So, this is my first post. I have been reading BL for months and really enjoy the positive reinforcement. I'll try to make my story short and sweet. I had ankle surgery after a snowmobile accident 2 years ago. I had messed around with Vic's a little before that as I was also in 2 pickup truck roll overs. I've always liked the feeling of opiates (who doesn't right?). Anyways after about a year my ankle pain had subsided. Mind you my doctor didn't give me much for painkillers. Enough to last a month although he said I wouldn't feel normal for at least a year. I walk on concrete all day. I own a auto body shop. I went to the streets to get the pills. Oxys, Vic's, morphs you get the picture. So about 3 months ago I opened up to my family and told them about my addiction. They are very supportive. So I went clean after that for a little over a week and then relapsed. I was taking anywhere from 50mg to 200mg a day. I no longer have the financial stability to keep this habit and taking the pills just to ward off the wds seems really pointless to me. So I'm starting all over again with getting sober for good this time. I started tapering down a week ago taking 5-15mg a day still feeling like crap at that dose. Yesterday and today I took 5mg a day and am looking to do the leap now. I took some lope today to get through work as I can't take time off. I can get through the physical stage, it sucks immensely but definitely do able. Any suggestions on how to battle the mental aspect in the long run? I've seen posts of people getting off 600mgs a day and I couldn't even imagine that. I used for recreational purposes also. I set myself up to see a counselor once a week and wondering if anyone here has went to counseling and if it has worked for them? My insurance covers it so that's not a problem.
Sorry for the novel as long as war and peace. Any input would be greatly appreciated! Thanks guys and I love this forum!
Sorry for the novel as long as war and peace. Any input would be greatly appreciated! Thanks guys and I love this forum!