I met a girl when i was 19. I never penetrated her, but gave her an orgasm using my fingers. After that i met around 7-8 girls but never managed to lose my virginity.
When i was 23, i was quite pissed off about it actually. So i went to Amsterdam and had sex with a prostitute.
I had read a book that women like men to say certain things during sex, demeaning things. This book was fucking idiotic and i hope the writer of it dies.
Not all women like that. I said a bunch of demeaning things to the prostitute, well, she just seemed really really insulted.
I came back home, thinking, "finally i can talk to women with sexual confidence!" and so i did. But not very long after, i noticed my thoughts and behaviour started changing. I was watching TV at one point and laughing at Star gate SG-1, where the blonde main character is talking about space. I thought to myself "Ha ha... a woman talking about traveling in space.."
That's when i realized, i had gone from a superromantic to a fucking douchebag. What happened after that is irrelevant to this story.
However, it's never been easy for me to score with women, even though i can get them superinterested in me easily. So i went back to Amsterdam and continued to have sex with prostitutes.
What i noticed, was that every time i did this, my brain chemistry seemed to alter. I developed fetishes, thought patterns, behaviours, feelings, that weren't me.
Well i had sex with a street hooker which turned out to be catastrophic. Because what changed in me after that has been a nightmare. I literally lost all interest in sexual intercourse, and just spend 1 hour a day masturbating.
I was hoping you could brainstorm with me. Cause i cannot figure this out - it seems to me that last street hooker blocked certain feelings in my body so i cannot figure out what's causing this. I need more brains than one, cause i am afraid to have sex now.
More information: It seems like whatever i do, think and say gets "stuck" when i have sex. So if i tell a prostitute that i like water, well, now i drink water every 5 minutes during the day.
It's not supposed to be this way and i hate it. No one else has this fucking problem. This has been a complete disaster ever since april 2014. The only thing i figured out to do was to have sex with a new prostitute to get a lesser "curse", say as little as possible, act as much as myself as i can while im seeing her.
This seems like a story from a horror book i know, but it isn't. It's completely true.
Has ANYBODY got a clue what's going on?
When i was 23, i was quite pissed off about it actually. So i went to Amsterdam and had sex with a prostitute.
I had read a book that women like men to say certain things during sex, demeaning things. This book was fucking idiotic and i hope the writer of it dies.
Not all women like that. I said a bunch of demeaning things to the prostitute, well, she just seemed really really insulted.
I came back home, thinking, "finally i can talk to women with sexual confidence!" and so i did. But not very long after, i noticed my thoughts and behaviour started changing. I was watching TV at one point and laughing at Star gate SG-1, where the blonde main character is talking about space. I thought to myself "Ha ha... a woman talking about traveling in space.."
That's when i realized, i had gone from a superromantic to a fucking douchebag. What happened after that is irrelevant to this story.
However, it's never been easy for me to score with women, even though i can get them superinterested in me easily. So i went back to Amsterdam and continued to have sex with prostitutes.
What i noticed, was that every time i did this, my brain chemistry seemed to alter. I developed fetishes, thought patterns, behaviours, feelings, that weren't me.
Well i had sex with a street hooker which turned out to be catastrophic. Because what changed in me after that has been a nightmare. I literally lost all interest in sexual intercourse, and just spend 1 hour a day masturbating.
I was hoping you could brainstorm with me. Cause i cannot figure this out - it seems to me that last street hooker blocked certain feelings in my body so i cannot figure out what's causing this. I need more brains than one, cause i am afraid to have sex now.
More information: It seems like whatever i do, think and say gets "stuck" when i have sex. So if i tell a prostitute that i like water, well, now i drink water every 5 minutes during the day.
It's not supposed to be this way and i hate it. No one else has this fucking problem. This has been a complete disaster ever since april 2014. The only thing i figured out to do was to have sex with a new prostitute to get a lesser "curse", say as little as possible, act as much as myself as i can while im seeing her.
This seems like a story from a horror book i know, but it isn't. It's completely true.
Has ANYBODY got a clue what's going on?
