Rie
Bluelighter
well its not really a poem or a story,More of a prose I guess. Anyways its what happens when I actaully listen to and write down the thoughts that go racing through my head.
...there is no hell, only that which we've created
there is no peace, only that which we've destroyed
there is no happiness, no joy, no wonder, no amazement
there is nothing but nothingness
a black hole which is a void that fills the void left by Life
Life.
a simple word with complex meaning
a different meaning to each
each has their own Life or lack there of.
how can there be Life if there is no happiness, no joy, no wonder...
no wonder!
Life.
meaningless meaning.
meaning, given to life so that each may endure the pain of existence.
There is no happiness, no joy, no wonder, no amazement
but there is pain.
pain
pain to relish and bask in
Life.
pain.
the two are interchangable
many know their relationship
few know the difference.
blessed and cursed are the selected that can distinguish.
blessed.
while they suffer they may know Life, in all its beauty, and glory, its radiance that shines through them
cursed.
while they know Life; Life is not always there, time with Life comes and goes and in Life's absence there is pain.
The pain is not the same for them. The pain is worse.
Pain and Wanting.
Wanting Life, needing Life. Wishing Life had never show itself to you. Wishing you never knew its beauty and glamour.
Desire.
Desiring Life. Wanting more and wishing you never knew, all in the same breath, the same heartbeat. Each heartbeat yearns for Life.
the heart wants to show everyone true LIfe. To bring Life, to give Life, to give happiness,
joy,
wonder,
amazement.
to separate Life and pain to everyone, for all time. So everyone can experience the Life that you know.
The mind knows better.
Not all are strong enough to know the difference between Life and pain Not all can cope with pure Life and then deal with sheer pain while Life is away...
because Life does go away, and it is best that way.
Strong are those who can taste Life and then live in the pain in Life's absence,
Yet weak, because always wanting more Life
again and agian, more, more, more frequently because the more Life you experience, the less pain you can endure. Then no better off than those who can only see pain. Because now you can only see Life.
Life is all that matters, no pain, no sorrow, no sadness, disease, famine, flood, war, no heartache...no control of the pain. No god. Life is your god. All you do is for Life. Life consumes and ravages and tricks you into believeing it is good this way. It is better. It the only way you can live. You are too weak now. Too weak for the pain. You belong to Life and then it leaves you with nothing but what you fear most, but all you want is Life.
Life is happiness
bliss
euphoria
but you've gone too far
there is no Life now, only the wanting, needing desiring of Life.
And you are left alone. You are no longer one who sees Life and pain as the same. You have seen Life, touched, smelled, and tasted life.
But while Life has changed you so has the pain.
And you are left.
You know the difference.
Life has made you see the difference, there is no way to go back.
You will always wantLife.
But you are left with pain.
Alone with pain.
No Life.
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...Few are those who see with their own eyes and feel with their own hearts...Albert Einstein
[This message has been edited by Rie (edited 30 December 1999).]
...there is no hell, only that which we've created
there is no peace, only that which we've destroyed
there is no happiness, no joy, no wonder, no amazement
there is nothing but nothingness
a black hole which is a void that fills the void left by Life
Life.
a simple word with complex meaning
a different meaning to each
each has their own Life or lack there of.
how can there be Life if there is no happiness, no joy, no wonder...
no wonder!
Life.
meaningless meaning.
meaning, given to life so that each may endure the pain of existence.
There is no happiness, no joy, no wonder, no amazement
but there is pain.
pain
pain to relish and bask in
Life.
pain.
the two are interchangable
many know their relationship
few know the difference.
blessed and cursed are the selected that can distinguish.
blessed.
while they suffer they may know Life, in all its beauty, and glory, its radiance that shines through them
cursed.
while they know Life; Life is not always there, time with Life comes and goes and in Life's absence there is pain.
The pain is not the same for them. The pain is worse.
Pain and Wanting.
Wanting Life, needing Life. Wishing Life had never show itself to you. Wishing you never knew its beauty and glamour.
Desire.
Desiring Life. Wanting more and wishing you never knew, all in the same breath, the same heartbeat. Each heartbeat yearns for Life.
the heart wants to show everyone true LIfe. To bring Life, to give Life, to give happiness,
joy,
wonder,
amazement.
to separate Life and pain to everyone, for all time. So everyone can experience the Life that you know.
The mind knows better.
Not all are strong enough to know the difference between Life and pain Not all can cope with pure Life and then deal with sheer pain while Life is away...
because Life does go away, and it is best that way.
Strong are those who can taste Life and then live in the pain in Life's absence,
Yet weak, because always wanting more Life
again and agian, more, more, more frequently because the more Life you experience, the less pain you can endure. Then no better off than those who can only see pain. Because now you can only see Life.
Life is all that matters, no pain, no sorrow, no sadness, disease, famine, flood, war, no heartache...no control of the pain. No god. Life is your god. All you do is for Life. Life consumes and ravages and tricks you into believeing it is good this way. It is better. It the only way you can live. You are too weak now. Too weak for the pain. You belong to Life and then it leaves you with nothing but what you fear most, but all you want is Life.
Life is happiness
bliss
euphoria
but you've gone too far
there is no Life now, only the wanting, needing desiring of Life.
And you are left alone. You are no longer one who sees Life and pain as the same. You have seen Life, touched, smelled, and tasted life.
But while Life has changed you so has the pain.
And you are left.
You know the difference.
Life has made you see the difference, there is no way to go back.
You will always wantLife.
But you are left with pain.
Alone with pain.
No Life.
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...Few are those who see with their own eyes and feel with their own hearts...Albert Einstein
[This message has been edited by Rie (edited 30 December 1999).]
