Although TDS has helped me a lot in the short term and I thank it for that, in the long term if I ever get clean I couldn't see myself being a member here anymore... although I'm not honestly sure.
TDS offers immediate help/advice which obviously has its benefits.
Yet TDS is also a confined region of a large website where you get essentially some of the most effed up people on that website (no offense I'm one of those people). Its that fact alone, the struggling, identifying with other people struggling, that sometimes makes me feel like I'm struggling more than I am ... even when I'm not.
Its very hard to explain. But when I leave TDS for weeks at a time, I identify less with addicts, and feel more like a normal/stable person. Just the whole fact that I even post in this forum can honestly make me feel like a more messed up person than I really am. I thank TDS for a lot, I mean A LOT, but I do understand one day for my own benefit I will have to depart from it. People, even adults, are much more impressionable than they sometimes understand.
Theres good people on here, intelligent people, wild/free spirited fun loving people, but I think humans transfer a lot of behavoir just by who they choose to identify with. I choose to identify with people who are struggling, because I struggle like anyone else, but eventually I just feel like it becomes all about the struggle on here.. and thats not always a good thing.
I love you TDS. It has been an honor so far posting with you all and learning about all your lives. I wish for all of you to some day reach "the bright side", and wish for nothing but happiness and peace for everybody.
-Bo