Sleep Deprivation

[Candyman2645]

Ok so this is sort of a face my fears thing for me. I have mild schizophrenia I am not on any medication. I have tripped on Acid a few time, dxm plus weed, and high dose dxm (I dont do dxm anymore however do to the dangers) none of which ever ever was effected by my mental health. The only thing that effects my schizophrenia badly is lack of sleep and stimulants. About a year ago I was up one night at the end of a long week with little sleep and all of a sudden the gates of hell opened and all its demons came to talk to me to tell me to hurt others (specific people not in my family) they described how to do it and everything. I frantically put a pillow over his head to try to make it stop and after what seemed like forever they went away and he fell asleep. I would never consider hurting myself or anyone else because these voices tell me to. After that night I hears a lot of small wispers, my name, other harmless stuff like that anytime I stays up too late at night. I have been afriad to be a night owl for the last year (and I am a night owl at heart) but I have decided to face my fear head on and find the evil voices once again. But this time prepared and this time I will stay up through them instead of going to sleep.

I am currently 34.5 hrs in. Last night got a little dicey at points due to paranoia and the fact I am already seeing some very vivid movements in the dark and faces. Over all though after how I coped with last night I am feeling good. I will have a close friend ready to come help if needed but I doubt this will be the case. I have done some dumb things with drugs before that have given me a strong mind to separate real from trip. My first dose of lsd was 5 200ug tabs by myself, I have done 35 benadryle as a first dose. So i have thrown myself in over my head before and handled myself ok.

It's 5:43 Currently I am getting open eye visuals like the walls breathing. (Like I said even minor sleep deprivation like 35hrs can do big things for me) I currently feels like I am on a low dose acid trip like 200ug also very euphoric and not noticing any major sleepiness drinking some coffee now though

6:27. In a group setting with friends I'm getting a cross between double vision and acid trails off and on. Also time is starting to move by while I'm very zoned out into some grateful dead

7:27 36.5hrs without sleep only change is I'm being to feel disassociated from every around me

Tagged by Xorkoth
substancecode_sleepdeprivation
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[d1nach]

Bro I know how this might all seem normal to you (trust me I have narcolepsy and at one point said "nothing major just some weakness you know paralysis nothing abnormal" haha. Im not trying to come at you or judge you but I know if I had what your describing id consider that very abnormal and hard to live with. I really think you should consider seeing a psych doctor. I can understand if u dont want to take meds because they do offen have shit side effects but perhaps you could get a as needed pill you can take if the voices start getting like before because that puts you in control if u ever need help and just knowing you have backup if the voices get really bad id think would help make them better because you know if they get too much you have a backup plan

 

[Jbaines154]

Ok so this is sort of a face my fears thing for me. I have mild schizophrenia I am not on any medication. I have tripped on Acid a few time, dxm plus weed, and high dose dxm (I dont do dxm anymore however do to the dangers) none of which ever ever was effected by my mental health. The only thing that effects my schizophrenia badly is lack of sleep and stimulants. About a year ago I was up one night at the end of a long week with little sleep and all of a sudden the gates of hell opened and all its demons came to talk to me to tell me to hurt others (specific people not in my family) they described how to do it and everything. I frantically put a pillow over his head to try to make it stop and after what seemed like forever they went away and he fell asleep. I would never consider hurting myself or anyone else because these voices tell me to. After that night I hears a lot of small wispers, my name, other harmless stuff like that anytime I stays up too late at night. I have been afriad to be a night owl for the last year (and I am a night owl at heart) but I have decided to face my fear head on and find the evil voices once again. But this time prepared and this time I will stay up through them instead of going to sleep.

I am currently 34.5 hrs in. Last night got a little dicey at points due to paranoia and the fact I am already seeing some very vivid movements in the dark and faces. Over all though after how I coped with last night I am feeling good. I will have a close friend ready to come help if needed but I doubt this will be the case. I have done some dumb things with drugs before that have given me a strong mind to separate real from trip. My first dose of lsd was 5 200ug tabs by myself, I have done 35 benadryle as a first dose. So i have thrown myself in over my head before and handled myself ok.

It's 5:43 Currently I am getting open eye visuals like the walls breathing. (Like I said even minor sleep deprivation like 35hrs can do big things for me) I currently feels like I am on a low dose acid trip like 200ug also very euphoric and not noticing any major sleepiness drinking some coffee now though

6:27. In a group setting with friends I'm getting a cross between double vision and acid trails off and on. Also time is starting to move by while I'm very zoned out into some grateful dead

7:27 36.5hrs without sleep only change is I'm being to feel disassociated from every around me

I'm here for you. 100%. If you need help with anything, let me know. But I think you should get some sleep now. You can't never sleep again. It's very unhealthy for your brain.

 

[Jbaines154]

I'm not judging or anything. I'm here.

 

[d1nach]

"demons came to talk to me to tell me to hurt others (specific people not in my family) they described how to do it and everything. " auditory hallucinations

"put a pillow over his head to try to make it stop and after what seemed like forever they went away and he fell asleep." Visual halluinations

never consider hurting myself or anyone else because these voices tell me to. Internal auditory hallucinations

After that night I hears a lot of small wispers, external auditory hallucinations

seeing some very vivid movements in the dark and faces.
Paranoia

etting open eye visuals like the walls breathing. Disturbed sensory processing

double vision and acid trails off and on. More altered sensory processing
Also time is starting to move by while I'm very zoned out dissociation

I really think youve just dealt woth this soo long you dont notice the extent of the shit you put up with because if its not demons it doesnt seem so bad but almost every line you said to me suggests you really moght. Benefit from seeing help for schizophrenia
. But youve really done an amazing job at handling all these symptoms I know I couldnt

 

[Jbaines154]

I'm here for you. 100%. If you need help with anything, let me know. But I think you should get some sleep now. You can't never sleep again. It's very unhealthy for your brain.

"demons came to talk to me to tell me to hurt others (specific people not in my family) they described how to do it and everything. " auditory hallucinations

"put a pillow over his head to try to make it stop and after what seemed like forever they went away and he fell asleep." Visual halluinations

never consider hurting myself or anyone else because these voices tell me to. Internal auditory hallucinations

After that night I hears a lot of smuall wispers, external auditory hallucinations

seeing some very vivid movements in the dark and faces.
Paranoia

etting open eye visuals like the walls breathing. Disturbed sensory processing

double vision and acid trails off and on. More altered sensory processing
Also time is starting to move by while I'm very zoned out dissociation

I really think youve just dealt woth this soo long you dont notice the extent of the shit you put up with because if its not demons it doesnt seem so bad but almost every line you said to me suggests you really moght. Benefit from seeing help for schizophrenia
. But youve really done an amazing job at handling all these symptoms I know I couldnt

Agreed. You're doing great. But you don't know if someday you might not be able to control it. So I'd go to the doctor. Just get checked out you know?

 

[Collegestoner]

I agree with the above but out of curiosity what do these demons look like?