimes and even harder to get pass how we all feel sometimes it makes you feel helpless like you can't do shit to make anything better while your so called love just goes on their merry way. Its like I'm forever going to the brink of what I can do and I find my stregth comes from with in from the wells of my soul I pick myself up empty and hollow trying to find my way in a bitterly cold world. I fear for my children because I raise them with the truth I try to educated them on the way of the world with out taking their innocents from them. So many things can and do go wrong you just have to pick yourself up and try again. I don't know what else to say
hugs and bugs
A
p.s. I'm here if you need me just send me an email or talk to me on chat
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The more you run over a dead cat the flatter it gets...
[This message has been edited by Binkie (edited 03 June 2000).]
 
If everyone is only truely alone in the end, then we share that lonliness together.
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If anything I do drugs to appreciate reality.
 
As someone else put it, Shelle: deal with it. And cherish the few good moments that much more for their rarity, instead of sinking in the slough of despond. And be glad that tragic life isn't as bad as it could be--your life, namely.
Finally, on a more optimistic note, you say we're all really alone. Not so...we're all *individuals*, and that's different. And as individuals we rely on others for our well-being, no matter how lonely or self-reliant you feel. So as an individual, try to make life better (or at least bearable) for others.
 
I understand the feeling
and I have had it too
but I found life's lil problems are more easily delt with if you
"tear down the wall"
and face them full forced... but then again thats just me
luv and huggles
justin
 
Thanks everyone for responding, that really meant alot with me. I am very self motivated, but once in awhile when i feel all overwhelmed I just pick up the pen, or in this case type, something to express the way I feel. Writing is a stress reliever for me...a way to deal with, in this case, "the real world". Its nice to know that Im not alone in occasionally feeling this way. Writing anything, or whatever you may call what I wrote is a release of the feelings. Thanks for taking the time to read, and to express how I felt at that moment in time. I love you guys!
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*Live your life knowing that the only person you will always have to go to bed EVERY night with is yourself.*
 
AINT LIFE A BITCH?
Shelle baby, We have talked and shared some pretty personal stuff. And I think i can accuratly say you are awesome !
Smile. Thats what I do. It not only helps me,but it helps everyone around me because they think that i am happy and then they strive for happiness. (if that makes any sense)
Even a fake smile that may not help your depressing day, may help someone whos feeling the same way you are. It works !
Always smiling : )
Tim
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P.S. go here for Non-fake smiles~~~>http://hometown.aol.com/jerkyztheone/
 
Hmmm, Im not sure where Im going to go with this post to my thread. Im bumping it for quite a few reasons. The number one reason is so that if there is anyone out there who may have felt when I first wrote this that I may be able to help them. I think weve all been through a period of time when we felt down, out and depressed and like the world was against us, but mainly this is for those who werent feeling like that for a "short" period of time. For YEARS I felt the way I described up above. What I wanted to say is that depression does go away, and when you finally find your "True" self, you will feel miraculous, and wonder why you let yourself go on hating life. Like I said, I dont know where Im going with this. I just want to let everyone to know to NEVER ever give up. No one should live in depression. Since Ive gotten out of it I cant believe the way I feel. Happy. I love life again. So anyone who feels bad, know that your not alone and that it can be beat.And if you need to chat to someone whos been through it and back, youve got me.
Much love
Shelle
 
Wow shelle you took the words right out of my mouth. There have been so many times I have felt all of the things you wrote in your post. Theres a saying that goes what doesnt kill us makes us stronger. It may be true but sometimes it leaves us weak for a little while. Keep raging against the dying of the light and writing you definitly have a way of words and are no longer naive. Sometimes you gotta learn things the hard way ya know? Thanks for sharing.
*MuWaH*
*Jessica*
 
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