( ... makes me sad to see this which speaks to me so deep, yet know i can never submerge myself in it as once i did )
choose wisely in all things, choose as wisely as the fragile truth of the moment allows. infinite futures exist ... is this the one which was fated to be, or is it simple circumstance, an accident?
the most difficult truth to accept is that we will never know these things. we must boldly move forward, somehow reconciling the need to learn from the past without ever allowing ourselves to be captured by it.
"There is no future like the present" ... we must learn to live in the now, understanding the relative importance of what has come before and what will come after, always in relation to this which is real. only this is real, truly. only this moment.
time is such a slippery thing. malleable. it may be altered, through perception, through substances. merge the past with the present (depressants), the present with the future (stimulants), past-present-future (hallucigens) ... and even merge the collective past with the collective present (empathics). all of this without use of substances through meditation, or developement of a sense of heightened/selective perception, or through the strongest acts of will.
what this buys us? more/less of the now, if used in the correct proportion. I want to CRAM MORE INTO EVERY INSTANT ... to this end, i scorn depressants. to this end, i find stimulants to be a great aid. to this end, i see the limits of hallucinagens within my current paradigm and see the necessity for selectiveness in environment and company in all other altered states.
above are the realizations from my last trip, finally crystalized for me after lurking in the back of my mind for a bit. comments welcomed.
- aby
[This message has been edited by abygale (edited 04 October 2000).]
choose wisely in all things, choose as wisely as the fragile truth of the moment allows. infinite futures exist ... is this the one which was fated to be, or is it simple circumstance, an accident?
the most difficult truth to accept is that we will never know these things. we must boldly move forward, somehow reconciling the need to learn from the past without ever allowing ourselves to be captured by it.
"There is no future like the present" ... we must learn to live in the now, understanding the relative importance of what has come before and what will come after, always in relation to this which is real. only this is real, truly. only this moment.
time is such a slippery thing. malleable. it may be altered, through perception, through substances. merge the past with the present (depressants), the present with the future (stimulants), past-present-future (hallucigens) ... and even merge the collective past with the collective present (empathics). all of this without use of substances through meditation, or developement of a sense of heightened/selective perception, or through the strongest acts of will.
what this buys us? more/less of the now, if used in the correct proportion. I want to CRAM MORE INTO EVERY INSTANT ... to this end, i scorn depressants. to this end, i find stimulants to be a great aid. to this end, i see the limits of hallucinagens within my current paradigm and see the necessity for selectiveness in environment and company in all other altered states.
above are the realizations from my last trip, finally crystalized for me after lurking in the back of my mind for a bit. comments welcomed.
- aby
[This message has been edited by abygale (edited 04 October 2000).]
ast,Present,Future . When I first read the piece as a child it seemed rather comical and amusing. But as an druggie