PaulAxe
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Hi everyone! So in late 2015 I started developing paranoid schizophrenia because of cocaine abuse and I was still a teenager in a development phase which caused me to develop this disease.
I even posted a thread here when I was around 15-16 but got kicked out because I was a minor and I needed help because I overdosed and had a panic attack.
I'm very familiar with Bluelight, I've known this forum ever since I was new.
So I continued to consume drugs even after the panic attack and it came to a stage where I felt like I was in hell and I saw demons everywhere in my room. Tactile hallucinations were the breakfast of the day when I suffered from the symptoms. I even heard a demonic voice scream into my face when I was trying to sleep at the age of 18. In 2019 things got worse. I started getting more paranoid and I started being seen by a psychiatrist that literally saved part of my life for 2 years. After sectionings and sectionings in the worst mental hospital of the world (Sobral Cid, in Coimbra, Portugal) which has 16 sections all divided (one is forensics, for criminals) I finally learned my lesson and was prescribed with 250mg of clozapine at night. I started gradually reducing with the help of my new psychiatrist and now I'm at 50mg per night.
I still have hallucinations such as the coffee bumbling from supposed poison but I simply ignore it and drink the coffee. Sometimes I get tactile hallucinations before sleeping but I ignore them aswell. I'm currently very conscious of my disease because of the medication I took and due to my hard work not touching the cocaine.
What I'm trying to say is that clozapine is the best medication to treat schizophrenia. You can die from it if prescribed at a high dose, but luckily now I'm at a very small dose and hopefully I will not die from it.
My long path of drug abuse lead to me to develop depression, anxiety disorder and schizophrenia. I still suffer from depression and a very aggressive anxiety disorder in which the smallest thing of things causes a full blown anxiety attack.
I even posted a thread here when I was around 15-16 but got kicked out because I was a minor and I needed help because I overdosed and had a panic attack.
I'm very familiar with Bluelight, I've known this forum ever since I was new.
So I continued to consume drugs even after the panic attack and it came to a stage where I felt like I was in hell and I saw demons everywhere in my room. Tactile hallucinations were the breakfast of the day when I suffered from the symptoms. I even heard a demonic voice scream into my face when I was trying to sleep at the age of 18. In 2019 things got worse. I started getting more paranoid and I started being seen by a psychiatrist that literally saved part of my life for 2 years. After sectionings and sectionings in the worst mental hospital of the world (Sobral Cid, in Coimbra, Portugal) which has 16 sections all divided (one is forensics, for criminals) I finally learned my lesson and was prescribed with 250mg of clozapine at night. I started gradually reducing with the help of my new psychiatrist and now I'm at 50mg per night.
I still have hallucinations such as the coffee bumbling from supposed poison but I simply ignore it and drink the coffee. Sometimes I get tactile hallucinations before sleeping but I ignore them aswell. I'm currently very conscious of my disease because of the medication I took and due to my hard work not touching the cocaine.
What I'm trying to say is that clozapine is the best medication to treat schizophrenia. You can die from it if prescribed at a high dose, but luckily now I'm at a very small dose and hopefully I will not die from it.
My long path of drug abuse lead to me to develop depression, anxiety disorder and schizophrenia. I still suffer from depression and a very aggressive anxiety disorder in which the smallest thing of things causes a full blown anxiety attack.
