Mental Health Social anxiety or paranoia?

[Pinging brah]

Out in public its like i constantly feel uncomfortable, like i need alcohol to comfortably travel to and from work. I feel like people judge me, the way i look, or are challenging me. I get very angry at just a simple look, i wish it was so simple. Also thinking i sound weird or awkward when i speak.
Is this anxiety or paranoia?
Obviously i need to stop my drug use. Regardless, ive felt like this since i was 14, it restricts me alot.

 

[ebola?]

Do you regularly use cannabis?

ebola

 

[Pinging brah]

No, not for years. Ive been using speed lately, only one night binges, once a week. Obviously this doesn't help.

 

[plmar]

I've felt like you do for a looong time. I've somehow learned to cope with it by now. Don't ask me how because I don't know.

 

[coors light]

Sounds like social anxiety. I Feel like this in public quite a bit but if im with a friend my mind tends not to wander towards these thoughts.

 

[LucidShroomDmtier]

how much you use your pc (gaming , social networks ,pornography)?I think using pc rewires our social centers of the brain so when there is no pc in betwen its a hard time to interact . we get used to self centered enviroments and when things get bad we can switch difficulty or close tab etc. everything becomes a matter of button clicks the rewarding centers of the brain are also being rewired (there is a study that says people get dopamine kicks if their posts being liked or they have new msg etc) to the point people get severly adicted to pc for example people who died of exhastion in front o0f their computers cause their where not sleeping eating etc (sounds alot like meth binge to me) .
On the other hand you can get useful information to help you with problems and useful stuff in general i think that about 60% of stuff i know comes from the web. I was addicted to the web and gaming, now i slowly backed of and my social life have started to emerge though now i have to deal with a huge lack of social skills . though i find alot of useful information and people on the web to help me

i have bad social anxiety myself pc if not being the cause then it contributed for me to stay antisocial. cannabis make things much worse to the point i can do only deepthought philosophical conversations or something meaningful with proggression i usually fail to pass that vibe and stay silent , amphetamines make me alot more outgoing but even on mdma i cant express my self to the fullest ( i might want to go and hug everyone to be friends to say hello to talk about anything, just talk ) but it barely happens , lsd might have triggered a psychosis in me cause after one huge trip i can simply get lost in thoughts(while siting with friends , or alone) with a blank eyes very often instead of talking to someone .

i tried recently self suggestion in deep trance were i say to my self that am confident i can talk to everyone i radiate happines and everything negative goes away it helps cause i get much more relaxed positive mood and its being written all over me and strangers look the same to me especially in the train, even if i acctually get paranoid in social situation i remember the meditation and it gives me strength . also the longer i stay sober meditate practice yoga go on bike rides do stuff i like , i started tango recently and i want to start a martial art kung fu i think, i love my self more and lately i start to convince people to love me and i acctually start to sympathize and love other people .

peace bro you contribute a huge deal to your reality

 

[Pinging brah]

Glad your doing good Lucid. I went through a similar time when i was younger. I can't play games much anymore, without meth anyway. My motivation's so low, i wish i could get back into the games i love.
Its been a week since my last binge, getting back into gym this week, i will improve.

 

[mydrugbuddy]

@ the OP: I went through and am gradually coming out of a very simillar problem. Staying in and not interacting makes things much worse. Like aversion therapy if you gradually expose yourself more and more these feelings will subside. Travelling even just around the UK or wherever you live helped me get a better perspective, as does hiking in beautiful parts of the country like Snowdonia, the wide open spaces and nature itself is so calming, and the walking itself cleanses some anxiety.

Realising the scale of the world and how small our part is helps a lot to overcome social anxiety. We are not so important that everyone looks at us and judges. I wish i could put what ive just written into practice more often, as it really does work. Instead i took the shortcut route of benzos which is not the long term answer atall. Now im still left with some social anxiety/paranoia but have a heavy benzo addiction/dependency to go with it.

 

[plmar]

@ the OP: I went through and am gradually coming out of a very simillar problem. Staying in and not interacting makes things much worse. Like aversion therapy if you gradually expose yourself more and more these feelings will subside. Travelling even just around the UK or wherever you live helped me get a better perspective, as does hiking in beautiful parts of the country like Snowdonia, the wide open spaces and nature itself is so calming, and the walking itself cleanses some anxiety.

Realising the scale of the world and how small our part is helps a lot to overcome social anxiety. We are not so important that everyone looks at us and judges. I wish i could put what ive just written into practice more often, as it really does work. Instead i took the shortcut route of benzos which is not the long term answer atall. Now im still left with some social anxiety/paranoia but have a heavy benzo addiction/dependency to go with it.

Oh man that sucks ;_;
I'd get a benzo prescription but the addiction aspect is worrying. i don't have an addictive personality but I can imagine how easily I would become dependent on those fucks.

What you said about going out and seeing nature and all that, I've been doing that to get away from people and from society and distance myself even further. It's refreshing but might not help much with social problesm