xxsicknessxx
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I get 16mg a day. I snort it in 4mg lines 4 times a day.
I have bad pain from a surgary, and abused drugs for 9 years im sober 6months now. I have been on and off box for 3 years. This time im staying on.
questions.
1. Would taking all 16mg at the start of the day be better then 4 times a day as in. Crave the drug less, feel better, feel less the need to redose (I often feel I need more and more sometimes over taking my pills so I run out early)
2. Would taking it under the tounge work better for me seeing how im looking to just use the drug have it last as long as possible, not abuse it, not get high, not feel the desire to take more and more. I just want to feel normal and I snort it becasue I feel I get more out of the drug, also often I feel bad or my stomache starts to hurt so I dose again.... is it in my head? I have a huge issue here... I know.
3. What advise would you give? I really want to take 12mg a day.. whats the best way to do this? I need to or I will run out to fast... I only need to do it for a few days then I can go back to 16mg.
I am a addict, old habits die hard... I like snorting drugs... I don't do anything else.. I often find my self not eating becasue i worry it will casue pain (my sugary) or becasue I worry it will numb the drug and I will desire more... this often happens.. I eat then take the drug again then eat then take the drug... its a stupid habit.. its 4am I already took 8mg snorted... I really should only take 4mg more.. but dam... I want more.. I want more and more and more and the more I take the more I want... what will it take to just take this drug like normal.. or skip a day.. just self controll? Its really my pain that is my main trigger I had gastric by pass I deal with a lot of complications as a result... sure I lost 255 pounds bug constant pain, going to the bathroom all the time sucks.. the more of the pill in me the better I feel.. *sigh* sometimes I think I would do better on a real pain killer.. but I don't desire other drugs on box like I would on a normal opiet so I stay on it. what are your thoughts.. thank you
I have bad pain from a surgary, and abused drugs for 9 years im sober 6months now. I have been on and off box for 3 years. This time im staying on.
questions.
1. Would taking all 16mg at the start of the day be better then 4 times a day as in. Crave the drug less, feel better, feel less the need to redose (I often feel I need more and more sometimes over taking my pills so I run out early)
2. Would taking it under the tounge work better for me seeing how im looking to just use the drug have it last as long as possible, not abuse it, not get high, not feel the desire to take more and more. I just want to feel normal and I snort it becasue I feel I get more out of the drug, also often I feel bad or my stomache starts to hurt so I dose again.... is it in my head? I have a huge issue here... I know.
3. What advise would you give? I really want to take 12mg a day.. whats the best way to do this? I need to or I will run out to fast... I only need to do it for a few days then I can go back to 16mg.
I am a addict, old habits die hard... I like snorting drugs... I don't do anything else.. I often find my self not eating becasue i worry it will casue pain (my sugary) or becasue I worry it will numb the drug and I will desire more... this often happens.. I eat then take the drug again then eat then take the drug... its a stupid habit.. its 4am I already took 8mg snorted... I really should only take 4mg more.. but dam... I want more.. I want more and more and more and the more I take the more I want... what will it take to just take this drug like normal.. or skip a day.. just self controll? Its really my pain that is my main trigger I had gastric by pass I deal with a lot of complications as a result... sure I lost 255 pounds bug constant pain, going to the bathroom all the time sucks.. the more of the pill in me the better I feel.. *sigh* sometimes I think I would do better on a real pain killer.. but I don't desire other drugs on box like I would on a normal opiet so I stay on it. what are your thoughts.. thank you