Hey, what's up man, I am not trying to be funny but what does 'knackered ' mean?yo yo I'm back from a random little holiday. Was nice. I'm so over inner-city living..One day I'd love to move somewhere a bit more roomy and quiet. Anyway. I feel refreshed but also pretty damn knackered! Hope you guys are doing well![]()
Well it is better than angry and violent( which is common among heavy drinkers, no lol)I haven't smoked weed for almost two weeks. And haven't vaped/cig for over a month. Meth and crack, coming up on two years. But I've been drinking almost daily..
Alcohol, of all the substances I've used , has me making the worst decisions. It fills the time, and slows down my thoughts to put me more in the moment, but gleeful and stupid is a recipe for disaster..
It is hard enough for me to keep up with American slang; which can vary somewhat by regionshaha "worn out", "tired" or"exhausted"
"he was knackered after his tea so he went to bed"
Unfortunately many of us who have or had addictions need something to fill that void. I need nicotineTrue. I would sometimes get angry when I was in my early twenties and had to live in close proximity to people that annoyed me. Sometimes I'd do something physically uncalled for too like if someone tried to teach me how to play flip-cup when I was already confident in my ability..
But these days it's yes more harmless.. mostly just spending money on things I don't need and wasting time.
Yea me too, I quit drinking seven years ago. I was pretty out of control when I was drinkingAlcohol, of all the substances I've used , has me making the worst decisions.
yo yo I'm back from a random little holiday. Was nice. I'm so over inner-city living..One day I'd love to move somewhere a bit more roomy and quiet. Anyway. I feel refreshed but also pretty damn knackered! Hope you guys are doing well![]()
in case I can't smoke to sleep, could I take trazodone instead of xanax before sleep?
Checking in
It’s June 2. Haven’t used since probably the 23rd and that was a single lapse. Before that idk. Can’t have been more than a week tho. I think around the fourteenth.
The days go by slow. Doing work. Driving around. Trying to figure something out. I try to offer some of my experience to people on here. I fight the impulse to buy dope. I see people keeled over in the streets nodding into their cellphones or handbags. In some ways I’m jealous of them but I remember that blue lighter who died a few weeks ago and I try not to relapse however bad I might want to. And I want to.
So the days run away and the bills pile up and I don’t know how to cope with anything except by making more money and praying to god I catch a break. The mischievous elves have been nice lately and no tricks have been played on me. I kept thinking about going to na but I really just wanted someone to offer me dope.
I’m rotting in my bedroom. Trash piling up. I know I need to clean but I need trash cans and paper towels and I just don’t have it in me right now. It does need to be done tho. Right now I’m going to focus on taking a shower. I’ll get dressed and go to work. I’m going to be optimistic that somehow some way things work out. That everything will be okay. That I’ll make some money and find a good job and that I’ll be able to marry my love.
I feel so fucking poor and embarrassed of where I’m at and I’ve expressed so much contempt for matrimony based on my past experience but I really do want to marry her at least so she knows how much she means to me. I love her with all of my heart.
I sent her a handwritten poem the other day. She should get it in the mail tomorrow. I’m looking forward to that. I kind of decorated the outside of the letter. I hope it goes well.
Hoping that everything works out and we all turn out okay.
I was thinking of starting cognitive behavioural therapy. I have been on drugs for more than half of my life. When I was quitting heroin I also wanted to quit weed as well but I have the sleep issues + a lot of other issues I ignored. Weed helps a lot with them, or benzos do the same but without the high. I choose to smoke weed whenever I can as I don't have to worry about the dependency on benzos.If I had to pick Xanax or trazodone to help with PAWS I'd definitely pick trazodone.
Does it help? Or have you not tried.
If Xanax and weed help, they both can be sedating especially Xanax, in my experience. However they are both probably more "pleasurable" than trazodone.
That is pretty much why I say trazodone. It's far less likely to keep you dependant, again, in my experience.
Love to hear that you have someone to keep you motivated to move forward.
Just do be mindful that you ultimately want to be your own "anchor". Myself and my girlfriend literally just talked about this a couple days ago. I was saying how she swooped me off the street and out of public housing (really), and has supported me so incredibly much that sometimes when she leaves the house for a period of times, while I don't relapse on hard drugs, I will drink a lot more than I would for a casual Sunday or NFL game with her
While that may not be the exact case for you, I'd just say I think it's very important to have self motivation to stay sober as well. Not to say you don't, I don't know if you do or not, but I think it's a very important point to make