Stimulants Signs of Mental addiction or is this different?

[1cheeselova]

I'm dabbling in different RC amphetamine analouges, and pharm amphetamines, I'm curious as if I should take a break from these until symptoms subside?
I porbably use a phenethylamine class chemical about 1-5 times a month, different types, sometimes there very distantly related, sometimes very similar, sometimes i use the same one for the while, whatever. I've really grown to yearn the effects these stimulants let me do, as appose the effects they directly have upon me, i.e give me seratonin, epinephrine, and what not. Such as I do not feel like "ugh i really want that headbuzz and headspace", my feelings are "Ugh i'd really like to want to compose a song or draw a picture, or have a really meaningful conversation".
Do you believe these feelings show sign of an addiction, or is this just something that will depend on my will power not to go crazy. I have willpower yes but when I grabbed something I get a knack for, I'm not the best at saying "woah their chill out" until something bad happens. Has happened somewhat with mairjauna, which nothing directly terrible but, its probably the key to my lethargy and probably why i enjoy amph, then again with benzo's which ended in a crazy predicament, and now I gain little pleasure at all, just anxiety relief. (never was addicted, or had any tolerance really, one binge just did me for good it seems)

Sorry if this is scrambled, coming off a buzz and feeling the most prevelant urgings and I'd like to try to get it in my head to control this unless I start feeling symptoms of the "high" urges

 

[sekio]

If you need stimulants to fnction normally (i.e. do things that are normally done sober like art, music, and conversation), I'd say that counts as mental addiction. Whether or not that becomes bad for you is another question.

 

[MusicGuy]

Stop all drugs (specifically stimulants in this case) for 2 weeks. Start eating lots of fruit, going for runs/walks, showering daily and keeping yourself healthy. At the end of the 2 weeks if you feel you are at the top of your game take stimulants again... I bet you a lot of it will backfire on you.

I recently ran out of amphetamine and decided to clean myself up for a week or so. Once I took it most of what I had done had been reversed.

I have the same feelings as you on stimulants. I love long meaningful conversations, beautiful music, I feel as if it makes me.. me. Addiction is all in your head, but if you even question that you aren't in control then it's time to lay off them for a little while.