thatonedude777
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The amphetamines use: About 2 years ago I did adderall 20mg once a day (it'd last 12 hours as instant release yay for a strong euphoric glow phase) and after maybe 5-10 days I'd be absent for a whole month without any noticable effects. Later I was prescribed vyvanse and took maybe 45-60mg (I think they were 15mgs) and I did that for another 3 months and stopped cold turkey. No noticeable effects other than I couldn't communicate verbally very well (came out distorted and choppy) but that was done after 6 months or so (really bothered me for short term use so it seem'd) and chest discomfort, high blood pressure, and heart palpitations were an everyday thing. But nothing fucked up my memory or quick thinking (I was always smart and quick).
Energy drink use: Well about 3 years ago I drank energy drinks on and off but no more than a four pack every day or two (usually two days because I only drank it for the taste
but would randomly stop for months) and that carried on. Well, I always had anxiety before the amp use but amps calmed me down and everything went away and energy drinks never did anything but make me feel up so no memory problems or anything from either. Now recently after taking a 5 hour power combined with an energy drink 4 hours prior during work my life turned upside down on me. Panic attacks are an everyday thing instead of the first hit I took from a bowl of pot (been smoking since I was 17). Except something has changed since that day. My memory, my judgement, everything about me is distant and foggy and feels like I've been up for over 24 hours. Everyday the lights get so bright I'm about to pass out but has to work in a factory managing a press so I have to fight through it and panic attacks during this time make me feel like I'm dying (even while working and can't fuck up). I can't remember shit most days and really need some advice.
Has this ever happened to anyone else? Did I sereverly fuck up and it just took time to creep into me? I can't go to the Dr. and the most they'll tell me is it's anxiety and I know anxiety isn't the cause of these problems (but anxiety likes to mask it this way but it'll happen even if I'm not scared or anxious!). This is been going on for over 2 months now and it's driving me insane. I stopped smoking weed except for a hit or two because of the pressure I feel throughout the day caused by the bright lights and hazzy eyesight and lacking the ability to absorb information from my surroundings (small rooms I can handle, giant open areas I look around and have a hard time absorbing information and often asks what does this mean). I've been clean from apartame (it triggers severe anxiety these days, never use to), caffeine, and energy drinks entirely and been 2 years since amp use. I have a very healthy diet and want to find out more information about this. Previously before the incident with the 5 hour power, my mind was alittle slow but nothing like this. I exercise and live a healthy life too. Sometimes it gets so bad my mind's eye tries to project images that I knew weren't there and never physically saw them but has stopped since I cleaned up my act. Please tell me I haven't gone over the coocoo's nest without ever really binging or abusing for years on end or anything of the sort.
Energy drink use: Well about 3 years ago I drank energy drinks on and off but no more than a four pack every day or two (usually two days because I only drank it for the taste

Has this ever happened to anyone else? Did I sereverly fuck up and it just took time to creep into me? I can't go to the Dr. and the most they'll tell me is it's anxiety and I know anxiety isn't the cause of these problems (but anxiety likes to mask it this way but it'll happen even if I'm not scared or anxious!). This is been going on for over 2 months now and it's driving me insane. I stopped smoking weed except for a hit or two because of the pressure I feel throughout the day caused by the bright lights and hazzy eyesight and lacking the ability to absorb information from my surroundings (small rooms I can handle, giant open areas I look around and have a hard time absorbing information and often asks what does this mean). I've been clean from apartame (it triggers severe anxiety these days, never use to), caffeine, and energy drinks entirely and been 2 years since amp use. I have a very healthy diet and want to find out more information about this. Previously before the incident with the 5 hour power, my mind was alittle slow but nothing like this. I exercise and live a healthy life too. Sometimes it gets so bad my mind's eye tries to project images that I knew weren't there and never physically saw them but has stopped since I cleaned up my act. Please tell me I haven't gone over the coocoo's nest without ever really binging or abusing for years on end or anything of the sort.