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so hard these last few days

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Kadain

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why is is so hard to post my final thoughts...I have aids and pancreatic cancer
Christmas is a dream I hope I can make..I am so scared and alone. foregive me all and this fucking spelling check
love your family..love those you can...find joy and happiness there you can
 
Kadain said:
why is is so hard to post my final thoughts...I have aids and pancreatic cancer
Christmas is a dream I hope I can make..I am so scared and alone. foregive me all and this fucking spelling check
love your family..love those you can...find joy and happiness there you can
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I'm sorry to hear about your condition. Hope is eternal, as soon as we pass everything I believe will make sense in the next life.
 
I hope you find the peace, tranquility and happiness you were unable to find here in your next adventure. I'm not sure what happens to our energy when we move on but i am sure it will be better than this. Fly with the angels:)
 
Your post affected me...we are all going to pass, and I try to think, now of what will really matter in the end? Love....the love I see in my daughter's eyes when she talks to me. Making my family laugh and feel loved.

My heart is with you Kadain.
 
Kadin, I am so sorry that you feel scared and alone. I have accompanied several friends and family members up to their transition from this life and it is always a heroic journey because it is truly one that brings one's own essential separation/aloneness to the forefront. And yet, to the last breath you take, connection is available and important. We are here to connect with each other and when there is no urgency (like impending death) we find all sorts of means to get in the way of true connection. What I have seen in my time with those that are drawing close to leaving is a kind of miraculous grace as all those useless obstacles melt away and connection can be felt.

Death is uncomfortable for most people. Maybe your loved ones cannot speak about it, or cannot bear for you to speak about it and this increases your sense of isolation. Try to find people that will speak openly, cry openly, laugh openly and let them know what you need when you need it. No one can step in and fix death. But sometimes all you need is for someone to crawl in bed with you and hold you. Other times you want to be distracted. When you need to speak about your fears you need someone to listen, not to try to brush them away. Death is scary because it is a mystery. But death happens to every body and the egos housed by our bodies, but what of our spirits? Our spirits are the part of us that has never been alone and never will be. Know that the peace you existed in before your birth, before your personality, before this experience you call life, is the peace you will still exist in. I can't claim to know what that existence is like but Thich Nan has this to say:
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/thich-nhat-hanh-life-after-death_55e5ff24e4b0c818f61971c7

I would like to extend my most sincere offer to speak with you as much as you want or need at this time. PM me anytime.<3
 
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