If you eat enough... you should feel like you are losing it for a while. i usually get a high increase in anxiety during the beginning of the trip... and coming up. It was never too much too handle. It mostly happened when i was younger and first started using mushrooms. After dozens of times of use the anxiety thing isn't really a big deal... it just means they are kicking in. As the anxiety grows, you get a weird feeling... almost of detachment from the objects and the world that surrounds you. Finally when everything has reached its most intense level, it all vanishes and you are left with an awesome and amazing euphoria. The detachment changes to appreciative sense of all things. On mushrooms, I usually see everything as in the most perfect placement. This gives me tremendous amounts of joy. I look at the simplest things, and i take part in the simplest of actions, and I am ecstatic about all of it.
Other people bug and argue with themselves for hours. i have a friend who does that, and he doesn't want to eat mushrooms with me for that reason. i keep telling him there will be no need to argue with himself if he is with me. we'll go to the woods and stack rocks or throw them. We'll dance. We'll climb trees. Simple things that are lots of fun. Hell... running through the woods on a good dose of mushrooms is one of the best things ever. Laughing just to laugh is amazing on mushrooms.
You only battle yourself if you want to. Think of why you want to use mushrooms. Don't take them in your room just to see what happens. Go outside eat a bunch of them and watch the world get real beautiful.... unless of course you want to battle yourself. Then do it... I've done it before. Mushrooms can get pretty nasty if you use them in this way.
I always felt as though it was a choice... but most people don't think so. People either have a bunch of awesome experiences and a couple weird ones, or they have a few weird ones and then they keep themselves in that mindset every time they eat mushrooms. Every time i eat them I say here we go, here comes the next best day of my life.
This turned into a weird post... but basically if you wanna feel good on mushrooms... then feel good. If you wanna battle yourself and arouse a whole bunch of weird feelings... then go for it... Both will turn out to be interesting experiences I am sure. mushrooms can be the most pleasurable thing ever... or they can be hell... You decide.
