So I've been a little emotionally blank for most of my life (not the happiest childhood), and I think I was showing signs of depression from my very early teens (maybe even earlier).
From the age of 16-18/19 I was regularly going out clubbing and drinking heavily while taking stupid amounts of mdma. This was really nice stuff, most people were taking .2-.25 and having a great time, but for some reason I was banging .5-1g a night most of the time (I didn't realise quite how stupid this was for a couple of years.) This would happen at least once every 2 weeks, and I believe I did some lasting damage to my brain. Mandy barely does anything for me when I take it now (I get energetic but no love/empathy, kinda like speed). In my day to day life, my memory and concentration span are much worse, and I almost never feel "happy" - just blank except in rare cases. I'm not saying this is all due to the diz, but it's definitely a large factor. It has got slightly better since I massively cut down on my recreational drug use, but it seems to have stopped improving any more over the last year or so.
Anyway, I'm 21 now and have just been prescribed Celexa (Citalopram). I've read lots of posts on forums saying that SSRIs don't work for mdma induced depression. I was wondering if someone could explain if this is true and why?
To my (limited) knowledge, the drug abuse destroys SERTs so there's not enough seretonin getting to your brain. The SSRIs block seretonin reuptake, so it stays in your brain longer. I cant see why this wouldn't be a good a good way of treating the depression unless I'm missing/misunderstanding something.
From the age of 16-18/19 I was regularly going out clubbing and drinking heavily while taking stupid amounts of mdma. This was really nice stuff, most people were taking .2-.25 and having a great time, but for some reason I was banging .5-1g a night most of the time (I didn't realise quite how stupid this was for a couple of years.) This would happen at least once every 2 weeks, and I believe I did some lasting damage to my brain. Mandy barely does anything for me when I take it now (I get energetic but no love/empathy, kinda like speed). In my day to day life, my memory and concentration span are much worse, and I almost never feel "happy" - just blank except in rare cases. I'm not saying this is all due to the diz, but it's definitely a large factor. It has got slightly better since I massively cut down on my recreational drug use, but it seems to have stopped improving any more over the last year or so.
Anyway, I'm 21 now and have just been prescribed Celexa (Citalopram). I've read lots of posts on forums saying that SSRIs don't work for mdma induced depression. I was wondering if someone could explain if this is true and why?
To my (limited) knowledge, the drug abuse destroys SERTs so there's not enough seretonin getting to your brain. The SSRIs block seretonin reuptake, so it stays in your brain longer. I cant see why this wouldn't be a good a good way of treating the depression unless I'm missing/misunderstanding something.