I am SO sorry this is long. I just need to explain. I'll edit as much as I can.
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Oh we don't kiss. This is a strictly fuckbuddy situation. He calls me or I call him. We figure out and plan a meet. When we are alone together we don't kiss. In 4 years we have
never kissed once. We decided at the outset that we were not emotionally into each other but the sex was good so we left it always sex only. Generally, start in the shower, rub each other with soap and turn each other on, then once we are horizontal we have intercourse in different positions until we cum. Maybe 40 minutes to an hour.
In public, if we see each other, we pretend like total strangers. I liked the arrangement very well. He gave me terrific orgasms. Way better orgasms than my toys. And like sex toys, we put each other in the back of a drawer so to speak. Sometimes we go for two or three months with no contact, then here comes the phone call.
If I had EVER kissed this guy I would have thrown up after he told me that dog cum doesn't taste
bad. He gets hard as soon as he starts telling me about how exciting and arousing it was when the dog busted a nut. Admittedly, I will miss the cut and dry way we were always able to conduct ourselves. I have
NO emotion for him, or at least I was ambivalent before. Now that he's brought me into fetish area, I am thinking he's becoming the man he will become. He's 22ish and maybe it's just something some guys experiment with?
I do not mean any disrespect by saying this, but I have been wondering lately if he is actually gay and not accepting that because he always talks shit about gay guys. BUT LOOK...... He literally did tell me that he wonders now if he might be gay because after sucking his dog off, he has become extremely interested in the idea of sucking dick. Oh, and he doesn't like to eat the cuchie.
He watches me give him head, he asks questions about what I'm doing, how I'm moving my tongue, how I keep my teeth off the dick, like really doing research. He told me last time we were together, when I found out all this animal dong was floating around in his head, that IF a man just came up to him and asked him to suck his dick, my FB would NOT say NO. He asked me, worry in his voice, "Do you think that means I'm gay??"
I said, "Dude, if you are into dick, you have a strong likelihood of being gay. If you are gay, then be gay." He said, "No I fucking can't be a gay guy. I hate gay guys." I said, "That is your old information interfering with your new incoming information. Listen to your instincts. If you are gay you are going to need to have sex with a guy to see if that's right for you." He said "I don't have gay friends. Where am I going to find a gay guy to help me through this?"
I said "Craigslist?" Where do people go to find out if they are gay? Do ya'll think it is possible that he is using the doggie as an outlet for part of himself that he has denied, and denied and denied? I wonder if he started a satisfying affair with a male, he might even give up the doggie bjs. That will probably bum the dog out. Now the dog lays spread eagle waiting for his red lipstick looking thing to turn into a feeling of great satisfaction and relief.
I do not mean to suggest gay people are zoo people. I have a million gay and lesbian friends or doctors or students or neighbors. It's not a problem for me. But I'm older and if I was gay I would go be gay. I have already seen that families work out in various ways.
I only offer the supposition that my fb may be gay and may be in denial. Perhaps that's how the dog talk entered into our sessions, because at this stage he can't even handle his feelings about dicks and ballsacks. We have always talked openly about sexual positions, lube, other sex related topics. Dog balls never came into the picture. I love dick, and I love balls, and I think as a woman it's fair to admit that I enjoy a naked man. Naked men excite me. I understand how my fuckbuddy feels, if he is gay.
That being said, I'm not fucking him anymore. I have not been answering his calls. I put BobDylans "It aint me babe, it aint me your looking for babe" on my ringback to him so everytime he calls, he hears it. I can't "break up" with him. We aren't even friends. I don't hate him. I don't want to hurt his feelings saying "You dog dick licker, don't call me anymore!" I will miss the convenience of our sex sessions but this dude has got to go in search of himself. I found myself years ago. And myself doesn't get aroused by dog balls.
GM I'm definitely
done with this arrangement... I'm just not sure how to stop seeing someone Im not even seeing.....
and "circle slash fat dog ball saks" like a no smoking sign, because in my life and in my reality, people don't suck their dogs dicks ever.
Maybe everybody but me sucks dogs dicks and I just never got told. But I'm not into it!
Just not sure how to proceed.
involved?
how subtle, i like this
