swmo
Bluelighter
She's been gone longer than i knew her. we actually met here. she commented on a post of mine from about 2 yrs ago. then, i came back here to thank those who were showing support. i remember this 1 woman who said she showed the pics i had posted here to many kids who were curious about needles. It was a great deterrent, she said. we spoke on the phone for several hours. we hit it off. we made big plans, meeting being only the first of it. we were both going to move to Albuquerque when the time was right for us. yeah, we had plans. LOL
We set the dates from 2/12-2/18 to include Valentines Day. We had plans for that day, for sure! She was gonna ride a bus for like 10 hours and i was going to be driving 12 hours from the opposite direction. It was to be my new beginning when i'm done here. (needed by family) I was going to be her getting out of a town she hated new beginning. She'd given up on romance years ago. But I re-ignited that spark for her.
I tried and tried to reach her on 1/19 all morning, short of sending smoke signals. Around 3, her son called me from her phone. she was unresponsive that morning & pronounced dead. i didn't believe him. i called her home town pd. they said yes, they brought her in this morning.
She had 2 kids, 18 & 22. Her daughter, the eldest, was having a hard time getting up the cremation fee. I sent in $150, the price of the bus ticket I was gonna pay to meet her. She was a member and founder of a group of people who suffer from HS. I can't pronounce the name of the affliction, but she did tons of work for hs-usa.org getting it it's non-profit status. Many of those people in her groups pitched in and got it done, i assume. Her daughter was very polite to me until she got the money. she thanked me. that was it. no funeral as per Tam's request. celebrate her life with a party. a party held 1225 miles away in AZ.
This woman sure seemed like the 1 for me. I'm kinda mad at her if she ODed, which may have happened. I told her to be careful about consumption before we met so she wasn't gakked out when we met. She may have died of heart failure in her sleep, though.
I haven't felt the same since we really started talking. Now I really feel she had a message for me, for our relationship to be so white hot intense, so short. There's a message of harm reduction or needle exchange type work in it. She thought I'd be great at it. I think that's what I'm going to try to do.
Tammie once left a message on my voicemail that she loved me "to death". =...(
We set the dates from 2/12-2/18 to include Valentines Day. We had plans for that day, for sure! She was gonna ride a bus for like 10 hours and i was going to be driving 12 hours from the opposite direction. It was to be my new beginning when i'm done here. (needed by family) I was going to be her getting out of a town she hated new beginning. She'd given up on romance years ago. But I re-ignited that spark for her.
I tried and tried to reach her on 1/19 all morning, short of sending smoke signals. Around 3, her son called me from her phone. she was unresponsive that morning & pronounced dead. i didn't believe him. i called her home town pd. they said yes, they brought her in this morning.
She had 2 kids, 18 & 22. Her daughter, the eldest, was having a hard time getting up the cremation fee. I sent in $150, the price of the bus ticket I was gonna pay to meet her. She was a member and founder of a group of people who suffer from HS. I can't pronounce the name of the affliction, but she did tons of work for hs-usa.org getting it it's non-profit status. Many of those people in her groups pitched in and got it done, i assume. Her daughter was very polite to me until she got the money. she thanked me. that was it. no funeral as per Tam's request. celebrate her life with a party. a party held 1225 miles away in AZ.
This woman sure seemed like the 1 for me. I'm kinda mad at her if she ODed, which may have happened. I told her to be careful about consumption before we met so she wasn't gakked out when we met. She may have died of heart failure in her sleep, though.
I haven't felt the same since we really started talking. Now I really feel she had a message for me, for our relationship to be so white hot intense, so short. There's a message of harm reduction or needle exchange type work in it. She thought I'd be great at it. I think that's what I'm going to try to do.
Tammie once left a message on my voicemail that she loved me "to death". =...(
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