reassure me

[the other side]

why is it
that at times
i think i am
in love
with
you?
yet others
i want to end it all
even before it's begun?
am i scared?
yes, i believe i am.
this is all so new to me,
sharing my soul with someone.
but knowing you most likely
are not 'the one'
do i continue to exerct myself?
what if i'm wrong?
like waves,
my emotions toy with my brain.
what do i want?
does this feel right?
maybe i still feel pressured,
obligated.
I don't like that.
at times, i want nothing but you
others, nothing to do with you.
i don't have the time right now
to think things out.
maybe thats why i want to put us on hold?
but what if, during that time,
i lose you?
i couldnt deal with that.
then i get a sign
and you pop into my mind
and i smile,
thinking of you.
its wonderful, being with you
i think i am just afraid
to let anyone get too close
to give anyone so mcuh of an opportunity
to hurt me where it hurts most:
my heart
my soul.
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can you see through it all? can you see... me?

 

[ice-9]

very thought provoking.
I can relate to this, and all I can say is that I hope you are able to sift through your emtions. It is confusing now, but just hang in there.
-ric