undead
Greenlighter
forgive me for my lack of time spans... but i would not be able to remember them if i tried hehe.
first of all... to let everyone know, i was somewhat depressed going into this having had a conversation with my mother earlier about what was going on in my life. i was VERY reluctant to try it because i KNEW that it would probably be too intense for my state of mind at that time. my friend talked me into trying it however. we made our way into the woods where there was a picnic table and a creek around. it was approximately 1am so it was very dark, but we had a neon light sitting on the table with a disk man and those little portable speakers.
he had 12x extract and filled a decent sized gravity bong hit. i drew in the smoke and FILLED my lungs... i held it in until i couldnt anymore, i watched my smoke rise into the night sky and looked down at my friend... still feeling nothing... he asked me "so... how do you feel?" (keeping in mind he's an expert and had that wizard like thing goin on) as soon as i tried to answer... i noticed i couldnt say anything other than "oh... my... god!" in an instant it felt like i was laying flat on the ground... then sprung back up without ever moving... like a cardboard cutout on a spring release mechanism which sprung me from reality into this other world.
i was walking on walls and ceilings of this HUGE empty circus tent with different colored panels. i kept walking in a spiral path in an attempt to reach the outermost point of the circle which was the cieling. i had 3 people there with me... and the weird thing was... despite the fact that they were there... they werent there. it's hard to explain but that's how i remember it. my friend kept drawing me back toward the middle then i realized i didnt want to be in the middle i wanted to be on the outter edge. so id begin my journey again. the entire time of walking i was staring at the center of the circle. everytime id go back to the middle the ground became more and more vivid and real to me. i looked at the grass and noticed EVERY strand in every which way it pointed.
somehow my huge colorful tent gradually turned into walls and cielings of dirt... i dont recall it ever happening but it did. the vortex where the walls met the cielings looked so far away and so small... and i was constantly walking uphill and backwards as if i had been knocked down and was frantically trying to escape the wrath of a supreme being. no matter how far i would crawl back into those spaces... they just were unattainable. i kept looking back at them as if they were a place to escape or at least crawl into and just chill... but i just couldnt seem to get to them. then my friend pulled me back to the table again and said "so??? what do you think?" and just like THAT... i was back to normal again... well... not COMPLETELY normal, but i could at least tell the difference between reality and fantasy now... we ended up chillin out there for about an hour or so so that i KNEW i was ok to drive.
it was like my mind had an on and off switch. the thing is... this is the FIRST time ive EVER had something that truely satisfied my craving for total choas, insanity, frenzy, darkness, and beauty all at the same time.
first of all... to let everyone know, i was somewhat depressed going into this having had a conversation with my mother earlier about what was going on in my life. i was VERY reluctant to try it because i KNEW that it would probably be too intense for my state of mind at that time. my friend talked me into trying it however. we made our way into the woods where there was a picnic table and a creek around. it was approximately 1am so it was very dark, but we had a neon light sitting on the table with a disk man and those little portable speakers.
he had 12x extract and filled a decent sized gravity bong hit. i drew in the smoke and FILLED my lungs... i held it in until i couldnt anymore, i watched my smoke rise into the night sky and looked down at my friend... still feeling nothing... he asked me "so... how do you feel?" (keeping in mind he's an expert and had that wizard like thing goin on) as soon as i tried to answer... i noticed i couldnt say anything other than "oh... my... god!" in an instant it felt like i was laying flat on the ground... then sprung back up without ever moving... like a cardboard cutout on a spring release mechanism which sprung me from reality into this other world.
i was walking on walls and ceilings of this HUGE empty circus tent with different colored panels. i kept walking in a spiral path in an attempt to reach the outermost point of the circle which was the cieling. i had 3 people there with me... and the weird thing was... despite the fact that they were there... they werent there. it's hard to explain but that's how i remember it. my friend kept drawing me back toward the middle then i realized i didnt want to be in the middle i wanted to be on the outter edge. so id begin my journey again. the entire time of walking i was staring at the center of the circle. everytime id go back to the middle the ground became more and more vivid and real to me. i looked at the grass and noticed EVERY strand in every which way it pointed.
somehow my huge colorful tent gradually turned into walls and cielings of dirt... i dont recall it ever happening but it did. the vortex where the walls met the cielings looked so far away and so small... and i was constantly walking uphill and backwards as if i had been knocked down and was frantically trying to escape the wrath of a supreme being. no matter how far i would crawl back into those spaces... they just were unattainable. i kept looking back at them as if they were a place to escape or at least crawl into and just chill... but i just couldnt seem to get to them. then my friend pulled me back to the table again and said "so??? what do you think?" and just like THAT... i was back to normal again... well... not COMPLETELY normal, but i could at least tell the difference between reality and fantasy now... we ended up chillin out there for about an hour or so so that i KNEW i was ok to drive.
it was like my mind had an on and off switch. the thing is... this is the FIRST time ive EVER had something that truely satisfied my craving for total choas, insanity, frenzy, darkness, and beauty all at the same time.
