DeathIndustrial88
Bluelighter
Hi
I recently went on a binge with a crappy bag of what I thought was m-amp. And it may have been but it was mostly white powdery stuff, barely any crystals.
I mostly stuck to IV, plugging and intranasal.
A few days in I started noticing a tingling in the back of my head on the left side. If I rubbed my hand past the back part of my head, it would tingle. Almost like one of those chills you get when listening to a good song, except it was localized to that one spot of my head. It was not a pleasant tingle really either though, but it wasn't painful either.
It also sort of felt like I had a knot in the left side of my brain or something. I became extremely consciously aware that I was two halves of a brain working together in tandum, except I could feel something was off with the left side. Very subjective and hard to explain.
After eating and sleeping some, it felt like it would go away, but as soon as I would try even the tiniest bit of this stuff, the tingling came back right away.
I started to become incredibly sensitive to loud sounds and light. And the tingling started moving from the back of my head and into the side and my lower left jaw.
I also started having pressure on both sides of my head and actually thought one night that I was about to die or that it was some sort of blood clot or mini-stroke.
I ceased my use and have gotten plenty of sleep now. It seems to have gotten better, no permanent damage as far as I know. The tingling & pressure has mostly subsided. I some times feel a residual tingle if I turn my head wrong or press on certain parts of my neck or head. But it is no longer constant like it was there for a few days.
My question is, what happened to me? Was this the stuff causing this? Are there cuts or RC's known for causing symptoms similar to this? I've used m-amp for 20 years off and on and have never had an issue quite like this. Was this just a pinched nerve somewhere in my head? Were my symptoms dangerous? Was this just psychosommatic? Using benzos & opiates would help out for maybe a half hour but the tingling would always return.
I had been getting some sleep and eating and know I wasn't just going crazy and feeling things.
I have no idea what was going on. Never felt anything like it before. I should add that I have been under a lot of stress and just lost my mom. The night before I went to her funeral was the night it was at it's peak in intensity and I thought for sure I was gonna die or had really fucked up and was gonna be left permanently damaged. But the next day it seemed to have reduced about 80% and I am feeling almost 100% back to normal, yet very fatigued, which isn't so shocking considering the passing of my mother and the many hours of riding in a car I've had to do.
I also broke out with red & pink bumps all over my chest, scalp and sides of my nose for about 3 days but have no idea if it was related and they have since disappeared.
Could it have been an infection? Nerve damage? I'm glad I'm better now but I can't help but wonder and am gonna be worried about using stims again & it possibly resurfacing or even being worse next time.
I should also mention that after my second or third shot, I got very lightheaded and dizzy. I switched to plugging after that. This lightheaded and dizziness persisted the entire time. I also would get that weird feeling like my left ear would suddenly sound like it was going completely deaf and I'd feel like I was gonna faint and then my hearing would come back in slowly. I do have anxiety disorders and some times it will cause me to freak out about health issues, but even the person I was using with reported a lightheadedness and dizziness after their 2nd or 3rd hit too and also complained of similar issues like I was having, although they apparently didn't have the tingling/knot in brain type of issue I was experiencing.
Anyone else experience anything like this? I know no one here is a doctor and I'm not looking for one on BL, but I know there are many intelligent people here with real world experience and figured maybe somebody could give me a clue as to what this was or if they've had any similar experiences.
I recently went on a binge with a crappy bag of what I thought was m-amp. And it may have been but it was mostly white powdery stuff, barely any crystals.
I mostly stuck to IV, plugging and intranasal.
A few days in I started noticing a tingling in the back of my head on the left side. If I rubbed my hand past the back part of my head, it would tingle. Almost like one of those chills you get when listening to a good song, except it was localized to that one spot of my head. It was not a pleasant tingle really either though, but it wasn't painful either.
It also sort of felt like I had a knot in the left side of my brain or something. I became extremely consciously aware that I was two halves of a brain working together in tandum, except I could feel something was off with the left side. Very subjective and hard to explain.
After eating and sleeping some, it felt like it would go away, but as soon as I would try even the tiniest bit of this stuff, the tingling came back right away.
I started to become incredibly sensitive to loud sounds and light. And the tingling started moving from the back of my head and into the side and my lower left jaw.
I also started having pressure on both sides of my head and actually thought one night that I was about to die or that it was some sort of blood clot or mini-stroke.
I ceased my use and have gotten plenty of sleep now. It seems to have gotten better, no permanent damage as far as I know. The tingling & pressure has mostly subsided. I some times feel a residual tingle if I turn my head wrong or press on certain parts of my neck or head. But it is no longer constant like it was there for a few days.
My question is, what happened to me? Was this the stuff causing this? Are there cuts or RC's known for causing symptoms similar to this? I've used m-amp for 20 years off and on and have never had an issue quite like this. Was this just a pinched nerve somewhere in my head? Were my symptoms dangerous? Was this just psychosommatic? Using benzos & opiates would help out for maybe a half hour but the tingling would always return.
I had been getting some sleep and eating and know I wasn't just going crazy and feeling things.
I have no idea what was going on. Never felt anything like it before. I should add that I have been under a lot of stress and just lost my mom. The night before I went to her funeral was the night it was at it's peak in intensity and I thought for sure I was gonna die or had really fucked up and was gonna be left permanently damaged. But the next day it seemed to have reduced about 80% and I am feeling almost 100% back to normal, yet very fatigued, which isn't so shocking considering the passing of my mother and the many hours of riding in a car I've had to do.
I also broke out with red & pink bumps all over my chest, scalp and sides of my nose for about 3 days but have no idea if it was related and they have since disappeared.
Could it have been an infection? Nerve damage? I'm glad I'm better now but I can't help but wonder and am gonna be worried about using stims again & it possibly resurfacing or even being worse next time.
I should also mention that after my second or third shot, I got very lightheaded and dizzy. I switched to plugging after that. This lightheaded and dizziness persisted the entire time. I also would get that weird feeling like my left ear would suddenly sound like it was going completely deaf and I'd feel like I was gonna faint and then my hearing would come back in slowly. I do have anxiety disorders and some times it will cause me to freak out about health issues, but even the person I was using with reported a lightheadedness and dizziness after their 2nd or 3rd hit too and also complained of similar issues like I was having, although they apparently didn't have the tingling/knot in brain type of issue I was experiencing.
Anyone else experience anything like this? I know no one here is a doctor and I'm not looking for one on BL, but I know there are many intelligent people here with real world experience and figured maybe somebody could give me a clue as to what this was or if they've had any similar experiences.
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