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Substance: Subutex (Buprenorphine)
Dosage: 12mg - 0.4mg
Duration of trip: 2 years
ROA: Sublingual, Insufflated
Subutex, chemically Buprenorphine is a drug I have been prescribed for two years, starting on 12mg daily and in it’s course getting down to 0.4mg, where I am now and have been for 10 months. My description below covers the entire two years I have been on this opiate, I have had the drug in my system consistently through out this time so the duration has technically been an on-going trip for two years.
It’s a long path, considering I started on 12mg when others who have more significant addictions start at much higher doses, up to 24mg (the thought of that dose makes my skin crawl)
Most junkies want a quick fix, we want to feel normal straight away, if there’s pain involved it needs to be sharp and instant, not protracted and dull and this most of all applies to withdrawal.
From what I’ve gathered the general idea behind prescribing Subutex is to get users off other opiates for such a period of time that they break their habits, though in the process create a new “more mild” habit.
After all it’s much easier to get on with your life when all you need do is take a tablet or two once a day, beneath your tongue instead of dealing with the incessant hassle of phoning unreliable dealers who seem to live in their own dimension of time, and sitting wondering how you’re going to survive the next four hours without thawing into a puddle of lethargic sweat addled sludge.
Subutex creates a delusion of conformity, you feel like you’re a human again, you can socialise, think, do, almost anything; though it makes you a prisoner in your own life.. It’s constantly at the back of your head, even if you don’t realise it, that if you break the routine, miss the unholy communion just once you’re going to be in hell and there’s fuck all you can do but call every number in your phone begging for salvation, but it’s been too long and every prayer made through the outgoing receiver falls unanswered as you’ve been in purgatory too long. (I'm not a Christian, though the analogy between the Eucharist and the weekly routine of visiting the pharmacist and placing the pill under your tongue, the only two things missing are the pharmacist saying "The body of Christ" and the wine).
Subutex doesn’t get you where you’re going, it merely delays the train.
When I was on 6mg I still didn’t realise the raw power Subutex has as an opiate, after a night out with a friend I went to get my subs in the morning, Not thinking much of it I ground down a 2mg tablet with a bank card, thinking it was an insignificant dose, and gave to him to act as a downer for the uppers he had taken the previous night.
Whenever i’d had a heavy night, the “comedown” from conventional drugs was always counter-acted the second i’d had my subs, it created a clean slate and made me feel normal, functional and indifferent.
Subutex is 40 times stronger than morphine, for someone with no tolerance as I was soon to find out that I was moronic to think as little as 2mg would be “mild” for them, granted they didn’t OD, they ended up spending time in hospital unable to piss with their bladder bordering on explosion. And all our mutual friends knowing who gave them the subs, fortunately people can laugh off someone having their bladder surgically emptied. For me at least I became acutely aware how powerful a drug it is.
If you’re thinking of starting subs, honestly think to yourself if a week long withdrawal would be worse than nearly a year of putting off the inevitable, making your brain more reliant on opiates than it ever was before.
Tagged by Xorkoth
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Dosage: 12mg - 0.4mg
Duration of trip: 2 years
ROA: Sublingual, Insufflated
Subutex, chemically Buprenorphine is a drug I have been prescribed for two years, starting on 12mg daily and in it’s course getting down to 0.4mg, where I am now and have been for 10 months. My description below covers the entire two years I have been on this opiate, I have had the drug in my system consistently through out this time so the duration has technically been an on-going trip for two years.
It’s a long path, considering I started on 12mg when others who have more significant addictions start at much higher doses, up to 24mg (the thought of that dose makes my skin crawl)
Most junkies want a quick fix, we want to feel normal straight away, if there’s pain involved it needs to be sharp and instant, not protracted and dull and this most of all applies to withdrawal.
From what I’ve gathered the general idea behind prescribing Subutex is to get users off other opiates for such a period of time that they break their habits, though in the process create a new “more mild” habit.
After all it’s much easier to get on with your life when all you need do is take a tablet or two once a day, beneath your tongue instead of dealing with the incessant hassle of phoning unreliable dealers who seem to live in their own dimension of time, and sitting wondering how you’re going to survive the next four hours without thawing into a puddle of lethargic sweat addled sludge.
Subutex creates a delusion of conformity, you feel like you’re a human again, you can socialise, think, do, almost anything; though it makes you a prisoner in your own life.. It’s constantly at the back of your head, even if you don’t realise it, that if you break the routine, miss the unholy communion just once you’re going to be in hell and there’s fuck all you can do but call every number in your phone begging for salvation, but it’s been too long and every prayer made through the outgoing receiver falls unanswered as you’ve been in purgatory too long. (I'm not a Christian, though the analogy between the Eucharist and the weekly routine of visiting the pharmacist and placing the pill under your tongue, the only two things missing are the pharmacist saying "The body of Christ" and the wine).
Subutex doesn’t get you where you’re going, it merely delays the train.
When I was on 6mg I still didn’t realise the raw power Subutex has as an opiate, after a night out with a friend I went to get my subs in the morning, Not thinking much of it I ground down a 2mg tablet with a bank card, thinking it was an insignificant dose, and gave to him to act as a downer for the uppers he had taken the previous night.
Whenever i’d had a heavy night, the “comedown” from conventional drugs was always counter-acted the second i’d had my subs, it created a clean slate and made me feel normal, functional and indifferent.
Subutex is 40 times stronger than morphine, for someone with no tolerance as I was soon to find out that I was moronic to think as little as 2mg would be “mild” for them, granted they didn’t OD, they ended up spending time in hospital unable to piss with their bladder bordering on explosion. And all our mutual friends knowing who gave them the subs, fortunately people can laugh off someone having their bladder surgically emptied. For me at least I became acutely aware how powerful a drug it is.
If you’re thinking of starting subs, honestly think to yourself if a week long withdrawal would be worse than nearly a year of putting off the inevitable, making your brain more reliant on opiates than it ever was before.
Tagged by Xorkoth
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substancecode_opiates
explevel_experienced
exptype_negative
exptype_addiction
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