Rehab?!

[Kayyyleee]

I wasn't sure where to post this, sorry if it's in the long thread.
I've been using alcohol/drugs for a couple years.
I started with drinking, moved onto weed, pills, coke, ecstasy, then mixing everything together.

Everything is starting to really effect me right now, I feel like I don't know what "normal" is, or even remember what it's like to be 100% sober.
I want to stop doing everything, I just don't know how. When I try to imagine my life without drugs I go crazy thinking about it! It just seems insane to me... to live the rest of my life without ever smoking a bowl or going to a crazy roll party. I just want to be my old, happy, carefree self again though.. I feel like i'm losing myself.

I was considering an outpatient rehab? I don't think I need some intense detoxifying 90 day treatment. Just help and support. Then I don't know if I'm being retarded, because addicts don't want help and are in denial? I just don't want to get any further into the scene. I'm starting to consider things I never have before. Drugs are all that's ever on my mind, fuck I even dream about them, and it seriously scares me. They are taking over my life. As much as I hate the side effects, and for the most part, don't even enjoy my highs half as much as I used to... I still can't manage to just stop. If a pill is in front of me, i'll take it.. no doubt.

So, my question is, how do I get help? Do you think rehab is necessary?

 

[Ixchellian]

As long as you're not on opiates.... serious in/outpatient rehab is a little overkill.

Back when I was younger, I made chemical cocktails just as you describe. It didn't matter what it was, if it got me high, I'd do it. One of my more infamous mixtures was LSD, exstacy, DXM, bud, NO2, psylocibin, mescaline, and a couple good toots of coke for good measure. All at once at the beginning of a party-night.

I spent so many years zonked out of my gourd, eventually it just got boring..... and I found other things that were fun. Like mountainbiking. Natural adrenaline highs can be so much fun!

Anyways.... get support from some good friends, load up the MP3 player with your favorite tunes, and find some other healthy distractions. And stay away from triggers! Luckily, from what I understand you're not on anything that's got you with a pure physical addiction, like with opiates. And if that's true, count yourself lucky, as the biggest problem you'll face with everything else is the psychological dependence.

 

[djmazz]

exercise seems to be a popular thing to try. its amazing the kind of high you can get after going for a serious run! personally the only thing that ever stopped me from doing drugs (for a month anyway) was having a seizure from em, but thats not likely to happen with the things you listed. I also cannot remember what being 100% sober is like, i found it easier to accept the drug problems i had if i didnt 'quit' but cut back, seemed more realistic... and tried not to beat myself up too much if i stuffed up, coz i knew it would happen time and time again

 

[paranoid android]

Id agree rehab is abit overkill here atleast for now. You arent on anything physically addictive besides alcohol so besides the head fuck of being sober again you won't experience any withdrawal symptoms.

You really have 2 options here. Quit altogether and say youve had your fun or really slow down and keep the E's, coke or whatever to a really bare minimum and keep it to a monthly thing or something. Though with coke once your hooked that can be pretty damn hard to do