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Six months off PST for myself and my twin brother. Very emotional day!

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axeman14

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Hi everyone.
Today marks six months off of PST for myself and my twin brother, after approximately one year of 2x daily use. For those looking to quit, it was worth every bead of sweat and every tear we cried together throughout our recovery. I won't say that I am back to 100% as I'm sure this will be a life long struggle with opiates, but I feel like I have turned things around for myself.
Stay strong!
 
congratulations. It's been 9 months for me now, had a massive PST habit. It was completely worth it, the side effects sucked, loss of sex drive and lack of ambition were some big ones. The thing with PST is that it's great for about 3 months then after that, no matter how long you take a break, it sucks. I guess i could say the same about other opiates as well, once you hit that honeymoon phase and are over it and deep into addiction, there's no going back, all the fun has been had.

you should be back to 100% soon, it was right around the 6 month mark that the lingering symptoms finally went away. It was hell getting there though but worth it in the end.

I did a PST taper to kratom to loperamide (over several months) and got out pretty easy, had a few slip ups with pharms and codeine but all in all, am completely free of opiates and PAWS at this point.
 
I used drugs with my twin for years & I do not believe there is a bigger enabler than a twin. One glance, a gesture, the hidden language where you can read each others minds & you are both thinking the exact same thing. They can also provide better emotional support than anyone else. Congratulations axeman14 to you both. The strength of the bond of blood works both ways. Be a better brother today because no one knows you like your bro.
 
Wow, thanks for the response everyone! I really appreciate the kind words.
RobotRipping & Stevenski pretty much summed up our experience with their posts! We started out drinking it about twice a week and then it slowly merged into a daily thing just to keep the WDs away. We are both naturally very social beings but in the depths of our addiction, we were both essentially shut-ins. This included avoiding calls from family and visits from friends. There was always an excuse not to go out and enjoy life. One day we both looked at each other before we went to pick up our massive bags of seeds and that look summed up what we were both feeling. We did some research and picked up some loperamide which helped the physical symptoms but the depression and anxiety were something I wouldn't want anyone to experience in their lifetime.

All that being said, it was totally worth the pain. For anyone reading, I would go through it again to be where I am today. I am in a healthy relationship with a woman who accepts my past and I am off to grad school this September. Life DOES get better :)
 
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