Rybee
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I started suffering from major depressive disorder and generalised anxiety disorder in 2011.
I've tried Citalopram/Fluoxetine/Venlafaxine/Duloxetine in the past and I could never really hack SSRI/SNRI drugs, I just found them to be very emotionally numbing, which was fine for the GAD, but it didn't help with depression in the slightest. Before, and after, I was on SSRI/SNRI medications, I'd experience the lows in life, but I'd sometimes be able to experience the highs in life too. When I was on them I just felt very blunt emotionally and didn't seem to experience any highs or lows, it was just flat-line all the way.
Because of this, I then tried Amitriptyline/Dosulepin as an alternative but I found them to be very sedating. Again, helped a lot with the GAD, but didn't help with the depression in the slightest and possibly made it worse due to the lethargy and fatigue.
I then tried Agomelatine (Valdoxan) as a novel alternative. Whilst I do think it helped, and I bought into the mechanisms of it more than I did SSRI/SNRI/TCA drugs (of which I'm still very skeptical), it gave me horrible nightmares. After weeks of nightmares and night sweats I gave in and came off of it. Shortly after this (November 2013) I fell down the stairs and suffered from a PARS defect and 2 herniated spinal discs. I was put on Morphine, then Fentanyl, then Oxycodone, over a period of 4 months. The pain is now stable and I take 3x10mg of Oxycodone daily and have been prescribed that until December, at which point I'll have a review with my pain consultant.
Both my anxiety and depression completely subsided when I was on higher doses of Morphine/Fentanyl/Oxycodone and it was the first time in 3 years that I wasn't taking any anti-depressants, I felt great. However, ~3 months ago my dose was lowered from 80mg Oxycodone to 30mg per day, as my back had since healed and my pain had largely subsided. Which was fine, I had no qualms about that because my consultant allowed me to slowly taper over 2 months - I never had any withdrawal effects. However, since being on a smaller dose I've started to feel low in mood and anxious again - my problems seem to have crept back into my life. I've started using diazepam again (px'd by my Psych) 10-30mg per day, sometimes more, sometimes less. I find it to be a really useful tool in managing my anxiety so I do try to use it as conservatively as possible and hold of as long as possible before resorting to it.
It's got to the point where I think my problems need to be addressed. I would be very reluctant to go back on any SSRI/SNRI/TCA again, and would prefer to try alternative medications before hand. I was just rummaging through my draw for an allergy tablet and found an old, though just still in date (expires October 2014) packet of Agomelatine and I found myself staring at it for a while, pondering whether to try it again..? It's got 3 1/2 weeks worth in it and usually kicks in quite quickly, so I thought I'd give it a go and if it helps, after 3 weeks I'd ask my Psych for a script to go back on it.
Then it got me thinking of exploring other alternatives to SSRI/SNRI/TCA's. I know my choice would be somewhat limited, but I know I'd have some choice.
Agomelatine is the only 'novel' antidepressant that I've used. So I was just wondering what other options people have tried, and how successful they were? I know everybody is different and I could react completely different to someone else on any particular type of medication. I think I'm going to book an appt with my Psych for ~3 weeks time and want to be a bit more clued up on alternative medications.
I've become very tired/lethargic/fatigued lately and think I'd benefit from some kind of stimulation. I think something like Ritalin would be a little too much and maybe make me more anxious, but if there are any AD's out there that are more stimulating, than sedating - such as Mirtazapine, I'd be very interested to know about them.
Sorry this has turned more into a rant... I just feel I have a lot going on in my head right now and BL has always been a welcoming place to vent and just scribble my thoughts which often helps.
Any input, negative or positive - if constructive, would help.
Rybee
I've tried Citalopram/Fluoxetine/Venlafaxine/Duloxetine in the past and I could never really hack SSRI/SNRI drugs, I just found them to be very emotionally numbing, which was fine for the GAD, but it didn't help with depression in the slightest. Before, and after, I was on SSRI/SNRI medications, I'd experience the lows in life, but I'd sometimes be able to experience the highs in life too. When I was on them I just felt very blunt emotionally and didn't seem to experience any highs or lows, it was just flat-line all the way.
Because of this, I then tried Amitriptyline/Dosulepin as an alternative but I found them to be very sedating. Again, helped a lot with the GAD, but didn't help with the depression in the slightest and possibly made it worse due to the lethargy and fatigue.
I then tried Agomelatine (Valdoxan) as a novel alternative. Whilst I do think it helped, and I bought into the mechanisms of it more than I did SSRI/SNRI/TCA drugs (of which I'm still very skeptical), it gave me horrible nightmares. After weeks of nightmares and night sweats I gave in and came off of it. Shortly after this (November 2013) I fell down the stairs and suffered from a PARS defect and 2 herniated spinal discs. I was put on Morphine, then Fentanyl, then Oxycodone, over a period of 4 months. The pain is now stable and I take 3x10mg of Oxycodone daily and have been prescribed that until December, at which point I'll have a review with my pain consultant.
Both my anxiety and depression completely subsided when I was on higher doses of Morphine/Fentanyl/Oxycodone and it was the first time in 3 years that I wasn't taking any anti-depressants, I felt great. However, ~3 months ago my dose was lowered from 80mg Oxycodone to 30mg per day, as my back had since healed and my pain had largely subsided. Which was fine, I had no qualms about that because my consultant allowed me to slowly taper over 2 months - I never had any withdrawal effects. However, since being on a smaller dose I've started to feel low in mood and anxious again - my problems seem to have crept back into my life. I've started using diazepam again (px'd by my Psych) 10-30mg per day, sometimes more, sometimes less. I find it to be a really useful tool in managing my anxiety so I do try to use it as conservatively as possible and hold of as long as possible before resorting to it.
It's got to the point where I think my problems need to be addressed. I would be very reluctant to go back on any SSRI/SNRI/TCA again, and would prefer to try alternative medications before hand. I was just rummaging through my draw for an allergy tablet and found an old, though just still in date (expires October 2014) packet of Agomelatine and I found myself staring at it for a while, pondering whether to try it again..? It's got 3 1/2 weeks worth in it and usually kicks in quite quickly, so I thought I'd give it a go and if it helps, after 3 weeks I'd ask my Psych for a script to go back on it.
Then it got me thinking of exploring other alternatives to SSRI/SNRI/TCA's. I know my choice would be somewhat limited, but I know I'd have some choice.
Agomelatine is the only 'novel' antidepressant that I've used. So I was just wondering what other options people have tried, and how successful they were? I know everybody is different and I could react completely different to someone else on any particular type of medication. I think I'm going to book an appt with my Psych for ~3 weeks time and want to be a bit more clued up on alternative medications.
I've become very tired/lethargic/fatigued lately and think I'd benefit from some kind of stimulation. I think something like Ritalin would be a little too much and maybe make me more anxious, but if there are any AD's out there that are more stimulating, than sedating - such as Mirtazapine, I'd be very interested to know about them.
Sorry this has turned more into a rant... I just feel I have a lot going on in my head right now and BL has always been a welcoming place to vent and just scribble my thoughts which often helps.
Any input, negative or positive - if constructive, would help.
Rybee
