MilanHausnerFan
Bluelighter
Setting:
Set or my long-term problems I wanted to minimize:
Substances (and reasons for taking):
T=19:00
T-05:00 - T-04:00: Drunk St. John's Wort broth at home.
T-00:30: I was walking from a bus to a place, thinking about something like "This evening will be good. I don't want to be talking or thinking about any problems. All will be fine." I think it was easier for me to be optimistic, well, it was easier for me to force myself to be optimistic.
T+00:00: We (me and my gf) met at the place where the gig should start at 19:00. Since this was a really small local gig, there was only few people (3 - friend (not really real) with his gf and another person). There weren't anybody selling tickets too. After a while some a bit drunken guy came and talked to me asking when the concert will start and then he called me for a beer and sh*ts. So I went for a beer for me and my gf while regularly talking with him. (Well, this has nothing to do with my social anxiety because I don't have problems with talking to random strangers if they aren't a crowd.)
T+00:15 - T+01:00: Drunk first beer. T+01:00 the concert started. On the beginning we were only sitting and drinking beer with my gf, listening to music.
T+01:30: I went for another beer for me and my gf and drunk it. Then my gf told me, that she don't want to just sit, so we stand up and went closer to stage and started "moving to music" (not really dancing, it was minimalistic :D).
T+02:00: Short break while the bands changed. Gf wanted to go smoke a bit, so we went out and smoked a bit of weed. Nothing really potent, no effects for me.
T+02:20: Back at the gig. We continued in "moving" and then also dancing for a while, but it still wasn't very comfortable for me. However, we were having pretty good time, no worries, good mood... Probably better than usual.
T+02:30: Another (and the last) beer.
T+03:00 (+): Gig is over and we went to gf's home. The mood was still good, we were not talking much while walking, but it wasn't so strange and bad as usual, when I use to over-think everything, blah blah blah. I slept at gf's home and on another day I went home. During this time I had no anxiety at all, no bad feelings, no bad mood, no over-thinking. Or if I had got anything of that, it was pretty easy for me to "stop thinking about that sh*t, I want to have good mood."
Conclusions:
I think, the St. John's Wort helped me to have good mood, and it's the only effect I felt from it. (Or maybe a placebo, whatever.) To have the good mood was pretty important for me that time and it helped me to stay calm and happy during all night and next morning. I'll definitely continue using this herb for my psychical problems.
The alcohol - beers made me more social and decreased my social anxiety. I was able to dance on public (almost). With St. John's Wort it hasn't any downsides like sad feelings I used to have from drinking.
Weed haven't done anything special in my opinion. I was just more hungry, haha :D
Just fast "trip" report. If anyone has any questions, feel free to ask.
- MHF
Tagged by Xorkoth
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- workday with free afternoon - morning at work, afternoon at home
- local (rock) gig (only around 50 people) in the evening
- with girlfriend and some random guy for a while
- night and next morning at girlfriend's home
- with girlfriend
Set or my long-term problems I wanted to minimize:
- mild social anxiety (social introvertism)
- I'm not very social person. I'm quite shy and silent when I'm in society of unknown people. I can't easily talk to new/unknown people. I don't dance at gigs (I voluntarily danced only once, when I was on Lexaurin (bromazepam), lol). All these mentions used to be worse, by time it improves to better way.
- sadness for long-term relationship problems and over-thinking
- I'm going through some long-term relationship (sh*ts) problems with my girlfriend and most of times when I'm with here, it ends up with some anxiety and/or jobation and remorse on both sides. It's hard for me to easily give up on relationship, so I'm still trying to solve it somehow and the most problematic thing for me is my anxiety and over-thinking, which makes it a lot more difficult to solve any problem.
Substances (and reasons for taking):
- St. John's Wort (Hypericum perforatum) broth (or tea if you want) - 2 table spoons (about 7 grams) of the dried herb, 500 ml of water; boiled for 5 minutes, and let sit for 1 hour (this preparation is intended for depressive neurosis treatment). It was the first time for me trying the SJW.
- improving the mood, as an anxiolytic
- Alcohol - beers (3 x 0.5 l). I don't have high toleration for alcohol - after 2 beers I'm "in mood" and after 3 I use to be drunk a bit.
- drinking because I can (in general: improving socialization / decreasing social-anxiety, increasing extrovertism)
- Cannabis - small amount, maybe about 0.05 grams smoked by two people. I have pretty high toleration to weed but I'm not very experienced smoker (I smoke only occasionally for maybe 1 year at all)
- because my girlfriend wanted to and I'm never against it, I count with it as mild-relaxing agent
T=19:00
T-05:00 - T-04:00: Drunk St. John's Wort broth at home.
T-00:30: I was walking from a bus to a place, thinking about something like "This evening will be good. I don't want to be talking or thinking about any problems. All will be fine." I think it was easier for me to be optimistic, well, it was easier for me to force myself to be optimistic.
T+00:00: We (me and my gf) met at the place where the gig should start at 19:00. Since this was a really small local gig, there was only few people (3 - friend (not really real) with his gf and another person). There weren't anybody selling tickets too. After a while some a bit drunken guy came and talked to me asking when the concert will start and then he called me for a beer and sh*ts. So I went for a beer for me and my gf while regularly talking with him. (Well, this has nothing to do with my social anxiety because I don't have problems with talking to random strangers if they aren't a crowd.)
T+00:15 - T+01:00: Drunk first beer. T+01:00 the concert started. On the beginning we were only sitting and drinking beer with my gf, listening to music.
T+01:30: I went for another beer for me and my gf and drunk it. Then my gf told me, that she don't want to just sit, so we stand up and went closer to stage and started "moving to music" (not really dancing, it was minimalistic :D).
T+02:00: Short break while the bands changed. Gf wanted to go smoke a bit, so we went out and smoked a bit of weed. Nothing really potent, no effects for me.
T+02:20: Back at the gig. We continued in "moving" and then also dancing for a while, but it still wasn't very comfortable for me. However, we were having pretty good time, no worries, good mood... Probably better than usual.
T+02:30: Another (and the last) beer.
T+03:00 (+): Gig is over and we went to gf's home. The mood was still good, we were not talking much while walking, but it wasn't so strange and bad as usual, when I use to over-think everything, blah blah blah. I slept at gf's home and on another day I went home. During this time I had no anxiety at all, no bad feelings, no bad mood, no over-thinking. Or if I had got anything of that, it was pretty easy for me to "stop thinking about that sh*t, I want to have good mood."
Conclusions:
I think, the St. John's Wort helped me to have good mood, and it's the only effect I felt from it. (Or maybe a placebo, whatever.) To have the good mood was pretty important for me that time and it helped me to stay calm and happy during all night and next morning. I'll definitely continue using this herb for my psychical problems.
The alcohol - beers made me more social and decreased my social anxiety. I was able to dance on public (almost). With St. John's Wort it hasn't any downsides like sad feelings I used to have from drinking.
Weed haven't done anything special in my opinion. I was just more hungry, haha :D
Just fast "trip" report. If anyone has any questions, feel free to ask.
- MHF
Tagged by Xorkoth
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substancecode_alcohols
substancecode_gabaergics
substancecode_marijuana
substancecode_cannabis
substancecode_hypericumperforatum
substancecode_ethnobotanicals
_combo_
explevel_experienced
exptype_positive
roacode_oral
roacode_smoked
roacode_inhaled
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