Hi, I'm a student and I suffer from depression, anxiety and also brain fog/irritability/having no clarity of mind. Often when things happen which upset me or scare me it's like my head starts to spin. I get this feeling almost daily and it's totally disabling. When I am in this "mode" I cannot do anything productive or plan something. I hardly ever have moments where I feel like I'm at peace and have a clear mind.
I also have many other "weird" symptoms which I assume have a neurochemical cause which probably nobody knows cause no of my doctors (neurologist,psychiatrist,intern) seem to have any idea what causes it. I have been having visual snow for many years. I also suffer from strong blue field entoptic phenomenon. I see hundreds of transparent little objects moving around in my visual field. Sometimes I also see sparks. I am pretty sure that this is caused by some kind of imbalance or overactivity in the brain.
But it's really frustrating cause even though I'm seeing a psychiatrist in a clinic there don't seem to be any tests available to find out what exactly the cause is. For example I asked my psych wether I might be low in dopamine. He said we don't know. There's no way to test it.
He said measuring NTs in the blood or urine is useless so all he basically does is prescribe new drugs. I was really thinking that if I go to a clinic then they probably have laboratory tests and other stuff available which a normal psychiatrist does not have. I have already tried various ADs without success (celexa,wellbutrin,remeron,agomelatin,tianeptine & memantine). The memantine was my idea cause I thought maybe my irritability has something to do with excessive glutamate. I tried memantine a few weeks but unfortunately at 20mg it messed with my memory.
My recall became totally weird and this scared me cause since I'm a student I cannot take something which makes my memory worse.
Now my psych suggested lyrica for anxiety. I told him that I worry about lyrica cause I read that it dumbs you down. The dumbing down alone would already be a reason for me not to take it. But now I read stuff online where people wrote that they are addicted to lyrica and cannot stop taking it. My doc told me it's non addictive! Now I'm really worried and really don't know if I should take it or not.
I also watched a video on youtube from a really poor and miserable looking guy who said that lyrica destroyed his life. He has a few videos where you see him shaking it's really totally scary. He also said that if messed up his eyesight. After all of this I really feel like lyrica is something WAY too dangerous to even try out. I also read that there are no long term studies cause it's a new drug and that lyrica actually prevents new synapses from being built. To me this sounds like a huge red flag. It sounds like lyrica is a very potent anti-nootropic drug.
I don't know what to do now. My anxiety is a huge problem. But benzos don't seem to be a solution either because of tolerance and addiction and docs also hesitate to prescribe them. Do you have any ideas or suggestions?
I also have many other "weird" symptoms which I assume have a neurochemical cause which probably nobody knows cause no of my doctors (neurologist,psychiatrist,intern) seem to have any idea what causes it. I have been having visual snow for many years. I also suffer from strong blue field entoptic phenomenon. I see hundreds of transparent little objects moving around in my visual field. Sometimes I also see sparks. I am pretty sure that this is caused by some kind of imbalance or overactivity in the brain.
But it's really frustrating cause even though I'm seeing a psychiatrist in a clinic there don't seem to be any tests available to find out what exactly the cause is. For example I asked my psych wether I might be low in dopamine. He said we don't know. There's no way to test it.
He said measuring NTs in the blood or urine is useless so all he basically does is prescribe new drugs. I was really thinking that if I go to a clinic then they probably have laboratory tests and other stuff available which a normal psychiatrist does not have. I have already tried various ADs without success (celexa,wellbutrin,remeron,agomelatin,tianeptine & memantine). The memantine was my idea cause I thought maybe my irritability has something to do with excessive glutamate. I tried memantine a few weeks but unfortunately at 20mg it messed with my memory.
My recall became totally weird and this scared me cause since I'm a student I cannot take something which makes my memory worse.
Now my psych suggested lyrica for anxiety. I told him that I worry about lyrica cause I read that it dumbs you down. The dumbing down alone would already be a reason for me not to take it. But now I read stuff online where people wrote that they are addicted to lyrica and cannot stop taking it. My doc told me it's non addictive! Now I'm really worried and really don't know if I should take it or not.
I also watched a video on youtube from a really poor and miserable looking guy who said that lyrica destroyed his life. He has a few videos where you see him shaking it's really totally scary. He also said that if messed up his eyesight. After all of this I really feel like lyrica is something WAY too dangerous to even try out. I also read that there are no long term studies cause it's a new drug and that lyrica actually prevents new synapses from being built. To me this sounds like a huge red flag. It sounds like lyrica is a very potent anti-nootropic drug.
I don't know what to do now. My anxiety is a huge problem. But benzos don't seem to be a solution either because of tolerance and addiction and docs also hesitate to prescribe them. Do you have any ideas or suggestions?