social life without the E?

[tenshu2k]

has anyone else found a lack of motivation to do much outside of their normal work/school lives with the exception of planned rolls?

i've found myself planning dates 2-3 months out, maybe 2 dates left across this year at least where I want to roll, but aside from that, I have little motivation for much to do socially.

i even have some trips with vacations with friends in between, but i'm not very much excited for those at all. i feel like i'm going just to not be a hermit. (ive never rolled with these people).

as for what i have planned, i'm really excited about all of that. maybe its also because i feel differently about hanging out with people that i've rolled with before, and those relationships are deeper. or maybe i'm only really looking forward to times in the future when i'm on mdma.

anyone feel similar?

 

[Mr. Wobble]

You just start using E? I guess I could kind of see that... but otherwise E has made my social life SO much better. Stopped getting black out drunk because I realized when I was rolling that I should be remembering all the fun times with friends and such.

 

[tenshu2k]

Been about a year now for me. Yeah, I think that has a lot to do with it. My social life before was pretty much getting blacked out drunk most of the time, and after using E the times I've had were just so enjoyable and, moreover, memorable.

So much of the social activity with friends at least centers around drinking, and I find that those memories always end up as a blur, while those on E are just memorable and vivid.

 

[Bearlove]

I think that everyone who has started using MDMA/Ecstasy can relate to your story - all your major events involve rolling so the bits in the middle seem sort of boring.

 

[lolcat]

ecstasy made me realize what it felt like to really just completely lose yourself in the moment. i have used ecstasy not only to feel amazing, but while rolling i have harnessed its power to mend relationships, get closer to new friends, appreciate music more...you just cant do what you do rolling anywhere else.

i have come to use ecstasy as a way to punctuate my busy life. i am still social with my friends, but i remembered again what it was like to really save yourself for a good time. now, i stay in some weekends and study harder for my midterms. its easy to get lost in your life or off track when you feel like rolling is the only way to have fun.

i had started to take e for granted and my rolls were becoming less and less magical. now, im 3 months into a 6 month break and i know my roll is going to be amazing the next time i do so (TAO 2011!!!).

anyway, rant done. my advice to OP-- remember what you think about yourself while rolling and try and use the breaks to attain your personal goals. dont think of them as lulls in your social life, but rather, as pathways toward your next roll. tend to your friends and social life but also tend to yourself. the more deserving you are of your next roll, the better it will be

i dunno if thats just me ranting or if that helped you gain any perspective! sorry!

 

[wee_nu]

My friends and I now plan our social lives so there's one big night every four or six weeks or so. And that's literally all we'll talk about in the run up. It gives us something to look forward to. Obviously in between I still go out with other friends who don't do it and drink and go to clubs and stuff, but its the big nights that are the real release.

I had a friend in this group who didn't join us in rolling for a good year or so, but she always had a brilliant time just drinking and didn't mind that we were all completely spangled. Then she told me she was planning on doing it. I said for her not to because once you experience pills on a night out, every night you're not doing it seems so substandard!! Even the ones that would have been classed as pretty ace before!

 

[purplefirefly]

While I think rolling is really fun I don't let that be the only fun that I have. I have lots of other things that I look forward to. Maybe its because I have to because I don't have many irl friends that take drugs so if I want to have fun with them it sort of has to be on their terms.I'm okay with that. Its fun to sit over dinner and drinks for a few hours with good friends and just have some great laughs.

 

[sheepie]

Then she told me she was planning on doing it. I said for her not to because once you experience pills on a night out, every night you're not doing it seems so substandard!! Even the ones that would have been classed as pretty ace before!

That's like saying you should never eat delicious food or all other foods will taste bad.