hatrix
Bluelighter
WARNING: long post, still havent slept so not surprising......
So I've been taking stimulants pretty regularly over the past 3-4 months, maybe a little longer but not too much. Its not every day of every week, but usually 3-5 days in a row, with the longest break being 4 days. Usually 1-2 days break at most.
It has mostly been Adderall, but also includes a bit of Ritalin and 4-FA. MDMA was taken twice over the period. Once at the beginning and last about 10 days ago.
The past week and a half or so I've had 4-FA 3 or 4 times, with days in a row usage. Highest single dose was ~160mg. Doses aftee were a little smaller, but all except my last use had one or two small boosters (45mg or so). In between and after I had been taking Ritalin. I believe I went through 12 20mg pills total. My highest dose of Ritalin was 60mg, but after experiencing a terrible comedown with really bad chest pressure/tightness I took less. 40mg a couple times, then 20mg.
All doses were plugged. Highest adderall dosage was 60mg, never redosed. Also, 99% of the adderall was 20mg XRs crushed.
Take note: I sleep every night, almost always 7-8 hours+.
Two days leading up to this i had 40mg Ritalin, followed by 20mg the next day.
So yesterday at 6pm (13 1/2 hours ago) I plugged 40mg of Adderall. I definitely have a stim tolerance, thats clear from my daily use, but I never go above 60mg with adderall and 40mg is more of a medium dose. I hadent had adderall in weeks up until this point, so I figured it would be decently enjoyable.
I got speedy as usual. About 2 hours later though I basically felt like I was coming down, heart pounding, increasing anxiety. I drink V8 fusion while speeding, making sure I take in good levels of potassium and stay hydrated. Also took my usual multivitamin and magnesium glycinate. So I was expecting to have any horrid comedown, but it seemed worse than usual. Anxiety got worse and worse as expected, and I'm left checking my HR constantly.
Now I always eat something when I start coming down. Even ate before I dosed. I have no issues with appetite. So I don't think any levels could have been out of whack? However, I felt I was just to hot and sweaty and my heart was pounding a lot along with high chest tightness/pressure, it didnt help it was 80+ with 70% humidity. I was at computer the entire time though and figured id be ok in the heat.
I eventually felt so crappy I went to lye down around 2:00 AM or so to try to calm down. My arms were randomly getting stiff and sore along with my legs. It seemed my BP was higher than normal or something but I had no way to measure it.
HR seemed ok, was 109 when taken earlier and never seemed higher.
Laying down watching TV is where it got scary though. I had made another meal and got another drink to help me get some rest and stay hydrated, etc. However, I was having heavier than normal chest pressure/tightness along with lots of random muscle spasms in different areas. Eventually I was getting sharp pains in my left shoulder blade and this seemed to trigger what I THOUGHT was me having a heart attack.
My chest pressure increased a lot suddenly and so much it scared me. I stood up immediately and got weird rushing sensations and sort of depersonalization while attempting to walk to the bathroom. My HR definitely skyrocketed and seemed erratic. I thought for certain I was having an actual heart attack and almost burst in someones room to have them drive me to the ER. I tried rationalizing in my head though that it seemed super unlikely given my dosage and took a single aspirin and tried to calm down. I googled tons more out of paranoia, never really coming to any conclusions. Eventually took a hot shower at 3:20AM or so thinking my BP was very high, and it seemed to help a little.
It all seemed to be something with my BP. For hours afterwords I couldn't lye down without the repeated bad chest sensations starting to come back, so I sat up for hours and eventually felt a lot better.
Its about 7:30 AM currently and I can lay down without much of a problem now. I continued to drink water the entire time. I have had a panic attack before that had me in the ER from 4-FA, quite a while ago sometime last year. I take valium for anxiety, 5mg 3x daily but ran out a week and a half ago or so.
I'm not sure if it was all really anxiety. I feel like normal as far as comedowns go now, and will be trying to sleep soon. When it happene though I was struck with a lot of panic/fear.
So I've been taking stimulants pretty regularly over the past 3-4 months, maybe a little longer but not too much. Its not every day of every week, but usually 3-5 days in a row, with the longest break being 4 days. Usually 1-2 days break at most.
It has mostly been Adderall, but also includes a bit of Ritalin and 4-FA. MDMA was taken twice over the period. Once at the beginning and last about 10 days ago.
The past week and a half or so I've had 4-FA 3 or 4 times, with days in a row usage. Highest single dose was ~160mg. Doses aftee were a little smaller, but all except my last use had one or two small boosters (45mg or so). In between and after I had been taking Ritalin. I believe I went through 12 20mg pills total. My highest dose of Ritalin was 60mg, but after experiencing a terrible comedown with really bad chest pressure/tightness I took less. 40mg a couple times, then 20mg.
All doses were plugged. Highest adderall dosage was 60mg, never redosed. Also, 99% of the adderall was 20mg XRs crushed.
Take note: I sleep every night, almost always 7-8 hours+.
Two days leading up to this i had 40mg Ritalin, followed by 20mg the next day.
So yesterday at 6pm (13 1/2 hours ago) I plugged 40mg of Adderall. I definitely have a stim tolerance, thats clear from my daily use, but I never go above 60mg with adderall and 40mg is more of a medium dose. I hadent had adderall in weeks up until this point, so I figured it would be decently enjoyable.
I got speedy as usual. About 2 hours later though I basically felt like I was coming down, heart pounding, increasing anxiety. I drink V8 fusion while speeding, making sure I take in good levels of potassium and stay hydrated. Also took my usual multivitamin and magnesium glycinate. So I was expecting to have any horrid comedown, but it seemed worse than usual. Anxiety got worse and worse as expected, and I'm left checking my HR constantly.
Now I always eat something when I start coming down. Even ate before I dosed. I have no issues with appetite. So I don't think any levels could have been out of whack? However, I felt I was just to hot and sweaty and my heart was pounding a lot along with high chest tightness/pressure, it didnt help it was 80+ with 70% humidity. I was at computer the entire time though and figured id be ok in the heat.
I eventually felt so crappy I went to lye down around 2:00 AM or so to try to calm down. My arms were randomly getting stiff and sore along with my legs. It seemed my BP was higher than normal or something but I had no way to measure it.
HR seemed ok, was 109 when taken earlier and never seemed higher.
Laying down watching TV is where it got scary though. I had made another meal and got another drink to help me get some rest and stay hydrated, etc. However, I was having heavier than normal chest pressure/tightness along with lots of random muscle spasms in different areas. Eventually I was getting sharp pains in my left shoulder blade and this seemed to trigger what I THOUGHT was me having a heart attack.
My chest pressure increased a lot suddenly and so much it scared me. I stood up immediately and got weird rushing sensations and sort of depersonalization while attempting to walk to the bathroom. My HR definitely skyrocketed and seemed erratic. I thought for certain I was having an actual heart attack and almost burst in someones room to have them drive me to the ER. I tried rationalizing in my head though that it seemed super unlikely given my dosage and took a single aspirin and tried to calm down. I googled tons more out of paranoia, never really coming to any conclusions. Eventually took a hot shower at 3:20AM or so thinking my BP was very high, and it seemed to help a little.
It all seemed to be something with my BP. For hours afterwords I couldn't lye down without the repeated bad chest sensations starting to come back, so I sat up for hours and eventually felt a lot better.
Its about 7:30 AM currently and I can lay down without much of a problem now. I continued to drink water the entire time. I have had a panic attack before that had me in the ER from 4-FA, quite a while ago sometime last year. I take valium for anxiety, 5mg 3x daily but ran out a week and a half ago or so.
I'm not sure if it was all really anxiety. I feel like normal as far as comedowns go now, and will be trying to sleep soon. When it happene though I was struck with a lot of panic/fear.
