Mental Health Recreational drug use with panic disorder

[en10se]

I have had panic disorder for a few years now , and am a frequent flyer to urgent care/ hospitals / doctors, from panic attacks.

Recently I started back on oxycodone, and got a plug for 30mgs, and been taking 15mg in the morning before food, then 15mg after my breakfast (over 3 hours),

I get a nice euphoria but sometimes, days like today, I get very paniced over thinking I might of taken a "fake pill", even after confirming they are real. It ruins my high and sometimes i go to the doctor thinking my lungs are going to fail because I just took some fake oxy (fent or some rc),

When i get to the doctor i feel fine, almost instantly when they tell me im ok. then the euphoria returns. How common are fake pills because I am careful to get good friends with reliable plugs and the pills are never sketch, but after reading the "fake pharm megathread" ive been getting panic attacks, thinking ill be anothet statistic (dieing)

Any info or advice/ input.

Im on benzos also i take once at 6pm everyday (spaced out after oxy)

 

[manboychef]

If it is causing you so much panic then why do it? I too suffer from Panic Disorder. I would just either get a legit prescription or just stop. Recreational drug use is supposed to be just that, recreation. If it is triggering you to have a bad time and you can't control when it happens, then just don't do it.

 

[silverwheel]

I second what manboychef said. If it's aggravating your panic disorder, then it would be best to quit. I would also add that it doesn't sound like you're properly treating your panic disorder in the first place. Are you seeing a psychiatrist? If not, you should be. Good treatment should prevent you from frequently going to urgent care and hospitals. And if you're taking your benzos while spaced out on oxy, you're not properly using those. The benzo is there to quell your panic attacks and keep you from going to the hospital. You really should limit your use of them for that purpose. And a psychiatrist can get you started on better long-term treatment. Hope you can find some better relief in the future.

 

[paranoid android]

If it's making your panic disorder worse what possible reason could you have to continue using opiates? I mean it doesn't sound like your having a great time or anything so perhaps quit before you get panic attacks due to god awful opiate wd. I would never recommend opiates as a way to treat anxiety at all and alone they may have made mine worse

 

[crunchyplanets]

I have had panic disorder for a few years now , and am a frequent flyer to urgent care/ hospitals / doctors, from panic attacks.

Recently I started back on oxycodone, and got a plug for 30mgs, and been taking 15mg in the morning before food, then 15mg after my breakfast (over 3 hours),

I get a nice euphoria but sometimes, days like today, I get very paniced over thinking I might of taken a "fake pill", even after confirming they are real. It ruins my high and sometimes i go to the doctor thinking my lungs are going to fail because I just took some fake oxy (fent or some rc),

When i get to the doctor i feel fine, almost instantly when they tell me im ok. then the euphoria returns. How common are fake pills because I am careful to get good friends with reliable plugs and the pills are never sketch, but after reading the "fake pharm megathread" ive been getting panic attacks, thinking ill be anothet statistic (dieing)

Any info or advice/ input.

Im on benzos also i take once at 6pm everyday (spaced out after oxy)

I also suffer from panic disorder. The ER knows me..and unfortunately it's just a walk around the corner for me to get there.

I used opiates from September 2013 until November 2014. Basically daily. I liked it because it helped with my anxiety. Buuut, as time went on I began to worry that I was damaging my heart. So my heart began racing, racing, racing. I began to have panic attacks everyday, and tachycardia everyday. I stopped the pills, went right to the er and my heart rate was above 120, sitting. They had to give me ativan in an IV. Well, unfortunately after all of this i got LOTS of tests done, and i racked up 8000 dollars in bills. They ended up saying it's anxiety. I got counseling and i feel better.

I will say this though, that whatever you are worried about now you'll get over and it will just be replaced with some other worry until you eventually just quit the opiates. Also, one of the withdrawal symptoms of opiates is anxiety, and the more you take over time, the withdrawals will just be worse. Just be careful, I'd hate for anyone to go through what I went through from November 2014 until July 2015. I wanted to kill myself. My kid is the only thing that kept me alive and fighting to feel better.

I wish you the best!